TTC After MC: The home of hopeful nipples, ovulation eyes and the most determined Mummawannabees around. Chin up, tits out!

Getting a bit depressed here. Spotting at 10 dpo can't be a good sign can it? Its fairly substantial spotting, I almost think AF is starting then it just goes away again until the next day. Am feeling its almost impossible I'll end up with a bfp this month.
Is this a sign of low progesterone? Anything I can do next cycle to help it out?

MN is not twee, tends towards the harsh we like to think so an un-MN hug is a hug rather than a "pull yourself together"! Though I've not experienced anything "typically" MN!

I'm now on constant knicker watch!

Thanks holly. I saw prof Quenby end of feb and she's prescribed 400mg cyclogest twice a day from 7dpo. Totally helped with the spotting I had from 8/9dpo.

Choccywoccydodah 34, ttc#2 since Sept 13. mc Nov 13, Dec 13, Jan 14, Mar 14, all before 5 weeks.

Sebs sorry you are feeling so shit :(

What does un-mn hug mean btw?

Thanks everyone, just told the husband, he was hoping as it means he won't have to jizz in a cup

Penguin - I tested for the same reason, if it doesn't stick I'll have hit mc number 3 ava can go forward, but I'm so so hoping it sticks!

for everyone who's feeling shit, no need to pretend you're happy! We're all here for everyone!

Jesus, thats pretty depressing amount of people.... With no insult intended, I hope some of you bugger off soon! With big fat sticky bfps!!

Sebs - I really feel for you. I think we've all probably been where your are. Its really fucking shit. But you will feel better soon. The fog does lift and you will wake up feeling a little less blue. I definitely think its worthy of a full blown tantrum, sometimes it's just needed! And go in the garden and scream cunt at the top of your lungs! I called everyone and everything a cunt at one point. Sorry if any of you dislike the word.... but sometimes its the only one neccessary!! Sending you a massive hug and positive vibes

Tentative woohoo to penguin and missh FX for sticky beans and boring pregnancies

sebs feel feel to moan, wail, swear whatever gets you through. the bonus of being on here is completely understand and there is n judging involved.

Sorry to see you back choccy What help are you getting from docs etc?

Ok so here is the next stats instalment. Let me know if I have missed anyone - this could be a part time job!!
Parsely, 32, TTC #1 since Mar 2012, MMC Nov '13
Otters, 32, TTC #1 since Mar 2012 (insert swear word), MMC Nov'13. Clomid junky (approaching round #9)
Penguin13, 34, TTC #1 since June '13, MMC Nov 13
cakebaker35, 37, ttc#2 since Oct 13, mmc Mar 14
sebsmummy, TTC #2 since July 2013, mc February 2014
CakesALot 30, ttc since Nov 2013, bfp Jan 2014, mmc and erpc Feb 2014
Metalhead, 34, ttc#2 since July '13, mmc February '14
EnglishGirlAbroad, 29, TTC #1 since July 13, MC Dec13
Gail, 32, TTC #2 since December 13, MC at 12 weeks Feb 14
Seasides, 27, TTC #1 since Sep 2012, BFP Dec '12, ectopic Dec '12
zahazie, 34, TTC #1, BFP first cycle (Jan 14), MC Feb 14. My doctor put me on the pill for 21 days after MC (to sort out the WTF cycle more quickly), so I am now back on Cycle 1 TTC
Jetpackplease, 33, ttc #1 since Dec 2013, MMC at 10 weeks and ERPC March 2014
HollyBen, 39, TTC#2, mc (11 weeks) Mar 20120, DD Mar 2011, ttc#2 since May 2013, mc (9weeks) Sept 2013
Littlelady33, 33, TTC #1 since October 13, mmc and ERPC Feb
TeaRex 32, TTC no. 2 since Aug'13, MMC Jan'14
Triplespin 36 Ttc#2 since Feb2013; Mc#1 June 2013 at 5+3; mc#2 March 2014 at 6+3
MissHobart 33 ttc #1 since Jan'13, mc July'13 and Dec'13
Sal1977 36 ttc#1 since Aug 2012. 3 x MC Mar/jul/nov'13
broodylicious 35, ttc #2, mc feb 27 at 12 weeks
Officelady, 42, ttc#3, mc Feb 2013, mmc Mar 2014
TannyLoo 41, TTC #3, MC @ 6 weeks Dec 2012, MMC @ 12 weeks April 2013, MC @ 6 weeks Oct 2013, MC @ 6 weeks (blighted ovum) Dec 2013, MC @ 6 weeks Feb 2014
croftgirl80 33yrs TTC #1 since November '13, MC February '14
Viperama 38 TTC #1 since January 14, MC February 14
Carly6971 31, TTC #1 since 2007 bfp jan 2014 mc Feb 2014 at 9+5
Justonemoretime TTC #1 mmcs @6wks November 2011, same again May 2012, then mmc @ 13wks (baby died 10 wks); Turners. St Marys fixed wonky womb, all tests fine. Awaiting results from Prof Quenby's clinic. Age 37
LaceyLee 29, Ttc #1 bfp aug13, mmc oct 13, mc jan 14
JonesSchool TTC #1 since Nov 13, MC Feb 14 at 5 weeks

Wow, just logged on quickly and I see we have not one, but two BFPs to celebrate! Early days I know, but have massive HURRAH from me, penguin and miss H! Here's a 'well done on successfully fertilising your egg' card for you!
seb you sound so sad at the moment, my heart aches for you. I do think that as much as we try to put a brave face on and be strong and positive about the future, sometimes we just need to embrace our sadness, acknowledge it and let it overwhelm us for a little while. I hope you have got people in real life you can wail at, if not, well we are always here for you.

