Halfway through my TWW and looking for company. Anyone in the same boat?

Hi everyone! big wave
I've taken a week away for sanity reasons to stop myself obsessing. It hasn't worked! Just wanted to check in and say hi to you all and hoping the tww is going ok? Just had a quick read to catch up. Amazing response to the reflexology haquoi! That's fantastic-I'm really pleased you found something that helps relieve some of the emotion.
Diamond, how are you? What stage are you at the minute? I'm due AF on Tuesday. Have tested every day since Sunday (like I said, not doing very well at being normal and not obsessing!). All bfn. I'm so daft for doing it but £2.49 for 5 on Amazon is hard to resist.
Waves to ickle, finding, remember and everybody!

I know diamond, one chemist even got a strip of opks and tried to see if they would take my temperature!! I had to be like, no, not those. I know what they are. I'm looking for a thermometer... Felt a bit stupid, I don't know why.

Could you reflexologist tell whether you'd ovulated or not? I hope it makes you feel better. Mine told me that she thought I'd ovulated from my left side and worked on trying to connect my ovaries to my uturus. I tell you though, the change in me after that session - I feel almost like my old self, able to joke around and enjoy things without a tinge of bitterness and anger and self-hate. It's been absolutely wonderful and given me a huge feeling of optimism, that my son's death isn't just going to define me in a negative way. Definitely a fan of reflexology now, thank you! :)

I googled ways of dealing with the tww and one was saving your favourite tv programme episodes until those two weeks, or buying loads of books and reading them all in that time. Funny how that never occurred to me before! Another was stepping away from google. I definitely need to do that.

I think, don't test. If we get to the 16th and nothing has turned up by the 17th, then we can test together. What do you think? Did you say you're in cycle 11? You've got one more cycle and then you can go to your doctor for support. I feel desperate and I'm only on cycle 6, so it must be really hard for you. Or do you reckon it's worth seeing your doctor now and asking for advice? (I realise I'm all about the GPs on this thread, which is strange, given I have a small aversion to them!) xx

haquoi - how strange the chemists didn't know what you meant! Amazon should have them though. I might try that she-oak too

She said last time she had concentrated on my ovaries etc but next week's will be different as I will be at a different point in my cycle.
I'm the same as you - no idea if/when ovulated so no idea when I can test - if I get that far anyway! How are you today?

Stupid phone, hang on....

Morning everyone!
haquoi - thanks for the advice - this cold won't shift at all! It's so hard to keep spirits up as I know any day now I'll get my pre af spotting and so I dread going to the toilet - which isn't a good way to live! Have reflexology on Monday though so that should help. It was interesting last time as

any news brown?

Remember, congrats! When's the date? That's exciting, its good that there's something to distract you from all of this! That's also lovely going out last night, good on your DP! How did it go with the plumber?

Sorry to hear you're ill diamond. I always swear by garlic and honey (crushed, raw, on a spoon full of honey) - it gives a great boost to the immune system, but whether that's what you want at this point in the cycle... maybe a cold is a good thing (apart from kicking you when down)? I know what you mean though, I'm just getting antsy and I've still got at least a week to go (who knows when I ovulated!). It's hard to keep the spirits up. Is your DH supportive otherwise though?

I went into two chemists today and neither of them even knew what I was talking about when I asked for a basal body thermometer. Amazon it is, then. I'm going to get some she-oak as well, Neal's Yard. Got lots of creamy cm today as well - unhelpful symptom googling ensued "it could be a symptom, but also probably isn't"... No other symptoms though. Think I'm probably out this month. Apart from needing the time for a deadline, I could happily will the next week away!

Morning everyone!
haquoi - cycle buddy - I'm okay - no symptoms but I've got a heavy cold so feel rubbish anyway. I know what you mean - I'm nervous about testing next week but really in my heart I know it's not happened this month so I just feel sad and fed up at the mo. Dh said last night he hates this time of the month because I get so worked up then the crashing disappointment and he's right - I have been in such a grump this morning and it's not fair on dh and ds.
On a lighter note - the Lake District- you lucky thing! It's my favourite place, we try and go there a couple of times a year - must be lovely to go for walks like that - very jealous!
I'm vegetarian too! Do try to be healthy most of the time!
remember - exciting about the wedding invites! Not so good about the plumbing situation- hope you get it sorted, there's nothing worse than no boiler. I've just been diagnosed with osteoarthritis and it is in my shoulder so I know what you mean about the aches, not good.
brown - are you going to try another test?

