Eggsellent Egg buddies! For those having ivf during April, May and June and any others still around :-)

I'm just back home from my embryo transfer.

Of our six fertilized eggs, four made it to blast, three good quality and one not so good. So we froze two of the good ones and had one good one and the slightly dodgy little one put back because it wasn't good enough to freeze and I felt sorry for it and wanted it to have a chance.

I couldn't believe how fast the procedure was, I was prepared to sit with a full bladder and gritted teeth for a good twenty minutes, but it took the doctor all of three minutes to crank me open and bundle them in. I didn't even feel the catheter go in or out and didn't realise they were in there and it was all done until he pointed the little blobs out on the ultrasound. Clearly Valium is pretty good shit

Just wish they could have given me a bottle of the stuff for the 2WW...

Have also realised that OTD is going to be just before my birthday, so I am either in for the best birthday present ever, or a birthday which will involve a lot of gin and self pity.

Sorry for the Me Me Me post.

How is everyone else getting on?

Hope you and your DH do manage to enjoy New York once you're there cups and maybe after your trip you'll be able to face the idea of signing up for round three of this bloody IVF crap.

Oh Cups - I wish that I was off to NY and really hope that you enjoy it.

It's definitely worth testing again though, if you can bear it, as some are late implanters...

If you're off to Care for round 3, I hope you'll be happy. They got 43 year old me preggo twice (even if neither time lasted beyond 6 weeks).

Try not to think that there's no hope after 2 tries. If I'd had 1, 2 or all 3 of my m/cs before DD, I'd have given up when there would certainly have been hope.

So so sorry cups. That's so bloody unfair. I hope getting away from things will help to distract you.

Thanks everyone, I feel really shit. I just don't see how it's ever going to work for us as we make crappy embryos. I can't believe we will be moving onto our 3rd fresh cycle

I don't think it's too early to be accurate as it's 12dp2dt. OTD is another 5 days away but that's because my clinic make everyone test between 16-18 days past transfer. We fly to New York tomorrow morning which is why I tested early. I don't even feel excited about going. I'm hoping that will change once we set off.

Oh hell, Cups I am so very sorry

Sorry - wrong thread

Bugs have you called your MW? I am with you rational self. I am sure it is all fine, just no good for your stress levels.

Res that is great that you are both on the same page re: adoption.

Cups so, so sorry. Huge hugs xxx

Really sorry Cups. I don't know what I can say beyond that, but look after yourself and don't do anything you don't feel like doing. You've got some time off this week, right? Hope you and dh can have some time just the two of you to look after each other.

That is so crap and unfair, so sorry cups

So sorry Cups. No words can help but hope you know we are here for you x

I'm so sorry cups
Take care of yourself. Did you say that you're off work this week? I hope you're getting lots of support. We're here if/when you need us. x

Cups - - sorry. I've run out of words to describe the crapiness of the whole thing.

So so sorry to hear that cups. Is it your OTD? is there a chance your too early? I know you will be feeling really horrible right now, I really feel for you. Sending you lots of love and hugs. Xxxxxxx

Hi it's a BFN for me, I've just done the test as I was desperate for a pee. I think I was secretly expecting it to work as even though it was a long shot. I feel numb

Oh, that's good res. I can see why you're a lawyer . I am crackers to be annoyed by him I know, but I somehow also enjoy it...
What are your thoughts about your next steps or is it too early yet? what am I talking about, you've probably thought of little else

PS Yes, you said about CM. Personally, I'm indifferent to him and I remember reading somewhere that indifference is the worst; at least if you're hated, you've inspired some emotion!

You're right. I was 38 too. It took my (gorgeous and so missed) daddy's death to wake up my maternal instinct.

Do you know what Res , I often hate myself for leaving it too late. We started ttc when I was 38. But then I remind myself that we didn't want kids at all until that point. Therefore, why would we have tried for something we didn't want? I'm just really pissed that I didn't want kids until it was too late. What a fecking idiot.
Whatever happens, you'll get through this but I totally understand and share your sadness.

Btw, did I tell you that Chris Martin is a twat in my opinion? I did? Oh well, it makes me feel better to keep saying it

Thinking of you cups
stars are you around? Haven't heard from you for a while.

Ditto sucking?

Cups - what news?

Brooker - no, not really - brave face but mourning my lost due dates in Aug/Jan. Just really, really, really sad and wishing I was 10 or even 5 years younger. Hate myself for leaving it too late.