Hi ladies mind if I join in again? Not been on for a while as I've just gone through my 4th early mc :(
But I'm ready to jump back on the stallion of a hubby horse and try again for a Xmas bubba!
Been a shit few months tbh. Have been out in progesterone for 3 months (this will be my 2nd) so here's hoping it works this month.
Have had about all I can take now!!!!
Am on cd7 but only because I was still in progesterone so it was stopping af. I'm probably on cd9 if I hadn't been on it.
I'm checking my ov tests early this month just in case and sure enough this morning it was dark, not positive though. Am expecting it over the next 3 or 4 days perhaps. Normally positive cd15.

Anyway, enough from me. Off to read back.

Congratulations on any bfps I may have missed, here's to you and your sticky beans!!!

Such an exciting thread:
Two BFPs (congratulations Penguin and Miss H!!!) and a new job (Congratulations Otter), all since I joined the thread!

Yay congrats to penguin and missh a on the BFPs! We needed some happy news on this thread I think. And otters on the new job also.

I'm entering the tww, not hopeful as the latest problem we have encountered is Dh and 'performance issues'. So not had much DTD over
Fertile period
I'm sure ill still be symptom spotting like mad tho! Should be working and already getting distracted....
Sebs, feel for you, this ttc post mc is such a shit place to be in. I think having a plan to focus on is a great idea tho.

Thanks ladies.

And sebs, no need to be polite here, sob away, swear like a trooper, you just need to some days x

I realised that in my haste to post my news I forgot to say a huge congratulations to Otters on her new job! Very well done lady, brilliant news.

Sebs I am so sorry that you are struggling at the moment. As much as CUTO has its place I think there is nothing wrong with acknowledging your deep sadness. Noone here will judge you for expressing how you are feeling. Hugs.

I'll be ok soon I'm sure. Just right now I feel like absolute shit and I'm not polite enough to pretend I don't. Sorry girls xxx

Huge congratulations penguin and missH wishing you the most boring and text book pregnancies....ever!

sebs sorry your feeling so horrible! I know exactly how you feel it's horrible isn't it? I feel as though I spend most of the time on the verge of tears and if I do forget for a while I feel awful for forgetting. I hope you feel happier tomorrow :) x

Sebs thinking of you and sending positive thoughts your way. Cake it's frustrating I know, you just want to see the end of it really - I didn't bleed at all for a week then on and off for a week then it suddenly stopped. So after six days, if it's intermittent and not heavy you're on the right track I'd say.

Cakebaker I bled lightly for about a week, then a few days after it had stopped (following a bit of not-quite-tith fun with DH, if you get my drift...) I got a couple more days of brown spotting. I think you have to have around 3 weeks of no bleeding prior for it to count as AF.

Sebs hugs honey. I know the racking sobs well. They tend to appear when I do something idiotic like bang my head on a cupboard door.

Staring into the distance is also something I do. I find climbing a hill or getting to the coast for a bit of a Paddington Bear stare really cathartic.

And it is ok to feel shit. It is shit. It will get better, but it takes time.

I know what you mean sebs. Even though technically it only took me 4 cycles to get pregnant, one of them was 3 months long! And now I've 'wasted' 3 months with the unsuccessful pregnancy and mc... it's all very depressing.

I'd suggest you try and find something else to focus so you don't drive yourself completely mad, for example I'm looking for a new job. I know it's easier said than done, but I think it does help to have something else to obsess about.

sebs sorry you're feeling shitty, it really is the most nutty rollercoastery (new word invented for you) ride ever. I'm sure you won't need ivf but great to know the option is there. A friend had her baby last night and all I felt when I got the message was oh fuck the fuck off what an awful friend I am. I will muster up the energy to go and visit, she is a lovely person and I really am happy for her just sad for me, talk about wallowing

A question for you erpc ladies - how long did it take for the bleeding to stop? I hadn't bled for a couple of days, then it appears to be back as a slow annoying trickle, grrrrrrr. How will I know when it is AF and not just more gunk from erpc? It's only been 6 days since I had it so I know it's not AF yet but how do you know when one has stopped and the other started? Sorry for rambling, again!

God sorry parsley and sebs x posting as I'm so slow, sorry you're both having such tough days :( I know it's not mn but massive hugs to you both, really wish I could do more to help x

Woohoo! Congratulations penguin and MissH :) I am at work and the big boss is in so what could have been a right shitter of a day now doesn't matter :) thank you for cheering me up and more importantly healthy & happy 9 months to you both

And congratulations on the new job otters as the others have said I hope this brings on a bfp :)

Thanks Metal. I feel kind of defeated today and like I really want to throw the towel in and concentrate on something I can actually influence without praying and doing fertilisation jazz hands over it.

I want to shout CUNT really FUCKING loudly and do those racking child like sobs you can no longer do past 16, but I don't have the energy to even try. It's like my internal fire has gone out and all I can muster is weary space staring.

So it took 7 months for me to fall pregnant. Then 2 months to lose the baby. Now pretty much 10 months in and nothing to show for it bar stress lines. It really is the shittiest of bullshitting feelings and yet I know by comparison I am lucky. I just can't quite feel it at the moment.

Wow!! 2 bfps in one day!! Congratu-friggin-lations Penguin and MissH!! Wishing you very sticky beans and boring, uneventful, happy and healthy pregnancies!! Everytime there's a bfp on this thread it fills me with renewed hope!!

Parsley - sorry you're having a rotten morning, but it's good that the Dr is re-doing tests and the mc hasn't sent you back to the beginning of the line.