New balls please! The BESH are hanging out the cunt bunting for Wombledon and saddling up for the Tour de France!

good on you lady! Fab to see you back.

For the love of god Barking is that for real? You're like a tragic irony magnet at the moment. You and me in September dude, cluster diff here we come. Anyone else in?!

Sooo, the FC called. On the landline as I predicted rolfing like mad at the idea of me sitting under my desk in a sound proof den though. Good news, we are affirmative on the offer and I've got to call them back tomorrow or Monday to confirm! Like hell I'd let it wait till Monday I'm really hoping we will get some time scales in on this too. I lurve a good time scale to help manage le old menkul or I find myself flailing around a bit in bat shit crazy limbo. Watch this space I guess.

ROCH surprised me today by being unbelievably cute. He wants to record the FC phone message with the donor offer for posterity, just in case it 'becomes significant'. I'm kind of glad because although he doesn't show it, it means he's feeling it too maybe with a bit less outpouring about it than me

For FUCKS sake, can I not get away from this shit in my own house?! Working from home, sat with the laptop on the kitchen table. A big window, due to the angle of the houses/gardens and where I'm sitting, perfectly frames the neighbour's garden. She's in the garden with all four of her children, and a friend has just come round. Friend has brought round a toddler and is sporting a massive bump, which she won't bloody stop cradling and stroking. Due on the 21st September apparently curse this beautiful weather and the need to have the windows open. It's just struck me that I still won't be pg a year after my first bfp/ first mc. Maybe I can be pg before we reach our 3 year ttc anniversary (Dec), that'd be nice...

Any news from you cherry? I'm imagining you sat underneath your desk where you've built yourself a little sound proof den in order to take any personal phone calls .

Great news erica, must be a relief. I hadn't bled at all since the blood test showed mine was incomplete so I started drinking raspberry leaf tea last night clutching at straws. Had a bit of bleeding again last night so who knows? Nothing again today though. I'm surprisingly not stressing about it. Blood test Tuesday will tell me if all's ok, no point in winding myself up about it before then, just keep on with the pantyliners....

HAGS I'm back! And the second D&C is done! -punches air like a lunatic- never thought I would punching air about something like this.

Euro That sounds terribly stressful. For what is worth it, I also know loads of similar stories of babies being born both early and tiny, much earlier than 33 weeks in fact, and being absolutely fine. My husband was born at 30 weeks for instance,and that was in the 80s!

Barking Glad you had such a nice week end! It is a fucking a nightmare when the mc drags, so to speak! Fingers crossed that everything resolves itself and you don't need any further treatment.

It's great that they are referring you to the rmc. We should be starting our tests mid August as well. However, after all the time spent in hospitals in the last couple of weeks, I am tempted to take a break? Probably won't but the idea is lurking somewhere in there...

Cherry SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Fab God, some people. Sounds like you are enjoying work though and that's brilliant.

Hope everyone else is doing well!

Cheers chaps, we have a long way to go but at least it feels as though we're finally getting a crack at this TTC lark. There is an awful lot of hanging around and living vicariously hey Fab but at least we can be here for each other.

Glad to hear you're hanging in there still euro, you are an inspiration laydee and when centime arrives he/she is gonna be the luckiest kid alive to have such amazing parentals. Not long now! Get a double wash load on the cunt bunting rain.

There are other PESH to have laid recently too. Winks and Draf in the last week or so and more expected. Exciting times!

Barking I'm right with you on the expectation game. I just know I will be on tenterhooks tomorrow and then oh so disappointed if the clinic doesn't call or worse still I can't take it. An open plan office is a mahoosive disadvantage to discussing any sort of gynae treatment in a professional, calm or cohesive manner. I sometimes have an awful long way to walk while gabbling rubbish like a moron until I can get to a safe place to speak. And then recently the clinic have phoned the home phone and left a message which is also unsatisfactory to my impatience scale. Oh the high drama.

Jeezy Chreezy Euro that sounds horrendous - how on earth are you maintaining normality at work with all that menkul happening? You are one amazing BESH < punches arm in sisterly awe>.

For what it's worth my SIL had my niece at 30 weeks, she weighed in at 2.5lbs (think bag of sugar) and is now a happy healthy beautiful 19 year old . Centime certainly is giving you a run for your money! Keeping everything crossed for a smooth and successful outcome. Please keep us informed?

