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Thread for the down at heart and lacking in optimism

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duchesse · 28/12/2006 19:33

I probably shouldn't do this, but...lovely though the ladies on my current ttc threads are, there are times when I feel I need a break from the upbeat atmosphere.

My story- 38, going on 39, three children easily conceived in my 20s, ttc number 4 for 3 years before finally achieving a pregnancy that ended in foetal death at 12 weeks and miscarriage at 13 weeks (Oct 2006).

Frequent lapses of hope. I simply can no longer believe that it will all be OK, that this month will be the one.

Now contemplating stopping trying.

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duchesse · 28/12/2006 20:39

I've had a day 21 progesterone test that showed what I already knew from temperature charting- that I was ovulating normally (and regularly). Nothing else. The miscarriage proved that I am not infertile, merely subfertile. My GPs have lost interest.

Same husband, nothing has changed but our age.

It's a mystery.

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Mumpbump · 28/12/2006 20:36

Know how you feel. Have a gorgeous 11mo ds. Having had a late m/c followed by an early m/c, I am seriously contemplating the fact that we may not be able to have another. Dh doesn't get it - he already has two children from his first marriage. TTC last month, as you probably know, and it didn't take. I am not a patient person, admittedly and I fell pg again after the first m/c quite quickly without trying too hard, so I had an expectation that I'd fall pg again really quickly. Now I'm winding myself up that we won't even be able to conceive, let alone carry to term... Not in your league, I know, but still feeling glum about the whole thing...

Natty1806 · 28/12/2006 20:18

Know how you feel, well kind of.

I am trying for my first (18mths) have slight PCOS am on clomid have a lap and dye + ovarian drilling booked in March but can't shake the feeling that maybe it is not happening for a reason.

I did have one month where i allowed myself to think maybe i am but it was such a let down when AF arrive whereas it is easier now kind of telling myself it is very unlikely to happen so when AF arrives i am not so upset.

Did you have any tests? As you were trying 3 years for No 4?

Ammy12 · 28/12/2006 19:43

I must admit, I'm only 25 and only in the first month of trying for no.2 so prob shouldn't post here BUT I do tend to be pessimistic and sometimes too much optimism makes me even more nervous!! I get scared of getting my hopes too high.

beansprout · 28/12/2006 19:36

I do know what you mean. We've been trying for 6 months but I am post-depo, I am 37 and dh is 48 so I don't feel the odds are stacked in our favour. It's not necessarily rational but sometimes I just don't think it is going to happen. A little voice says "told you so" every time AF arrives