ttc after mc- the best shit place to be! #2

llama for the love of God PEE ON A STICK!

I had 7 OPKs+ in a row and then thought so POAS and got a positive.

DH is 30, I'm 28. He says he doesn't want to deal with teenagers in his 50's! I was 21, almost 22 when I had my eldest DD, and had just turned 24 when I had my youngest DD. When he annoys me I threaten to have a "whoops" baby when I'm 45 so he has to deal with a teenager in his 60's mean wife

stocking I get thrush loads and was once advised to have those yakult yogurt drinks while on ABs to stop thrush - they seem to work too. Actually I should probably have them every day. ...

Oh no stocking!!! They've started giving me different things to anoxicillin as I've had it too much :p
Get well soon!

snoopy, i know how you feel. I wanted to be pregnant at 23. Ended up getting married later than planned and got pregnant just before my 24th bday. Then miscarried on my 24th bday. Now I'll be at least 25 when baby comes.
We've struggled for money and ttc was a bit of a worry, now there's light at the end of the tunnel but it's all worthless without the baby i wanted/want.

snoopy I know how you feel, I relate, and I completely agree with guy too. Its effing hard!

I've just come back from the GPs with a script for 500mg Amoxicillin for a UTI. 3 a day for a week. I usually get thrush when I take antibs, but I've never taken any this strong or for 7 days before. GAH. My lady bits are clearly rebelling against me this month

Snoopy, happiness isn't finite. There's plenty of it coming to you.

I don't think it's physically possible for me to lose weight over Christmas haha.

One of my colleagues has gone to my line manager on my behalf and told him I need more time in an office role to get over things. Why do I even care what people think?

I don't want to upset or offend anyone but for the past couple of days I can't shake this awful feeling that I've left it too late to have a baby. Logically I know this is ridiculous, I'm 29, but I keep thinking that I have a loving husband, we have a lovely home, had our perfect wedding and the honeymoon of a lifetime and I've used up all the luck I'm going to have in my lifetime. I've wanted to be a mum for such a long time, maybe I should have just gotten pregnant straight away and not bothered with all the 'extras'.

I know I'm going to be devastated if I don't get pregnant quickly and I'm scared of those feelings. Even if it does happen I don't think I'll even be able to acknowledge being pregnant because it could all end the same horrible way.

Sorry this is so long and rambling, I just feel lost.

Haribo I couldn't hide it from my girls either. We will see what happens. Im due to poas on Christmas Eve so it will be a difficult time to keep quiet! Also a difficult time to get a BFN too.

Oh I so hope we get some good news next week its been such a shitty year!

Thanks everyone - what a lovely, friendly group and also for the wise words re age gaps etc.

Stocking of course you are not being greedy and I am sure nobody would see it that way. Yes it might be different TTC when you don't have any kids but that doesn't mean it's not full of heartache and anxiety sometimes when you already have DC.

Hi Fi! Nice to see you again though hope we're both on the 'Pregnant after miscarriage' thread soon instead (if there is one!). Do hope you are doing ok. It's tough isn't it, I think Christmas kind of makes things all more intense. In one way it makes you very glad for what you already have in your life but you kind help thinking how lovely it'd be too be pg at Christmas too.

DP want's us to keep it quiet until 12 weeks if/when we conceive again too. He's agreed to let me tell my parents as they would have DS for appointments etc. I'll tell my closet girlfriends too but it's totally up to him what he tells his family.

I'm struggling to lose the baby weight from DS and he's 14 months! Oops.

Haha yes its totally impossible to lose weight over Christmas! Thats fact ;)

Aww don't get me wrong our families were so amazing when we lost our baby and I will probably end up spilling the beans straight away! but it was heartbreaking telling our parents we had lost their first grandchild. So.. we will see... I was thinking of paying for an early scan the next time as I don't think I could wait til 12w!

*food comas

December is the month of food in our home

I'm about a stone over my happy weight too. A positive by product of the mc was a total loss of appetite which led to stopping half a stone. But my appetite came back and so did the half stone. Oh well. Dieting makes me miserable and I've had enough misery this last month to last me a lifetime.

Always go the antibiotics route with a reason for not drinking, its well known that drinking whilst on them is bad very very bad oh the vomit, vomit everywhere and people generally accept this.

My horrid vice is smoking have never smoked when PG - stopped immediately with each BFP - and have always ended up smoking again much to my shame which is ridiculous because I've spent the majority of the last decade as an ex/non smoker rather than a smoker - don't smoke in the house or around the kids etc. Thats whats given me away in early pregnancy each time.

Haha aww Amyyy, see were the opposite. We needed a lot of support from our families when I miscarried so we would tell them stright away this time.

Aww Treacle! I bet that comes in handy but its a shame you've had to be so poorly to get that excuse! I've just been practising to myself what I would say and I keep grinning every time I think 'Oh no not for me I have a water infection!' haha I am so bad at lying. Its not so funny though my OH will go mad if I let it slip that theres even a possibility nevermind if we actually do get pg! He doesn't want anyone to find out until 12 weeks, which I totally understand (Torture - I can't keep secrets!)

Its probably too early for symptom spotting but I can't help it! I will only be 4dpo but yesterday and today I've been so bloated and gassy (sorry!) and have this overwhelming feeling of protecting my tummy. I know that's probably natural after mc so I'm trying really hard not to look into it!

I tend to get a lot of water infections so it's expected for me :p I don't even need t say I'm on antibiotics I can just say I think I'm getting an infection and everyone leaves me alone knowing how poorly ive been :p

North I think that's how I feel about eating too. I lost a stone before getting pregnant and look what happened.

North I had terrible ms and lost half a stone whilst pregnant so gutted to have put that and a lot more back on! :( I'm really struggling to control my eating too yet I was doing so well... last year I lost 3 stone on slimming world, Joined back up early this year and just couldn't stick to plan!

Treacle That's a good one! I hope my face can keep it together I'm terrible at lying!!

Greedy Me too! :D I'm terribly unmotivated lately.. or lazy!

Treacle That's a good one! I hope my face can keep it together I'm terrible at lying!!

Greedy Me too! :D I'm terribly unmotivated lately.. or lazy!