Wow euro, that's a big old heap of menkul on top of all the rest. A friend of mine very recently had her first baby after donor egg IVF and her daughter was tiny and early for very similar reasons but she is a happy and healthy little baby. I hope when the Dr's decide it's time that everything goes really well. Keep us posted.

Fucking hell euro they're not giving you an easy ride even now, you would have thought after all it took to get here you of all people deserved an easy pregnancy . Got everything crossed for the optimum balance between cooking it for longer and taking it out before your nerves can't stand anymore, then for you to be home with baby as soon as possible . 33 weeks is a good amount of time to have been in there though, I've had friends give birth earlier than that (seven babies I can easily think of off the top of my head - two sets of twins, two prem babies from one mother who knew she was at risk with her second after her first, and one complete surprise very early labour) and all said babies are now happy healthy things.

cherry that is very exciting. I am joining in with the sqeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeing.

barking I hope the appointment comes through soon.

fab there is a problem with blood flow to my placenta (it can happen to anyone but is apparently more common in IVF pregnancies - as if we didn't have enough to contend with). It was confirmed at 28 weeks and since then we have been told to expect an early arrival and we are living from scan to scan. It's a balancing act in terms of trying to keep the baby in for as long as possible and being ready to evict him/her as soon as the condition worsens (if it gets worse, there is a substantial risk of stillbirth , hence the very close monitoring). Because the baby hasn't been getting as much blood as it should, it hasn't been growing well, so it is teeny tiny on top of everything else. I was scheduled for a section a couple of days ago, but we got a second opinion and they thought that we could continue close monitoring for a bit longer, so that is what we are doing. It's enormously stressful, but I am 33 weeks tomorrow, and a 33 weeker is a better prospect than the 28 weeker we thought we might be dealing with when this all kicked off.

I'm thinking of you all and cheering you on.

fab I LOL'ed at the brief idea that this insta maybe had Tourette's!
The periods of stasis in this business are so frustrating, what's next for you now?

cherry I shall give the cunt bunting a quick wash and iron in readiness for Thurs!! Woop woop!

fab how did you manage to not biff her one?! Grrrr.

for cherry. Fingers crossed for tomorrow

I'm definitely not already letterbox watching for our rmc appointment....

Oooh squeee indeed Cherry that's v exciting . Please tell us all about it when you can! I'm living vicariously through those that have actually got something happening with their fertility plan

Euro how's it going with your pregnancy? How come you're having to have so much monitoring at the moment - is everything ok?

Fanks Barking, here's hoping for all of us! But yay for our lovely fellas.

Good to see you Fab I know what you mean on the same old same old. Yup! I'll join you in a bit more waiting here... Though things are hotting up a little; our potential donor is in on Thursday and we're expecting a call after with a formal offer. I'm trying not to get carried away...

Well done on keeping it together with differ too. Urgh.

Whoops - supposed to be a ' after 'careless'!

'Ello 'Ags! Sorry I've been lying low for a bit, not much to say this end in the world of Utterly Failing to get Diffed unfortunately. Same same eh! Sorry you've been going through such a bitch of a time of it Barking but three cheers for the super husb! Mine own got brownie points for reading an article in a mag about endo and folding the page over for me to see. Bless.

I am now back in the land of the Gainfully Employed and am putting the world to rights. It's quite cathartic being able to sort other people's shit out! Unbelievable smug insta there though who I instantly wanted to punch when she moaned about being pregnant (with barely a bump at 7months) and then said 'it's my own fault for being careless. Fuck you bitch!!!! I managed to squeeze out a watery smile and move on. Aaargh. Aibu?

cherry you will be diffed AND get lots of time off work .

Even if we don't get answers, just having the tests and ruling stuff out will help turn down the menkul slightly if when we get pg again.

Crap, cross posted with you Barking, my wank day sounds way trite after reading your post. I'm glad the weekend perked up and that DCW is being continually amazing. Much respect, he's a credit to the male species. Hope you get some answers soon, and at the very least a lowered hcg. Arm punches and cockles a plenty.

What a wank of a work day.

Your lycra clad weekend sounds amazing Fankle. I could do with the tonic of a purt behind to stare at right now.

appreciated hags. Feeling reet gradely about the possibility of some time off work getting diffed.

