Eggsellent Egg buddies! For those having ivf during April, May and June and any others still around :-)

Welcome Lizard, you'll have lots of support on here. Good luck with DE.

Oh no Res. Here to hold your hand, and I've got everything crossed.

PS - huge hugs. This process is the biggest mindfuck. I realise I am in an enviable position in some ways but my anxiety really is through the roof now. Far worse than during IVF and, believe it or not, worse than during the 2WW.

Res - is it worth giving you clinic a call. You are actually 14dpo now. Could you see if they could arrange a bHCG for you? OK, it would really increase the mentalling for the next 48hrs but you would know for sure?

Hi Lizard.

Thanks for the words of encouragement, all, but just been to the loo again and now seen bright red. Was OK - no blood - until after bowel movement (sorry, lost all sense of what's appropriate!) then lots of it - fresh and bright. Think this is it. Devastated as that was our last shot. Want to crawl in a corner but got to work.

Ps. res i was told by my nurse yesterday when discussing my drug protocol that it is very common to spot during the first few weeks after IVF. Very difficult not to worry but blood doesn't necessarily mean bad news.

Morning ladies

Might I join you? After two miscarriages over the last 12 months and investigative tests concluded that my eggs are knackered and old so DP and I are going down the donor egg route. We have just been matched and I start down regging on CD1 which should be in the next 4 days

Am a complete novice at IVF and am feeling a bit weird and scared by it all ....

Res it sounds like implantation bleeding to me too, especially the mixed in with CM bit. I know you're panicking and feeling dispondant/nervous, but you might just get a nice surprise on OTD (or earlier if you're doing a Val )

Thanks Val. I know that's a possibility but my earlier experiences tell me blood = bad news.

Res that sounds like implantation bleeding. I have it with my pregnancy in the summer. For me it started about 9dp5dt (literally on OTD) I was elated to get a BFP and then devastated. It was spotting and brown. Lasted a day but not enough to change a panty liner.

OK, ladies, I'm in need of that virtual hand hold. Was feeling quite optimistic last night because my food tastes weird, my sense of smell is acute and the boobs hurt like buggery but when I went to bed, there was blood. Not much (think 10p coin). Brown. Mixed with CM. But still there.

None overnight (and I had 6 bathroom visits to check ) so I'm hoping it was just a bit of old stuff coming away but the very fact of its existence has knocked me for six. Can't help but think about my 3 pregnancies - the only one during which I had no bleeding was the only successful one .

As I did a FET and am on progesterone, it can't be AF so there must be something going on down there. I just hope it's not failing already. I'm now 8 days past 5dt.

I'd forgotten how hard this is.

Yay Cups! So glad you lining is behaving! I'm with Res...9mm is the stuff of dreams for my womb carpet! How long have you stimmed for in the past?

Poor you Bears I have had a couple of occasions where I have had to leave cafes as the smell of cooking as driven me to heavedom.

Sorry to hear of those dealing with insensitive people. I do think it is very hard for those around us (not that I am defending anyone!!). There are some people who's pregnancies I have found really easy to cope with, really pleased for them etc....it's awful as it is those people I feel 'deserve' them - those who have taken an age to conceive, prior MCs etc. Which is horrible of me. Who am I to decide someone deserves to be PG? This whole process makes me really question myself sometimes. Other people I have been a bit with. Like the lady from nursery who was due the same time as me. She was LOVELY when I MC but then seemed to get all consumed in herself. She spent ages telling me before her 20 week scan how upset she would be if it were another girl (this was around the time of my first abandoned IVF since the MC) and then went on and on and on about her baby shower (a concept I cannot stand at the best of times) which coincided with my due date....find it hard to be around her without homicidal tendencies

Cups great news about your lining. Hope this is the one for you x

Oh and I'm with nobeer - I have loads of friends with children of the age(s) mine might/should have been. I made it very clear that I got pleasure from seeing/hearing about them so everyone is 'normal' with me. Your friend is being weird.

Cups - yowsers - I feel your delight thru the app!

So ironic - I'd have killed for 9mm and you're delighted with 4! It's all mad, this stuff.

That's great news cups! For the record, I have been a little teeny weeny bit crazy bitter infertile at times! But I think in your case you've made it clear you'd like to spend time with your friend.

The clinic has called, bloods are fine. I start stimms tomorrow

Lining is 4mm! I'm in shock as it's normally above 9mm at this point. So scan was good, just waiting for blood results now. I also had 15 follicles which I know is good but I'm mentalling about that as I had 30 last time.

Bears I'm a freak as my lining is way too thick. I had my cycle in jan cancelled because of it.

Thanks Nobeer it's good to get conformation I'm not a completely crazy bitter infertile. Blokes just don't get it do they?!

Cups you're not overreacting. Your friend has lost the plot! Good luck with your lining.

Cups: hope your scan goes well. Sending you thickening vibes!!

Res: are you managing to keep busy?

On a completely different note, I am in the back of a mini cab whose driver has such stonkingly bad breath I am suffocating. Window is open and still it's unbearable. If I had sat in the front I would have been knocked unconscious. I to make matters worse I think he is lost . How can anyone have such a problem and not know about it? Or be a cab driver!! Grrrrrh.

Cups - sending good lining vibes your way .

Tame thinking of you, have you got a review today?

Res thinking of you too, the second week of the wait is the hardest x

Turq that is exactly the problem I'm having with my friend. She can't treat me normally. She's keeping her pregnancy very quiet due to previous mmc's which is understandable but her DH confided in my DH months ago & asked him not to tell anyone including me. I then guessed she was pg, sent her a lovely long message congratulating her and she never replied. This was 3 months ago. My DH saw her a while ago & mentioned that I had never heard back from her. She said she didn't reply as she knows it will be very hard for me to deal with so she was giving me space. She has been in touch with my friends who are pregnant that she only knows through me and tried to organise for them all to meet up without me. My best friend asked her why she hadn't invited me and she said I would be uncomfortable as I don't have children. I am fuming, I never asked her for space and I was genuinely happy for her. My DH thinks I'm over reacting of course.

I've had my bloods, scan is not till 12. I'm praying my lining will be ok

Thinking of you tame. How are you sweetheart. Xx