TTC After MC: The home of hopeful nipples, ovulation eyes and the most determined Mummawannabees around. Chin up, tits out!

Another negative opk. I definitely ovd some time ago if at all - and in any case now 4 weeks after ERPC isn't likely. So must be in the 2ww... But no poas until at least next Friday. Wish my body could give me clearer signals!

Welcome catty, glad you decided to join us here but hope your stay is short. You'll get loads of support here, wisdom and even some laughs along the way x

Hi Catty, sorry that you're here with us but you are very welcome here!

My MC was at the end of Feb and I was 12 weeks. I felt ready to start trying again a couple of weeks later, don't think my body was ready though as had on and off spotting/bleeding all the way up to my first AF last week. Feeling properly reset and back to normal this cycle.
How are you feeling physically?

English are you looking forward to coming back to the UK? Have you been away a long time?

Welcome Catty sorry to hear about the awful time you've been having and hope that this thread provides some comfort

Hi Catty sorry you're here.

I'm also a 72 vintage and feeling like I can't waste a second. I'm on an enforced 3 month break following the most horrendous year of MCs. I am closer to a diagnosis, which keeps me going, but feel like every cycle gone is a cycle wasted...

I hope your stay with us is short and sweet!

Hello ladies - can I join in?

My stats are:

Catty, 41, TTC #1, MMC Mar '14

I think I'm ready to start again - emotionally all over the place (my EPRC was the week before last when I would have been 10w2d: I would have been 12w tomorrow ) but at my age I'm not sure I can wait.

Thanks Sebs and Triple. Not particularly stressed at the moment. I poas about a week ago and bfn.
We're moving back home in May so plan on getting to the docs as soon as I'm back. The doctors here are very useless, I don't fancy being brushed off so will hear myself up for a battle with my usual gp! In the meantime hopefully something might happen. To be honest right now I don't care too much if AF does turn up!

Above post w directed at English btw

I assumed you've pissed on a thousand sticks to rule out upduffedness?

On my copious wanderings around the internet I have read that some women have been prescribed the pill to 'reset' their periods again after mc. I think if it was me I would do what you are doing and treat this like a new cycle. However if I couldn't track OV and AF was still absent at the time you would expect it then get thee to the docs.

I'm so sorry you're still being head fucked by your body, the very least it could do is get with the program and allow you to concentrate on TTC xx

ooh parsley Mauritius sounds v. exciting ! It is also on my list of places to visit, but soo expensive. You will have a lovely time I am sure.

holly I had a cd21 test and my levels were 40. So fairly close to you. When I showed these to the specialist fertility clinic,they said it was a good level. I had also diagnosed myself with low progresterone prior to that - but don't think that is the answer for your case either. Your levels are good.

sebs sorry to hear you a feeling blue. I really don't know how much ewcm is 'normal', but i only get 2 days before ovulation and its mostly on wiping. Very different from how it is described in "taking charge of your fertility" book. I recall sundance trying the cough syrup and got upduffed that month. So it might be worth a try? How long did it take you to get pg first time around? Sorry haven't scrolled down to the stats :)

english cd42 - that is a very long cycle. Are you very stressed about something? I had a 38 day cycle few months before I got pregnant, but I knew then that I ovulated much later. Don't think I was particularly stressed about anything, so not quite sure why I ovulated late. If you are getting ovulation signs now then maybe as you say, you might have had an anovulatory cycle and starting off again. To give you hope, one lady on this thread had a 50-60 day cycle and also got pg in the same cycle ! so don't lose hope.

tanny it must've been tough being back at work. Its good to know though that your work are being understanding. You should definitely take as much time as you need, especially if it is being offered by them.

Some more pg announcements. This time our neighbour who is 16 weeks pregnant with first child. Sigh.... I spent part of Sunday morning packing up DS's baby clothes to give away. So hopefully this weekend they will be dropped off to the charity shop. I have also put the cot on ebay - no bids yet, but its a start ! I have also been having accupuncture. This is 5 elements, where they burn this moxa herb at specific points and put the needles in at various points, but only for a split second and then take them out. I've been enjoying my sessions a lot. We have a 15 minute chat first to discuss worries, ohealth /sleep/stress issues and then 30 mins of accupuncture. I feel so relaxed and positive after the sessions. Even if it doesn't help directly with getting pregnant, I feel less stress in my life.

Cycles are normally 29/30 days.
Diet and exercise are no different to normal. I've always had a fairly balanced diet & exercised 3-4 times a week. I just think my body is fucked! I can't believe a miscarriage at nearly 6 weeks can have such a disruptive impact on my cycles. As if the miscarriage itself wasn't bad enough, the shitty erratic cycles are impeding my ability to get pg again! Its crap!

