TTC for 10 months, and all the rest. 10 plussers welcome.

nelly how many dpo are you? It sounds pretty damn good to me!

35 progesterone is excellent!

critter that is great news :) I wouldn't worry too much about your HCG as yours were within range, enjoy you time at home

nelly its is 3.15

at toes's loo update.

nelly I am on tenterhooks too. I hope you get a lovely high HCG number.

MrC couldn't come because of a work trip... I wish he had been able to see it too. I know it's still a long road and I won't be out of the woods for a long time, but it was just so lovely to see it flickering away. The doctor said I should come back for another scan at the clinic after my travels (going home to see my parents for a week on Monday) on Tuesday the week after next. I didn't have to have a blood test, which is actually a relief, as I don't want to know if the hcg is low.

Sorry for lack of namechecks.

And ray when it comes to enjoying lie ins and freedom I have always said that I would have enjoyed them all if someone could have said "you will have a family in x years". It's the fear that stops you enjoying it now and people don't understand that...

Really quick naughty update via phone at my desk (so naughty) critter - you've made me cry (with joy) in front of the work laptop

Nelly, c'mon!!!

bunny, I think your Christmas message was fine and in fact it's nice to be able to vent our emotions and say how we feel without getting comments such as ' you don't know how hard it is' without wanting to poke them in the eye with a sharp stick!!

big Friday grins

Also sending a loo update to say YAY Critter

Critter! I'm so pleased. This is your time, I feel it (and not just cos witchy woman said so!).

Hiding in toilet in the house as MrM is downstairs parenting so I can catch up with you all. I am so so so pleased critter xxxxx and Nelly tell that clinic to hurry up!!

Oh critter- come back and tell us more....that's amazing news!!

Nelly - hand hold...they should have called you by now!

Hello ladies, have read through and want to say more but in cab on way to work. I saw a little fluttering heartbeat. So happy. Thank you all for clutching my sweaty and terrified paw.

Massive squeeze to nelly.

ray I think the lifestyle change can come as a shock to everyone. You just deal with it somehow and muddle through.

berry enjoy Cornwall. I love it there.

joy I agree with drizz that things do seem to speed up a bit once the first tri has passed. I hope things will get easier from here on in, but I think you are right that no 10+er pregnancy is worry free.

nelly and critter I am thinking of you both today and looking forward to good news updates later.

Christmas is such an enormously difficult time for long term ttcers. You jut have to do whatever gets you through. We started ttc in December 2010, but I had been yearning for a baby for a long time before that, and I don't think I have really enjoyed it in years. Last year I was just pregnant (BFP a few days before) and terrified of things going wrong again. Thankfully we don't have big family christmasses (just me, mr euro, my parents and occasionally MIL, who all knew our situation and behaved in a sensitive way).

Oh god, I'm sorry if my rant about Xmas upset anyone. I really wasn't saying to Cos "oooh, enjoy the lie ins and booze and consider yourselves lucky". I was just trying to say in a v clumsy way that you should do what makes you happy. Life is tough enough. Infertility / long term TTC is the pits. I don't think anyone on here should feel guilty for putting themselves first, ducking out of painful gatherings etc. Sorry if I said it badly. I do realise how lucky I am, I've actually been called a martyr mum to my face this week, which really stung and I do think it's leftover, unresolved feelings from long term TTC. I think lemons has that spot on.

Nelly watching & waiting with you for the next hour. Hope it passes speedily. DH's never get it. You are clearly the more stressed party. Tell him I said so and therefore he has to lavish you with stress relieving gifts and acts of kindness

Joy, 12 weeks? Be warned your pregnancy may well start speeding up now. :)

I agree with that, Nelly! I think there is less useless whinging on this side of giving birth and I do agree with that waiting room poster so much. Although it's a risk as well, that longtime ttcers put too much pressure on themselves to enjoy it all and be supermums. It's something to keep in mind when the little people arrive :)

Crossing everything for this afternoon, despite typing away

Have fun in Cornwall, berry!

Good to choose yourself, ray! We had boring Christmas the year before last, it was the tight decision but miserable in its own way. So make a plan to do something nice or eat and drink good things!

I do worry though that me and dh have got so used to out childless ways that we would really struggle to adapt to being parents. It would be a massive lifestyle shift for us.

Joy, I think there is a world of difference between child free by choice and therefore enjoying holidays, lie ins etc and being infertile. Of course I do like my lie ins and not having the responsibility. But when you're suffering with infertility, life isn't stress free.

Nelly, I am afraid you are right. if it's high you will just worry about something else . Have we had a plusser who hasn't actually worried through their pregnancy? When I think about it most plussers seemed fairly calm but perhaps they were mentalling away from this thread.

Ray - it's difficult isn't it becauses being surrounded by young family members at Xmas must be very hard and then the alternative is to hide away. We kept being told by BIL that Xmas was so much more fun with kids, I wanted to slap him. But another bug bear is being told by parents that we are lucky we can have lie ins and don't have the stress of kids. I want to ask whether they have ever been through the stress of infertility. At least with kids there should be good times that outweigh the bad. You don't get that with infertility.