Thank you, your messages have really helped. I know I'm being a wuss but I think I'm just scared as I was told I have high-risk HPV 8 months ago and I had abnormal cells in my cervix, they wanted me to do a check up in a year to see if it's progressed and well it's been 8 months now and I'm still not even pregnant let alone passed the 9 months carrying and the 4 months after the birth I have to allow for before I can be checked down there and receive treatment. So it's going to be pushing 2-3 years before I can go back for another check and I didn't want to leave it that long because of the big C. I'm so sick and tired of this. The poor women on here who have been trying for years, my heart so goes out to them. This is fucking awful.