Morning haquoi, sorry for not replying last night, dp took me out for dinner!! I'm doing better thanks. Still achy in my shoulder and in general but having rheumatoid arthritis I get used to that being the norm.

I think I'm 7dpo today, know cd15 but don't feel the need to rush and poas this month. My bbt thermometer is due to arrive today and I've downloaded the ff app so might start temping tomorrow even though it's mid point in my cycle.

Yesterday got crazy at home. We've decided on our wedding invites and am ordering them today; written our guest list for both ceremony and reception; had plumber out to repair boiler - only for him to declare it unsafe due to something else which needs replacing urgently so part ordered and hopefully here today or I'm without a boiler until Monday!! Thank goodness for electric cooker or I'd be up a shitty creek with no paddles!!

hopeful, that sounds really exciting, (not that I want to get your hopes up). I felt a lot of pinching last month on my right side (had a chemical pregnancy (v v v early miscarriage)) and ended up with a positive test, so fingers crossed for you! But don't test early! It's not worth it!

finding, I've been terrible this time and not changed anything really. I try to drink more water and I don't drink caffeine anyway. But before with my DS I tried to eat more veg, and more green veg too, for the iron. I'm also vegetarian and fussy, so probably should do something...

I've just been for a lovely little walk with a friend by the lake (I live in the Lake District). Such a lovely evening and always nice being outdoors - helps to lift the spirits. My friend is also awesome and I'm fairly open with him about everything, (inc. cervical mucus). You all should know he thinks women have it hard and that men don't appreciate all that we have to go through :)

Evening! How are we all?

finding Changes I've made is trying to eat more healthier and more water, i eat pretty healthy but I can still improve. Also not exercising as much.

Remember & Haquoi I want to start testing my bbt next month (well once AF has decided to come back from her mysterious trip she's on), it sounds quite complex. You wouldn't think we have been ttc for 6 months I feel like a total newbie!

Haven't poas in a few days Haquoi I will be honest I've kind of given up expecting anything. I may at the weekend. Keeping my fx for you this month!

I haven't told anyone either hopeful well apart from my sister but she's had 3 children so she's got a lot of advice!
Everyone is here is great though, I've found it really helpful.

Hi haquoi123 thanks so much, everyone's so reassuring here, u are all keeping me sane! I havnt told my family/friends that we r ttc so I don't really have anyone to stress to.
My lightheaded feeling has pretty much gone but I do have this strange feeling in my right side, it's not painful but noticeable if that makes sense?! Not general cramping, it seems focused on one little area

Ah, thanks remember, I know of it but didn't know it was called bbt. I'm planning on doing that next month as well :) I'm going to get some opks as well just to be sure. My stress this month was that my cm was all over the place and I didn't know whether it had happened or not! So yes, that sounds like a fab idea . How're you doing today?

Hi hopeful and sleepy, you've come to the right place! These are wonderful people to share stuff with (they've kept me sane). Don't give up just yet, AF is the only indicator that the month wasn't successful.

brown, now those are some symptoms! I feel for you and your boobs, that doesn't sound fun. When did you last poas?

diamond, cycle buddy! How are things with you? My symptoms have all but gone, I'm just still gassy (or should I say, farty) and happily winding my way through to next week. Although I'm beginning to get the jitters. I don't want to test, it's too early, but my patience is going. Grrr. And just when the reflexologist got me feeling good! Does yours do fertility stuff on you?

Hi haquoi, bbt is basal body temp. Apparently it rises as our cycle progresses and then drops when af is due to arrive. Whereas opks tell us we produce lh bbt doesnt go up unless we actually ov; and, while opks tell us we're 12-36 hours away from ov, bbt goes up when we ov so tells us exactly which day it is. I'm going to do it this month with the fertility friend app, I bought a bbt thermometer which is being delivered tomorrow by Amazon.

hopeful - I like ordering the cheapie internet tests - then you have lots of supplies! You're still not out though but if you are we've got a good thread here and it's very supportive
Hey sleepy - I know what you mean about jinxing - I've done that before - but you never know!!

