April TTC girls onwards to July! BFP's galore!

My ex was like that. I have always been a bit chubby- sometimes more than others. At the time I was 10st 2lbs and am 5ft 7. He made some really nasty remarks about my weight. I look at photos now and I was young and slim and pretty but I thought I was huge.

Am a stone heavier now and DH makes me feel like a stunner.Tells me everyday how lucky he is.

And I have been so horrible to him! Is at Durham so should be home in 15 mins. Yaay!

Oh lulu I glad you've got a wonderful dh now sounds like you were put through it !
ducky he should never affect your confidence like that , maybe a talk would be good sometimes you have to point things out to people before they realise . Horrible situation to be in though

My ex could never make a commitment to me really- he had an ex wife who he had so much anger and sadness towards. He would get drunk and I discovered would pick up women for ONS. Then he would feel guilty and be moody and angry.

Why I put up with it I have no idea. Looking back at it now, it amazes me that I did. But I was young and I did think he was 'it'. He was much older than me as well and had 2 children. Everyone came before me- Him, Ex wife (who had remarried the first day she could), the children and the ONS and the Rugby club! I was well at the bottom of the heap.

He went off to teach abroad and has never changed- still drinks and smokes a lot. Still not a happy person, still has a chip on his shoulder, brags etc. Can't imagine what I ever, ever saw in him.

That sounds exactly like me lulu I have lost ALL my confidence. That feels awful admitting it!!

Thing is he's a lovely person when he's sober and in a good mood, but as soon as he has a drink he changes, or if something annoys him, and recently he's been getting angry about a lot of things and I feel like I can not say things incase he flips. I feel like I don't know what mood he will be in when he wakes up.

I think I need to have serious words with him, and if he doesn't change that will be it. I can't continue living like that

How do you feel living in a house with him when he is moody? Do you feel like you tread on eggshells? I was with someone for a couple of years who could be lovely but if he was unhappy about something it affected his whole mood, everything we did and he would drink to blot it out and I hated it. I felt I had to not make it worse etc.

I am pretty independent and reasonably confident but he really eroded my self confidence. I hated it but was devastated when we split up because I had no confidence left and was sure I would not be happy without him. Duh! Never again.

Oh and I asked about the placenta as the position of that can sometimes cause bleeding during pregnancy.

I completely understand I hope you feel better when DH is back

I know they never bother reading them! Ha! But thy will be used to document growth etc later on.

He is back, has just been quiet with me. Ohhh these mood swings irritate me! I never know what to expect!

I know. But when it's you it is more scary!
Can't see anything in green notes about it. I wonder what the point of them is 'cos they ask me the same questions about allergies, medication etc every time I go and it is all written in there.

Is your DH back yet Ducky?

Do your green notes mention where your placenta is?

If you didn't have any pain and haven't had anymore I'm sure youl be fine

I read loads of threads on here about bleeding and everything is fine

They said that at this stage the uterus is getting lots more blood flow than usual and that small blood vessels can burst or leak under the pressure and you lose small amounts of blood which tends to trail out and that's why it's brown 'cos it's not bleeding now. Said it is really common. Didn't say where placenta is but said it is fine.

Just have to think they know what they are talking about. But I upset myself by reading another thread where someone had the same and they had a mc the next day.

I am back at work tomorrow so won't have time to think then.

Just have to face DH now- who I know is going to be upset with me.

Did they say where the placenta was? Or what could have caused it?

Yes Ducky It was fine - placenta, baby- wriggling and heartbeat fine. Nothing more today so far.

DH has just texted to say he is setting off soon - should be home by 8.30. I will be so glad to see him

Your bound to worry after that lulu, did you say you had a scan?

Cupcake It was me talking about the cyclng. It is Yorkshire not Derbyshire.

I haven't had any more bleeding today but there is just this constant worry in my head which is feels crap.

Kitkat I am 14 weeks and 1 day. MS is awful- not that I had much of it but what I had I felt grotty. It does go though? How many weeks are you?

DH should be home about 8-9 tonight.

I am distracting myself with work and mowing the lawn and having an afternoon sleep later on.

Well I popped out this morning and finished what I was doing early so I thought id go with him, but come back and he's got up and gone without a text or anything which is very unusual for him

Just hoping he comes back in a better mood like last time!

Sorry to hear that lulu. I hope it hasn't come back again.How many weeks are you now? Is your dh coming back today?
I'm feeling rough today. Nothing makes the sick go away today.

Agree he should could contribute something or at the least do housework ! These dh/dp are a pain sometimes !!

Thanks guys

Hope your feign better lulu.

The movements were little flutters the other night, I want them to get regular now!

He doesn't contribute as when we moved in together he didn't have a job it was just me so I paid everything and he just stayed in bed all day when I was at work. He always said when he gets a job he would contribute but he never has because he says I earn more than him, which I do. But he doesn't try and get as better job all I do is moan lol

I am a worrier poppet and always think the worst will happen if it is me but can be really rational with other people. It is worse being by myself tonight. I am scared the bleeding really gets bad and I am by myself. I am starting to get tired so will try to sleep soon.

Ducky Why does he not contribute to the bills? Does he pay the rent/mortgage?

lulu must be scary but from what I ve read it seems quite common ,horrible to worry by yourself though xx
ducky sounds like hes a pain in the arse ! Would drive me insane if he wasnt even contributing towards bills or helping round the house . For a few short months we relied on my income and its a lot of pressure to be under .Sounds like you need a good rest . Yay for feeling movements !!! That must be amazing !!

I do think you two have DHs who must share some DNA somewhere back along the line! They seem linked. That is mean of him Ducky. I bought a steam cleaner a while ago and it does the floors amazingly well. No need for hot water or cleaning products. No effort either and they dry really quickly- in a minute.

That's lovely about feeling movements. What does it feel like. I can't wait to feel Smudge move- although at the minute that seems like it might never happen.

Have come up to bed.

DH has texted to say , 'Love you Lu. Mum said to give you a break from me today. Miss talking to you. Miss you. Hope you have had a good day.'

I feel better. I just texted back. 'Love you too. Sorry for being such a witch. Really wish you were here.'

I can't tell him by text and I don't want to spoil this with his dad, they have been looking forward to it for ages.

It seems to have stopped again.