Thank you so so much ladies, your support really does mean the world to me 
lucie welcome home, can you have any time off before you’re back to work just to decompress after EC? Hope you and your partner are able to be kind to each other. There are so many women on my low AMH group on FF who have got to blast out of 3 eggs. And tonnes who had one follicle, one egg, one embryo and one baby. It is a cliche that it only takes one, but it’s true. We are keeping everything crossed for your news tomorrow - you have some cracking blasts in the freezer, an NHS cycle coming up, and there is every chance you already have your baby chilling out waiting to be transferred. It’s only natural to feel utterly deflated, but you are still very much in the game. You can and you will and you are going to be a Mum. And your child (or children - who’s to say that there isn’t more than one future person hanging out in that freezer already?!) will know just how very very deeply wanted they were, and how much their Mum and Dad went through to have them. Rosie the Riveter has become my IVF icon - WE CAN DO IT ladies!!
star the ICSI one is a good question as I thought the same. If the sperm gets into the egg, it’s fertilised, right? Essentially, whether it's IVF or ICSI, it seems fertilisation is primarily determined by egg quality, like you say. To the best of my knowledge, what ICSI does is level the playing field in cases of male factor (or in my case because the shells of frozen eggs are harder and the sperm can’t get in otherwise). Once the sperm is into the egg, whether by IVF or ICSI, it’s mostly down to egg quality as to whether it actually fertilises. That may not be entirely accurate so don’t quote me! But AFAIK I know ICSI and IVF have approx equal fertilisation rates.
With the IVF eggs, we did have a lovely mental image of DH’s sperm chasing my eggs round in the playground playing kiss chase. I saw it like a reverse episode of ‘Take me out’- loads of bachelor sperm vying to be picked by the egg to join them on a date to the isle of Fernando 
sammy sammy - any temp rise yet? Thanks honey, I’m feeling absolutely right as rain now. Bit sore yesterday but today I feel fit as a fiddle. Certainly absolutely no sign of hyperstimulation - stims bloat disappeared literally overnight - I have abs again!! Bodies are weird 
Obv I would love a fresh transfer, but I’m feeling much more relaxed about it now that I know that a) we have some embryos and hopefully at least a few fighters will make it to blast, and b) we have a solid plan for a FET that we can get going on straight away
So, next update - we will hear tomorrow. My consultant is going to give me a ring once the lab have updated him on progress and we will discuss next steps. If it looks like we will be going to blast (hopefully with 16!!!), he’ll advise when he wants me to come in for a lining scan, and to agree a potential plan of action.
At my last appt we had the hypothetical array CGH testing discussion, which we left as ‘hmm, not sure, let’s see what happens and take it from there.
DH and I never really thought it would even be a remote possibility, but we are both very very minded to consider array CGH PGS if we were to have a decent number of blasts. So once we have a better idea of where we stand, we'l like to have a more informed discussion with the Dr, so we can weigh up our options.
As you say, the tide seems to be turning to FET as the way forward, because of the much more natural uterine environment vs after a stims cycle. So that is a big plus! Obv I’d love to have a fresh transfer as I’m so desperate to just get the first BFN out of the way, but what will be will be, so just have to roll with the punches, and there may indeed be a silver lining to my lining woes (no pun intended)
God I don’t half waffle on! Thanks for your support ladies, and being the most incredible sounding board. Thanks for bearing with my endless ramblings!
lucie thinking of you and hoping you will get a lovely surprise when the phone call comes through
xxx