TTC after MC (#7) - fx for better times ahead

Thanks everyone for your understanding, I feel awful when I think negatively about others who are pg, I just try and remind myself it's natural to feel angry. Honestly if it was a lovely couple above us it would feel easier, but they are such horrible people, and I feel almost scared and embarrassed to be seen by her without 'my bump' .... I fear she would take some pleasure in seeing me bumpless! Just dreading hearing the crying right above my head at night, very thin walls and ceilings. Still, there is nothing I can do so I guess I'm just gonna have to put up with it....the pain I'm in emotionally right now scares me though if I'm honest.

k8 welcome, you will find tremendous support here. Sorry for your loss.... if you've conceived already then that shows you are able? It may happen for you again naturally by the time you've got on the ladder to ivf.... you never know! X

Cd9 here, pinning a lot of desperate hope on conceiving this month, need it more than ever now

Thanks again for everyone's posts, hugs to all xxx

So sorry k8 - you must have been devastated

TBH I'm not sure I'm doing so well at positive. I'm 36, DH is 43, and I'm terrified we've missed the window. Only one MC so far and we're trying again, but it just feels like time is slipping away.

Hi. I'm new to this thread but so pleased I've found it. I'm 38. Myself and my hubby have unexplained infertility. After trying for 4 yrs, clomid, tamoxifen etc with no success, we were referred for IVF. I then found out I had conceived. We were beyond thrilled. I went for a reassurance scan at 10 weeks to find out I'd had a mmc. The baby stopped growing at 7wks, 4 days. I had an ERPC on 23.12.14. Christmas and new year were so hard. Skip forward to now and I'm finding it really hard to stay positive. I thought I'd conceive again but it's just not happened. It's looking like IVF is the only option. I'm so tired of it all to be honest. How do you lovely ladies stay positive?

Paws my DP also thought I should be pleased for everyone who got pregnant, even the horrible one that couldn't even tell me to my face and in her words "left it for facebook to tell me".

Just imagine though, she must be going through hell going into early labour, but there is no reason your next pregnancy won't be perfect and carry to term and you will have your beautiful baby. And with any luck they will move out!! I don't think you should stay at your friends though, as hard as it is, you're going to see pregnant ladies and babies everyone, more so after a mc I think as you seem to be on high alert. Going to your friends won't stop that. In the meantime, lots of hugs from us here xx

Fx for your scan carrot, hope seeing your little baby helps you to connect.
Sorry for the anxiety paws I should also be 7-8 months now, I'm trying to avoid working it out exactly as it just makes me sad. It's so hard dealing with other people's pregnancies, but I think you need to face it head on, rather than staying somewhere else. Maybe treat yourself to a little portable speaker so you can move it around to drown out the baby noise. I live in a town with a lot of babies, especially in summer when lots of holidaymakers with babies arrive. I decided to start looking at them as good luck charms, rather than devil spawn sent to rub my face in it! It really helps and it sounds silly but it's just about adjusting your attitude. Of course I'm far from saintly, I still hate baby bombs and have the occasional rant about undeserving parents! But I'm doing a good job of hitting my 80/20 target (serene and balanced/ crazy bitch)!

Oh paws you poor thing

It's so hard isn't it. I had a friend over for lunch today who's 22wks now. She's a great friend and there was plenty of space in our conversation for me being sad just as for her being happy, but it was still hard seeing her bump and thinking 'I should be showing now'. Can't imagine how you must be feeling dreading the sound of a baby overhead. Kind of amazed that your DH isn't being more understanding too, surely he could just give you a hug and let you have a cry?

Thank you for the well wishes ladies, good luck to those of you who are going for scans! I'm sure all will be fine. X

Had paramedics at my flat last night, about 3am they burst into the block and go upstairs to the woman who was pregnant at the same time as me with my first pregnancy that mc'd....heard them saying "well she's 7-8 months"
I should be 7-8 months!!! So now she's off giving birth while I've been up all night crying, worrying about having to hear a newborn crying above my head 24/7 .... Told dh I may have to go and stay at a friends for a while to get my head round it, he called me childish and went and slept on the sofa.
I just don't think I can do this anymore, I've lost two babies since she's moved in above my head pregnant...

