Halfway through my TWW and looking for company. Anyone in the same boat?

Hi everyone - sorry I've been absent - diy day today - my idea of hell but I had to help dh!
haquoi - cycle buddy - we definitely are cycle buddies - still a flashing smiley here today so have officially given up this month - plus I've run out of ovulation sticks and am not buying any more this month because of my stupid body, it's obviously one of those months where there are no eggs - as if I don't have enough probs!
You never know though - your cycle might be fine and your cm might just not be showing what is actually happening? Xx
My next reflexology is next week, can't wait.
Sorry to hear brown you're still in limbo
finding - you're in such a difficult position, hope you're okay

Afternoon ladies,

It seems like we're all stuck in our own limbos at the moment!

Haquoi - I didn't think you were judging me at all. The issue with my dps relative is that I genuinely don't think she realises that the baby will change her life. I hope she steps up to the plate once it's born.

My in-laws are spectacularly unsympathetic to my situation. I hope that they won't expect me to fuss over the baby as I don't think I'll be able to do that.

I have read about that too. I asked my sister about it and she told me that when she was pregnant for the first time her doctor told her the baby was a possible cyst, she didn't get a bfp until she was 12 weeks pregnant!!

Can't imagine waiting that long!! If still no show by Tuesday when I see the nurse I will ask their advice then.

I think the chances are getting lower, if I'm honest, but it ain't over until AF comes along. There are quite a few people who get these - I just read that one person was told by their doctor that a lot of people get annovulatory months about once a year and is frustrating and upsetting but normal...

Yeah that's what I mean. Its been not bad here at the future in laws. As the weather was so bad DPs sister hasn't visited and whenever the baby is mentioned I just smile and nod. I understand they are excited. It's my issue that it tears me up a little bit inside whenever it's mentioned.

I generally don't think I can be pregnant though that's what 4 tests and it's now 8 days late? What are the chances?

(lots of cross posting, sorry) Yes!! I feel like that too, you can't make any plans! I want to do a masters and go abroad and generally just get in with my life, but ttc is getting in the way. I appreciate you mean waiting for AF, but its the same. Hopefully your GP will have some answers... How is it at your family's?

brown, sorry to hear that, it sucks

haquoi thanks for that. I am starting to wonder if it's a late ovulation but because I don't test I would have missed it. Must look into doing that next month.

Still no AF, not even a hint she's on her way. DP brought me more tests yesterday as I think he thinks it's the brand getting it wrong.

And yeah I am also avoiding the news for that baby. It's hard when Superdrig emailed me telling me and offering me a lot of baby products!

Just fed up of waiting around for some thing to happen. Feel like I'm having to put things on hold until I find out.

sleeping, how're you doing?

finding, just read that back, I don't want you to think that I'm judging how you feel! Like I said, I'm the Queen of bitter, so I don't want you to think I'm in any way trying to say you shouldn't be upset by it!

Hi diamond, just missed you! I think we are actually cycle buddies still, no sign of ewcm drying up anytime soon!

Hi everyone,

diamond Still no AF but still bfn. Just tested this morning. How's things with you?

finding Thanks for telling us about the side affects of clomid, it may be something I need in the future so good to know!

brown, hope you're weekend is going ok. I've absolutely been there, it's so frustrating when AF doesn't turn up but there's no good news! I read somewhere (when desperately trying to find my own reasons) that an embryo can implant but essentially be a dud and not give off hcg and it takes the body a little while to realise. I've heard that at least it's a positive step, that somethings happening. Obvs we don't know. Another thing for me is that the time when I ovulate changes each month, so maybe it's a very late ovulation...?

diamond are you still getting your flashing faces? I'm sorry that this month seems out, it absolutely sucks. When's your next reflexology for? Don't give up, it could just be delayed xx

remember, I hope your arm starts to feel better soon. I didn't know that they have criteria for the physically assisted conception, that sucks! Absolutely fight for it, don't just let them swipe you aside. But fingers crossed the bloods are good news.

finding how are you holding up on the clomid? Those symptoms sound pretty full on! Don't feel guilty about your dp, it's just a new start for you both. You don't sound judgemental - its hard seeing other people not be happy about something you can't have. I know that when I was pg with DS, the 1st 3 months were hell, I had such bad ms and ate whatever didn't make me want to vomit: supernoodles, squash and pears; and hated being pregnant until 2 weeks before he died. I know to make the most next time, but maybe this is an explanation for your friend? And you are in no way obligated to help her out and be there for her. You need to look after you, ttc is stress enough without the clomid and unhappy pregnant people.