Grrrr English I'm sorry I didn't know that. How long were your cycles previously?

I can remember there was a few months in my twenties where I was being really strict with my diet and my period just disappeared for a month. I assume you are eating well and not over exercising or anything?

Thanks tanny, hopefully I will get a +opk soon as well.

I've come down with a stinking cold, just in time for my interview tomorrow! That will go down well I'm sure, sneezing all over the interviewers... urgh.

Sebs I can't start a new cycle with it because i haven't had a visit from af. On day 42 of this cycle without any bleeding. My guess is that i didn't ovulate and now my body is starting the whole process again. If i'd had a normal cycle this would now be cd13 of a new one and therefore close to ovulation. Fuck knows whats going on. But I am losing the will to live to not knowing!!
Did a few ic opks and had a dark line on sunday. So hoping i'm right and ov is imminent.

Metal I had 4 days of ewcm before I got a positive opk this month, and I think it was about 5 last month, if that helps.

I'm also having ewcm again today, but got the faintest line so far this month on the IC opk...

English are you still using your monitor? My readings this month have been totally different from last month. I'm assuming it's because it's 'getting to know me' now I have one peak cycle under my belt.

Morning ladies,
Sorry to see so many of you are feeling so blue today.
And Tanny, take the time you need. It sounds like you have a decent employer at least. I think a little break is probably just what you need.

I've had ewcm for days now (thanks epo) and still no ov! Every morning I hope my temps will reveal something but nada!

Sorry to hear your return to work didn't go as planned tanny Sounds like you have very supportive employees so take time and look after yourself. You have been through a hell of a lot.

Been for my day 1 tests today. My day 21 (done on day 23 due to my cycle length) showed progesterone levels of 37.4. Does anyone know what this means? It said on screen that >30 shows an ovulatory cycle which is good I guess. I diagnosed myself (in conjunction with dr google) with low progesterone due to sore boobs from ov, spotting prior to af and rubbish light af

Apologies for typos and spelling! Clearly my brain is frazzled by all this as well as my body

Sebs after what you've been through, you will be experiencing depression symptoms. It's natural and part of the grieving and healing process. It will pass I'm sure. I think it's possibly harder to recover quickly when we are at home as we don't have the same distractions as at work.

Things will get better for both of us. All of us.

tanny sorry to hear you're having such a rough time but glad your employers sound sympathetic and definitely the right thing to take some more time. Don't suppose there's a chance of a night or two away somewhere? Sometimes a change is as good as a rest they say.

I'm thinking that it might be worth a try so I'm buggering off to a spa in couple of weekends time - I'm really not a spa person but just felt a change might be good, just a weekend to catch up with a friend and do lots of walks while dh takes care of dd. i haven't left dd for a night yet but feel it' said good time too. I feel like you sebs, I'm a sahm at the moment and I'm scared my sadness will rub off on dd. I'm trying to be busy for her and also have started trying to right a list of mini things to do over the next few months, nothing dramatic but just simple projects that I hope will give me something else to think about. Here's hoping.

Tanny - really sorry chick . It sounds as though your employers are sympathetic which must be a huge help. I totally understand what you are saying about the need to feel fully strong to do your job.

Although I'm a SAHM at the moment I find my sadness has really dampened down my creativity. I have no enthusiasm for the things that would normally get my juices flowing. I suspect it's depression in my case.

Yes I guess that does make sense actually. Your body tries to maximise chances by helping older sperm live as long as possible.

Triple - could concentration of urine be playing a part I wonder?

Thanks everyone. Unfortunately I didn't last long in work yesterday. I had a meeting with my manager to do my return to work thing and discuss phased return etc. He took one look at me and asked if I was ready to be back. Cue big blub. So we talked it through and I decided that I need more time to get stronger.

So I came home.

Part of me knows it is the right thing to do, but I still feel like a bit of a fuck up.

My job and work are very important to me, and something I'm really passionate about, but I have to be at full strength to do it justice.

I've done loads of "work" on myself, but am still a bit of a wuss.

Seasides I'll message you. They sound really useful.

Parsley thanks for thinking of me.

Triple I've never had long lasting hcg levels. Mine always seem to plummet like a stone. I'm assuming they'll start to come down soon, but I think a visit to your Dr sounds sensible.
I had a nice letter from my consultant yesterday about my last mc and next blood test. Well, I say nice, but it was really just less dismissive and seems to be taking the APS possibility a bit more seriously.

So, back to my GP for another sick note, and back to keeping house and watching old episodes of One Born on 4od...