Does anyone else get the neurotic symptom spotting? It's only cycle #1 of ttc since the MC, and I'm barely a few dpo and I keep imagining I have that pg taste in my mouth

I think I'm going a bit mad

Good luck Carrot. Hope it goes well!

I haven't been charting or anything. Just been taking a 'let whatever happens happens' approach. Ttc is far to stressful.

Is it 24th you are being seen? I thought you meant Monday 17th

Let us know how you get on Carrot I hope the spotting was nothing to worry about hun. My bloods are Tues & Thurs.

paws sorry to hear you still have the fever in your system. I hope when you get tested again it is gone and you can really crack on with tests to get you some answers.

Autumn glad it wasn't a pregnanct announcement, post mc does make you crazy!

carrot keeping my fingers crossed for you Hun. Can you ask doc to refer you to epu? Brown spotting should be ok. It's red that's not so good although even then you can bleed heavy and be ok. Stay positive and rest lots. I know it's easier said than done.

paws sorry to hear you're still unwell.

I keep feeling like I'm going to start...peeing like mad which is usually a sign of an impending period. But still no AF. It's 4 weeks since my mc on Saturday. Having these strange shooting pains downstairs at times too which kind of throw me off! My mojo still hasn't come back so I have no idea how on earth I'm going to conceive when I haven't had even the slightest desire to dtd in over a week. As a result, DH is being a huge grump! He really does not understand hormones!

Sorry for your losses carrot... I'm sure everything will be fine, we just have to believe it will...not that hope can change what's going to happen, but hope is better than fear. I don't blame you for testing everyday, I know I will be when I get my bfp! Keep us posted how you get on won't you. Xx

Crap...meant 2nd mc in 'July'

Not june

carrot what's your story? You had a chemical last month when I had my 2mc, we got our bfp's the same time as fruit and we all mc'd the same time didn't we? My mind is foggy atm, can't really remember! I had my first mc in April, second in June.....you?

I'm hoping 3rd time lucky, I know we shouldn't really be 'trying' as my bloods still show the glandular fever virus, but that was 6 weeks ago and I feel fine now, I just can't help but throw myself into ttc every month, its like a reflex now....have to do it, just can't help it!

I think mc's make you a little bit crazy lol X

carrot bless you for asking, I'm simply going one day at a time hun, got my blood tests back today, still have the glandular fever virus in my blood, so have to wait another 4 weeks to have them taken yet again to check its gone before I can go ahead with my fertility blood tests....pffft, always counting down the days to something lol! I've given up on checking cp, it makes me have horrid pain in my cervix, like daggers! Just gonna use opk's, temp/bbt, cm, ff and pregnacare conception vits (as if all of that wasn't enough anyway) perhaps my finger nails irritate it? I wouldn't consider them particularly long or sharp, but hey ho, lesson learned, no cp checking for me, I pay for it every time!

With regards to the spotting, as long as its brown hun, try to relax....easier said than done I know! Even red spotting is normal to some extent! I can imagine how nervous you are, have been thinking of all you ladies who got your bfp's and wondering how your getting on!

Good sign that the lines are getting stronger though ay? Try to think of that whenever you find yourself worrying over the spotting!

Keeping everything crossed for all you mummies-to-be Xx

mummy hope time speeds up a bit for you, the waiting game never ends does it! X
wine sorry no bfp for your hard efforts, completely normal for it to take several months though, as shit as it is! It will happen soon hun, keep up the hard work! Also don't worry yourself over low progesterone, I think we read so much on the good old internet and self diagnose without question, but spotting for a couple of cycles after mc can simply be your hormones trying to sort themselves out.
Keep an eye on it, if its still happening next cycle (that's if you don't already have your bfp) pop to the docs to get some advice. X

cherry congratulations, sounds like a bfp to me! As carrot just said, Superdrug are the most sensitive ones out there! 10miu I think? So boots brand may be slightly higher, like 25miu?

Anyway, I wouldn't worry yourself about a chemical, every pregnancy is different, you may have had implantation spotting this time that you didn't have last time....and the emotional sensitivity and grumpiness I would put down to....dare I say it...pregnancy hormones!

Fingers crossed for you x