Despite newborn, I managed to have a great weekend after deploying a very successful avoidance strategy. Fortunately the group naturally split vaguely into two groups with the hosts moving between them - those with children and those without, none of whom in the latter group showed the slightest interest in the newborn so I didn't feel obliged to acknowledge it either! Sometimes when everyone else is fawning over the baby I feel bad ignoring it, but I was in good company this time . Two single females and another woman there with her new boyfriend, all more interested in bikes than babies . Managed to get out on the bike to cycle to different parts of the route both days, so once we were on bikes that was the baby left behind anyway.
Sloe gin helped tremendously .

bugs I found out from my friend later that mother of newborn had two mc's between child one and newborn, so probably had some idea of why I was never in the same room as her baby....

DCW has continued to be amazing, when the consultant this morning talked about something using the long official name DCW asked if he was referring to what was commonly known as 'sticky blood'. Bloody hell, he didn't get that from me, he's been stealth googling behind my back!! . Was very proud [happy]. He also stepped in and asked all the questions he knew I wanted to ask when he could tell I was getting emotional. I luffs him.

Anyway, long story short we've been referred to the rmc despite only two mc's due to not being able to conceive naturally and wanting to make the most of our remaining chances. Consultant did keep saying it was only usually done after 3 but he was willing to refer us anyway.

Bad news was my hcg levels are still over 800. Still spotting, bleeding started 17 days ago now. Another test next week and if that's still not negative I'll have another scan and they'll tell me my options. Fingers crossed it'll all be over by then though.

erica how are you doing now?

Evening Hags

I've seen a lot of men in Lycra today, some were rather hot actually...they have such tight bums
Was there at the final 5k point in Sheffield at the top of the steepest hill. Was a great vantage point and lovely street party atmosphere. Not so much model toy village though. Yorkshire is a lovely place to live (but not quite as beautiful as Scotland, bien sûr)

Barking sorry your weekend was ruined by a newborn and smug baby-wearing dad (perhaps he wasn't smug but for the sake of argument, let's just say he was. He just sounds smug). I hope you managed to enjoy your weekend regardless...but how fecking annoying for you. Hope the sloe gin helped you through somewhat.

Cherry hurrah! That's brilliant news and September is not that far away really. Same for you Rain

Euro I hope your continued monitoring is proving reassuring rather than adding any more worry.

cherry that's brilliant news about the donor. :)

We used the embryoscope too, as we thought the extra 10% might help. As it was, only 1 embie made it to transfer day so it was a bit pointless in our case, but I still think it was the right decision to go for it.

barking I hope you were able to enjoy the tdf, despite being taken by surprise by the newborn. I am contemplating trying to see some of the London stage tomorrow, if I can fit it in between appointments (close monitoring means I am practically living at the hospital).

Glad woo needles not the spot Rain. I luffs my woo lady too, she has been mostly responsible for my sanity this last year. I tell her everything, better than any counselling I've ever had!

I too am a massive fan of Yorkshire. Tis tres beautiful, if only it wasn't so big and took so long to drive through on my regular trips north I'd have nothing against it. ROCH and I were there last week catching up with good mates and boogying in a forest to a 90's pop band. Good times.

barking that is just impeccable timing. Sorry you're not getting the weekend break you wanted (and no doubt needed) but hopefully DCW is continuing to be awesome and making sure you're both well away from the baby. Watching the tour on tv at the moment, it looks brilliant! From above Yorkshire a) just looks gorgeous but also b) like a toy model village, it's too picture perfect to be real! I am going to catch a bit of the tour in London, it's basically going past my office!

cherry that's really, really exciting news! 3rd time's the charm as they say. Hope you get the nod next week, please don't leave us on tenterhooks for so long next time!

Had some woo needles this AM. Was vair vair relaxxxxxing, and just nice to be listened to! Back in 2 weeks for next session. She had fertility issues herself, so feel like I'm in good hands.

I hope everyone has a great gin filled weekend!

Ha ha, the grand depart at the Tour de France was just described as a ballyhoo by a proper Yorkshireman! Bloody brilliant! Enjoy the cycling Barking, looking fab on the telly. Focus on the bikes and the beer and avoid those frigging newborns. Just what you need. DCW sounds like he's being a complete dude though, gold star for him. Here's to being cycle buddies in September.

I wouldn't know bugs I ran away from her! Dad is currently walking round with baby strapped to his chest. I'm hiding in the campervan until he leaves the house mature. My friend felt really bad for not warning me, but she didn't know about mc2 so I don't blame her. She explained briefly to her SiL why I might be a little antisocial .