Angels and Rainbows - remembering our angels and praying for rainbows

Sorry your feeling like that Kay I agree with the others, he probably doesn't want to add to your worries. My h is very much like that, he doesn't discuss his feelings at all with me.

Well I have a date.... 08/12/14 terrified

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Thanks earth critter and missa. I can understand what you're saying about him not wanting to burden me with it. I can't seem to think straight about anything at the moment, so i'm just attempting to put one foot in front of the other for now.

Love to all xx

Kayleigh I am sorry and I agree with earth- I would be a bit upset about this too, although I can see why it might happen if he is trying not to burden you with things. I talk about my feelings a lot and my DH isn't a talker so sometimes I assume he's ok when he isn't. In a way I wish he had more people to confide in who were outside the situation and who he didn't have to worry about upsetting. But I would be a bit uncomfortable too if it were all just one woman at work and would definitely want to talk about it with him. Has he had any counseling? I hope your conversation today goes well - you're doing the right thing which is to keep talking. Hugs to you.

Kayleigh-I'm sorry you're feeling a bit confused and hurt. For what it's worth I would feel the same as you, but I'm not sure why. From a rational point of view it is good that he is talking about his feelings and perhaps he doesn't want to burden you/make you worry when you already have your own feelings to digest and then worry about Brian and school and things with your mum as well? But none of that rational stuff really comes into play when it has hurt your feelings anyway does it? I hope you manage to have a heart to heart over the next couple of days. Sorry for the ramblings, I'm not very articulate at 2am! Thinking of you x

critter i'm wishing you a quiet congratulations

MissA i've been thinking of you and your family lots, and i hope you're taking care of yourself . Your Dad sounds like a lovely man.

madem i really hope this is your month, i'll keep my fingers crossed for you.

AFM not really sure where my head's at right now. I've found out that DH has been confiding in a woman he works with about how he's been feeling about Ben. In a way i feel cheated, because surely i should have been the person he spoke to (or am i being unreasonable here?). I'm unsure whether we should put TTC on hold for a while now . He's got a couple of days off work now so i think we'll be having a full and frank talk about where things stand.

Love to all xx

Critter, quiet and gentle congratulations for you. I'm praying for a sticky one and a heartbeat in a couple of weeks time. Come on Twibling!

Mad, I hope this is your month, fingers crossed.

MissA, your dad sounds so lovely, I can't believe that you have to deal with this sadness on top of all your worry. Not too long to go for little one now (although I'm sure it feels like ages). I had absolutely zero plans past my due date with M, I couldn't dare to think what life might be like, my entire focus was getting to that date. It was exhausting. Thinking of you so much.

Of course - sorry for the hysterical overexcitement, I'm totally projecting but I'd be exactly the same. I'm still in two minds about whether to test early or not. Someone on another thread just had a chemical pregnancy and id be so gutted, I am trying very hard to fool my brain into forgetting when to test do o will only test when I know for sure AF is late.
But today, you are pregnant. May this be the start of an incredibly happy and positive journey x

madem my official pregnancy blood test isn't until Friday - it's really, really early (still only 11dpo). If it sticks, I will have an early scan at the fertility clinic at 6 weeks to check for a heartbeat. Can't see beyond that - just trying to take missalex's advice and just take it hour by hour as it is still so early, and I'm horribly worried that it may not stick again.

missalex your dad sounds incredibly special - loving and gentle and kind. I know your poor heart must be broken right now. I wish you had your parents' support and weren't having to deal with this without their physical presence. I also know he would be really proud of how you are coping with the huge amount of stress you're under. And I am sure that you will pass on his beautiful qualities to his little grandson.

Thanks for the kind congrats ladies. May there be sticky BFPs and healthy rainbow arrivals for us all.

I just cried reading that last post missA. She's right next to me and so irritating (only because we've spent every minute together in the last 4 days/nights as we went away and only had one hotel room to share. Totally not an actual problem, I know that!) right now but I love her so dearly nonetheless and would be so lost without her!

Critter how are you doing? I'm just recovering from your awesome news. What's the next step? Do you get early scans etc?

AFM: 3 dpo I think. Please please please please please please please let me be pregnant...

I just cried reading that last post missA. She's right next to me and so irritating (only because we've spent every minute together in the last 4 days/nights as we went away and only had one hotel room to share. Totally not an actual problem, I know that!) right now but I love her so dearly nonetheless and would be so lost without her!

Critter how are you doing? I'm just recovering from your awesome news.

AFM: 3 dpo I think. Please please please please please please please let me be pregnant...

Absoloutely excellent news critter . So happy for you! .

Hope you are doing ok missa. Not long now

Waves to everyone x

Oh critter - how bloody marvellous!!!! I'm literally jumping up and down in joy for you, I so needed to hear good news like these today!
How are you feeling? I want to hug you (gently) I'm so excited for you!!

MissA thinking of you. My mum has been a nuisance lately but then I suddenly remembered that we should never take anything for granted and always be grateful for the people around us. At least I have her... I hope you're doing ok and that the funeral planning is going to plan. I'm so sorry that you have to experience such pain and that your dad won't be here to meet your rainbow. He will no doubt be casting loving glances at your baby and protecting it with all his love. Thinking of you and your family xx

Missalex am thinking of you still. Glad your sister is helping and I so hope that you are getting some real life support. Can you tell us a bit about your lovely dad? He sounds wonderful and I'm so glad that he 'got' what happened to you. That love and understanding is so precious.

AFM I tested yesterday, v early at 10dpo, just couldn't take the worry and stress of waiting and not knowing. Test was positive. Still v v nervous about another mc but v grateful to at least have a chance at a twibling for J.

Oh MissA... How terribly sad and heartbreaking. I'm so, so terribly sorry for your loss. I really am. I don't really know what to say or how to offer support but please know that my heart broke for you when I read this and I'm in tears at how sad you must be right now. So, so sorry. Look after yourself xxx

Oh Missa I am so sorry to hear of your loss. You will get through this I promise.

MissA I'm so sorry that you are having to go through this and at such a stressful time. I hope things are going smoothly for you and this is definitely not a bad omen for you.
It may be worth letting your midwife know what happened perhaps they can fit in some extra reassurance visits! Lots of love

MissA, I am so so so so sorry that life has dealt you another shitty blow. What a terrible shock and of course so very very sad. It is absolutely NOT a bad omen for you and your little boy. I wish I could come round, give you a massive hug, cook you dinner and take some of your sadness, stress and anxiety away and hand over a lorry load of strength. You shouldn't have to be dealing with this, but I know that you can, take it a day at a time (or an hour if that's easier) and the days will pass slowly but surely. Lots of love xxx

MissA i just wanted to send my sincere condolences on your Dad's death I hope you're getting lots of support in real life. You and your family will be in my thoughts, lots of love xx

Oh Missalex I am so terribly sorry. How awful. Why does the universe clobber people again and again, I will never understand it. I'm just devastated for you. Your precious son will have his granddaddy watching over him, this is not a bad omen for your baby, just another horrible tragedy that I wish you didn't have to suffer. I am so sorry sweetheart.

Oh MissA, I am so sorry to hear that. It is absolutely NOT a bad omen, and your baby is going to be just fine. Life really seems to throw bad things at us just when we feel least well equipped to handle them. I hope that you are getting a lot of real life support and that other people are helping you to deal with the emotional and practical side of losing your father. Thinking of you and willing you strength x

Oh my gosh missa, so sorry to hear that x