Hi diamond Hi Brown

I'm not sure, i'm at that stage wher i think if i test i will jinx it and AF will turn up but then i'm half expecting 'her' to turn up anyway LOL

Not sure i'm in tune with my symptoms its more i know ive not had them before... its probably just my cold

diamondsparkles thanks :) i don't feel as disheartened as i did this morning.. i did swear i wouldn't even think bout testing but during my lunch break i ordered some cheapie tests from the internet . . i think im out for this month as i have no symptoms now :( but least il have plenty for next month

Hi sleepy - sounds promising! When are you going to test?
Hi hopeful - don't worry too much! It's still really early so you've got time to get your bfp yet - hope you're feeling a bit better now. I am terrible for testing early - and when I get disappointed I swear I won't do it again but I have no willpower with tests! When do you think you will test again?
Hi finding - I'm just generally trying to eat healthier- the reflexologist said a good diet is important and not to skip meals - which I am bad for doing - but easier said than done. I don't really have that much caffeine anyway but I've heard reducing it is a good idea. I can't really think of anything else

What changes, if any, have you made to your diet and lifestyle while ttc?

I'm trying to reduce my caffeine intake and drink more water.

Is there anything else that you recommend?

Hi Haquoi its CD 42 so it's what 12 days? I like your suggestions, don't think I have any walk in clinics close by sadly, I've taken to phoning the doctor every day to get a cancellation but so far no luck.

thanks diamond* I'm not very good at waiting!

Only difference now is I feel sick at times and my boobs really hurt. DP brushed past me this morning and I almost hit the ceiling with pain. To be honest I've given up all hope of a bfp.

Hi Sleepy you sound quite in tune with your symptoms, I've not had that many symptoms and my Af is 12 days late! When are you going to test?

hopeful I think it's normal to text when we are awaiting on something happening. You can test again nearer the time, it isn't over till AF arrives.

Sorry to hear your feeling so rubbish remember

morning ladies! im so annoyed at myself today... AF due 13th/14th and i had a complete moment of madness and tested this morning, obv it was a bfN and now im in a terrible mood and givin up for this month...
why did i do it?!

Hi there

trying for number 1 here but only for the last 3 months and i did have AF till month no2!

I am now due AF in the next couple of days but we DTD at least 4 times during 'fertile window' and i feel a bit funny, not sure if that is just down to me being full of cold though so i am fully expecting AF to come....

Currently feeling as follows:

weird tummy ache, not draggin or sharp like usual period pains
Feeling queasy (sometimes get this when i have a cold)
Sore tongue
Coffee tastes funny (i looooove coffee)
Not feeling hungry (im always hungry but this could be cold too!)

no idea WHERE i am lol!!!!

Hi finding - I really fancy acupuncture too, I think I may look into it. Have heard good things about it.
brown - you're in such limbo, must be so awful for you. Am hoping you are like your sister and it is just taking time to show your bfp. I'm okay thank you - no clue about my cycle at the moment so af could turn up at any moment - I'm only cd 22 though.
remember - sorry to hear you've had a few bad days, I get them too. Glad you're feeling better and a good evening together is just what you needed! No symptoms could be a good sign - you never know!

Hi remember, sorry to hear you've felt so awful, but really pleased you're feeling better. I can't believe we're back in that tww already, it feels so short (but also so long...). What's bbt?

brown, I don't think your cycle will reset. Just still think of AF as due, rather than skipped. How many days late are you now? Do you have any walk-in clinics nearby? (Sorry, I'll stop suggesting things now, sometimes just having a plan and sticking to it is the easiest thing).

finding, that's a shame about your acupuncture, are you going to rearrange? I honestly think something like that will help, especially with the clomid. I'm amazed at how good I feel (happy, I'm happy this morning and relaxed and not worried by the things that usually worry and stress me. Even if (and probably is) it's short term, it feels good now and will be doing me internal good). How is dtd going?

And speaking of dtd, xmum, wow. I missed that part of your post last night!