Thread 9. TTC#1 The thread where we unanimously delete Ovia.

House move complete...3 days to catch up on! This will take a while! Any BFPs?

Crhulhoo it absolutely sucks. I also think that this winter is not helping at all. I can feel my depression creeping up on me. Hoping things get better for you and all of us struggling from time to time.

stark i love the sound of your wedding, and I love that you found your dress! What have you done with it after? Mines just in a box. i kind of want to get it out and try it on but i dont think it does up, haha! We had a gorgeous wedding in a tiny chapel next to the sea in Greece, with a big party at a beach bar next door, it was so perfect. DH had to pretty much organise the whole entire thing (well, actually, he did organise the whole entire thing) i gave him some ideas about what i wanted the flowers and food and stuff like, but he was a star and pulled it all off superbly! i was a bit panicked beforehand as there was nothing i could do to help, but it was great. threatened to be rained off (it was completely outside) but the rain turned up at about 3am so it wasn't too bad!!

ct sorry you're feeling a bit rubbish :( life has ups and downs. i know it feels like the downs are worse and longer than the ups but we have to get through it. and everything somehow has an ability to work itself out somehow. i know thats not going to make you feel any better but i can't do very well at these things :-S p.s whats EPO and why are you taking it for TTC? the only EPO i know is what the tour de france cyclists were doing for blood doping?

re: the gym - i havent been for a week as my neck has been so bad. and ive eaten pizza two days in a row this week. UMMMMM next week the healthy plan will kick back in!! my necks feeling a bit better, thank goodness.

my AF still hasn't shown up... really annoying as i want it to hurry up come and go so I can get another FW in soon... it was due today (CD27)... since stopping the pill i had one 28 day cycle, then a 27, then three 26 day cycles (i think... a few days short anyway) so maybe they are just getting longer again. pfft. i didn't mind having shorter ones actually, so just waiting and wondering when its going to show up now!

I told OH a couple of days ago that I had had a dip but that my mood seemed to have lifted, but not yet that it had gone down again. I do wonder whether the EPO interacts with the antidepressants which would be annoying because then I brought it on myself.

Thank you, Starky. I've bought a new colouring book and some pens today, and I also treated myself to a new pair of boots. Will do some more work and then have a lazy evening.

SuchaJem, I go to the gym fairly regularly but I think I'll have to up the intensity a bit to get endorphins going.

starky the sperm machine is a real risk. I will try and DTD outside fw too I think. He does seem to be getting more on board with the whole shebang though which is a relief.

cthulhoo are there other things you can do to try and lift your mood? Exercise is usually a big help for me.

Just quickly checking in and declaring thread bankruptcy - haven't fully caught up yet. Think depression is rearing its head as my mood has taken a rather sudden and sharp downturn for the last few days (I'm ok, I'm not at risk - just feeling consistently very crappy). Really don't want to up my meds though as I don't think that'll help with ttc. Hmph.

ever glad you've had a good chat with your partner. It does help so much to get things out and talked through.

I feel like we've turned a bit of a corner too - we had a good shag this morning and DH was very obliging for the first time since ttc. Before he was all "This doesn't feel natural all you want me for is my sperm etc etc blah".

CD 14 today and we've DTD Monday, Wednesday, Friday and Sunday. Will crack on similar next week as have still not POAS and not entirely sure when will ov.

You poor love ipatches I can't begin to imagine the hurt and pain :( Take good care of yourself and be kind to yourself.

I'm so sorry ipatches. I won't say I know how you feel, but I had an early MC in Nov at 6 wks and I can tell you how I felt in case it's any help. I was devastated, and I felt like I couldn't justify feeling so sad about losing a pregnancy so early on, but then I realised that I wasn't just mourning the pregnancy, but also the plans that had come with it - the 12 wks scan, the due date etc. We decided to wait for at least one cycle before trying again, which I found very hard because I just wanted to be pregnant again right away. I was still tracking using opks and I ovulated a week later than normal. For some reason, seeing that positive opk mad me feel a whole lot better. And then once AF came, I felt a lot more positive; it was a brand new cycle. I'm now on my second cycle since the MC and I'm a lot more cautious but I have got most of the excitement back as well. Obviously when I do get that bfp, I'm sure it'll be mixed emotions and the first milestone will be to get past 6 wks. But I'm confident it will happen.
The nurse at the epau told me that 1 in 4 (or even as many as 1 in 3) pregnancies end in early miscarriage. A lot of those will probably go undetected (women thinking it's AF), but unfortunately it's also a taboo subject that people don't like to talk about.

My doctor said to look at the positives - at least I know I can get pregnant. It was a bit insensitive at the time, but I can appreciate it now!

Sorry for the essay!

Hello back Starky!!! [waves] your wedding dress sounds lovely and the party itself as well.
Choc we were having that discussing at work the other day. How big or small engagement party/ wedding say nothing about what the marriage will turn out to be.

I am not married but I would like to marry my DP. He is well aware of this. And now with TTC I would like it as well for the babies sake. I have been here for over ten years but always worry that they will decide to send us all foreigners away one day and that then me and baby will be split up from DP . Everyone says nah!!!! But one does worries.
I am back from hell period hormones and feeling loads more positive. Also spoke to DP regarding sex life and I am relieved

Just catching up and adding some more hugs for you ipatches, I'm so sorry. Look after yourself x

Hugs ❤️ Ipatches 😢 You have loads of love and support from all of us. I know we aren't physically there but we are all here to support you. It's a huge thing you're going through and we will all be here. Huge hugs ❤️

starky your wedding sounds absolutely perfect ❤

choc wow. Your OH's ex is like the ultimate psycho.

Thanks everyone. Spent literally all of yesterday in tears before pouring wine down my neck. More tears today. I didn't expect to feel like this. It's just to have such a high last weekend of two really clear BFPs, and then the crushing blow that I couldn't even hold onto the pregnancy for a week. I don't know if I'll be okay again. I certainly won't look at TTC with the excitement and optimism I had going into this. Even if I do conceive, all I can see is it being tainted with fear and anxiety that the same will happen.

Love vanjo kwick

I'm so sorry Ipatches, it must be devastating 😢

So sorry ipatches 😢💐 that's beyond sucky. Look after yourself.

So sorry patches, that's really shit.

Starky your wedding sounded perfect so romantic....

Blimey I just teared up at How I met your mother cos Robin cant have kids :(

I was sharing vajayjay names with my cousin yesterday and she misheard fanjo as vanjo... Excellent!