Anyone else avoiding the News so they don't have to have a certain person's birth thrown in their faces?

I'm still ewcm-ing! Ridiculous. Definitely not ovulated yet. I don't this month is going to happen and I think I'm going to waiting for years for af. Grr. This whole ttc business is so stupid!

Morning - how is everyone today? I hope you are all enjoying the long weekend
remember - sorry to hear about your pain in your shoulder. I will need steroid injections in my shoulder soon too which I'm dreading. Hope you feel better soon
brown - any sign of af or have you tested again?
finding - that's interesting about clomid side effects, hope you're not feeling too bad
How's my cycle buddy haquoi?

Thanks for the symptoms list Finding. My GP told me yesterday that, depending on the results of my next lot of cd21 bloods, then I may be prescribed Clomid so it's good to know what to potentially expect. I have a feeling that, because of my age and because DP has 2 adult children, that I'll only be offered medical treatment and not physical assisted conception.

Interestingly my DM needed Clomid back in the 1960's not to fall pregnant but to sustain pregnancy when aged in her 20's and having my DSis's but, just before she turned 30, she fell naturally with me and then, 6 months after I was born, my DB. This gives me hope that a similar path would work for me. However, it's all academic for the time being until the next lot of bloods.

You know what, it's great to be able to offload here as I don't want to burden family with this and would like some privacy in our private life and struggles.

Bad luck about your arm Remember.

The whole thing does feel a bit like a treadmill.

If anyone is thinking of taking clomid in the future, here are my side effects so far:

I take the meds at night (as recommended by someone on YouTube). The trouble with this is that I end up having a lot of bloating and acid at night which can be painful and has kept me awake. I'd rather suffer at home than at work though.

Some cramping.

Feeling quite sweaty. I sweat a lot anyway but the last couple of days have been excessive even by my standards.

Afternoon ladies. Hope everyone is making the most of the long weekend - I can't as DP is working lates so not getting home before midnight; I had a steroof injection to my shoulder yesterday and am now in complete agony and hardly able to use my left arm - certainly don't want to dtd and having to take pain relief at a time when I'm trying to take as little medication as possible.

I started opks yesterday and, at the moment, they're very faint but today's is darker than yesterday's so we're on the next journey. Now got to wait for cd21 and repeat progesterone levels.

Don't worry finding I don't think you do, I think it's natural giving our position. Don't feel guilty about your DP, he's up for it, don't knock it make the most of it!

diamond I know how you feel about feeling broken. I feel the same way. If and when AF makes an appearance im going to start with ov sticks, maybe I have ovulated later but my last AF was the 27 March.

I feel the same though I'm totally fed up of this. It just seems relentless.

One of my DPs close family is also pregnant Browneyed. She's been through a tough time for other reasons and I feel as though I should put my feelings aside and visit her during her pregnancy. It's so frustrating though as shes very young and conceived on her honeymoon and I can't help but feel envious.

She doesn't talk about the pregnancy at all - rather odd IMO. I'm not sure she's doing it for my benefit, I think she's just underwhelmed by the whole thing. She's doesn't appear to be looking after herself either - doing next to no exercise and eating mainly junk food.

I sound so judgemental!

Thanks finding and brown - it is totally rubbish and I feel like I'm broken or something. The months just keep passing and I'm totally sick of it.
So sorry to hear of bfn for you brown - that must be so frustrating for you. At least if af not here yet then there's a chance you could have just ovulated late?
Looks like your OH is up for a good try this month then finding! Don't feel guilty - I'm sure he does but maybe the thought of the clomid is a positive and exciting step for him and you

finding Well I have to see the nurse on Tuesday so will mention it then but seeing my GP on the 15. Don't think I will get an appointment any earlier, he's very popular so he's very very busy.

Browneyed, how bizarre! Will you go to see your doctor or continue to wait?

How frustrating for you diamond. Every month that passes feels like a huge blow to me - I guess it must be the same for everyone.

My OH has been joking about the window of opportunity during the clomid cycle and making sure we make the most of it. I'm starting to feel a bit guilty now - doesn't he usually get as much action as he'd like...!?

I admit I did test again, first wee of the day and held for 10 seconds but still bfn.

I'm just frustrated. I don't think 3 tests can be wrong even if I am 7 days late. Not sure when I ovulated then giving AF is showing no sign of arriving any time soon.

Morning!

Still no AF, still feeling scared to test as can't face another bfn.

Aww diamond that's rubbish about ovulation. It really does bring you down.