Eggcellent egg buddies - a thread for all those IVFing in January, February and March - Volume 2

Bugs - hurrah! Tentative congratulations x x

Thanks everyone. I feel awful at the moment and I'm not sure why because I never expected it to work. Actually that is why I feel awful; because I have this absolute feeling of certainty that we won't have another child I don't even feel like I have any hope. We are fortunate in that we could afford several more cycles but it doesn't make me feel any better because I don't think any of them would work.
Part of the reason I haven't told my friends is because most of them are pregnant or have very small babies. I don't want to make them feel awkward or feel like they can't invite me places or can't talk about things that are happening for them. It's not their fault they're fertile and we are not. And I do seem to have very very fertile friends!

I had Pnd after having ds and didn't really appreciate his tiny months. I feel like that's why I can't have another child, I wasn't grateful enough for my first one. I know this is stupid. A parent I am working with at the moment has had four children removed for abuse and is pregnant again. So I know it doesn't work on who is the most deserving gets a baby but I still feel like it's my fault we can't have another.

De lurking to give one a huge hug. I kept IVF quite for the first few months but people kept becoming arsey with me for being flakey/turning down social invites. For me it was infinitely easier to let everyone know, including work. I feel incredibly luck as work have been very supportive, I knew my friends would be. That said, those who haven't been through any of this don't get it and do still come out with stupid comments but I found so many people who have also been through this or are going through it and are relieved to have someone to talk to too. I'd love to say feeling shit passes and it does. It also comes back and hits you like a ton of bricks but we are all here for you xx

Bugs, looking good woohoo!

One, sorry your night out left you feeling worse than ever I do think it's a good idea to tell one of your friends. If they're good friends they'll try and support you. I know they don't always 'get it' but being able to just say why you're feeling so crap is a relief in itself. I agree that ivf is so isolating though. That's why groups like this are so invaluable. I am still in a state of feeling very sorry for myself that Ivf is a massive part of my life and more than that, failed ivf. I feel very angry at everything right now and so so jealous of anyone with more than one child. I don't understand myself, as I didn't feel that way about people with children before I had DS. I hope you see a second line soon xx

One. You really should tell people. Everyone I know knows pretty much. Even the couple we bought our house from! If people talk about it it will stop ttcing being a taboo.

Bugs - great news!

One - I really think you ought to tell one if your friends what you are going through. You need support at a time like this and it definitely sounds like you aren't getting enough. My best friend has been great - we haven't chatted about it loads, but have been in text contact. She is always asking me how I'm doing, and if I've been fed up or upset, I've been able to unload. I know it can feel like everyone is pregnant, but even those friends would be supportive, I'm sure. I wasn't prepared for how all consuming IVF would be, and it's true, you feel totally isolated. Thinking of you xxx

Just been out with friends for the evening. I think it was too soon, have spent the evening on the verge of tears. I think it's because I feel like for me everything has changed and none of them even have any idea. It weighs on my shoulders all the time. It's so incredibly isolating.

Thanks for letting me know Euro. I look about 15 weeks pregnant. My DP is convinced its because there are twins in there. It's just bloat though! How are you feeling? You must be almost 12 weeks now? Exciting!!

I'm the same bad. I was "fat" from about 5 weeks. I'm now a right chubber. But I don't have a proper bump shape, just a load of bloat.

One, no fat ladies (on this thread or elsewhere) have sung yet. You're not out.

Sorry not same day it was implanted - same day it was transferred.
Poor little embie.

Thanks stars x x

I think it's about 50:50 for getting a line at 8dpo on an early response but I feel like I'm just kidding myself. The more likely explanation is my 6 cell embie stopped dividing probably the same day it was implanted. All this waiting for something that's already too late! I wish it was possible to find out the day after transfer. Then I could pack in the progesterone.

I think even with a first response on 8dpo you could easily get a single line even if you are pregnant. I know how you feel tho. The evil second week of the 2ww! And when you feel things didn't go as well as they should have. I really hope you get a big surprise in a few days time. X

I'm at 8dpo.
But I used an early response that shows from 6 days before your period. I would be due next Friday. It was negative. Well there was the ghost of a line but I think it was an evap or the very very dry end of the trigger and I could only see it when under the light!

Also I've lot weight, I'm in my skinny jeans and they are loose. Usually this would be good news...at the moment not so much. I told my mom today it had failed and despite her going on about Ivf being unnatural she was disappointed. I'm her only child and it looks like ds will be her only grandchild.

And all pregnancies will have differing levels of hgc as well. I am now 19 days past EC and I've only just got a proper line on an Internet cheapie test yesterday.

Don't give up yet!!

AFM - I am soooooo bloated its ridiculous! I was at least 15 weeks pregnant before I started to show with my DS and I look huge already. Am not exaggerating. None of my jeans or trousers fit. Anyone else experienced this? I will be 5 weeks on Monday.

E lurking to say 10dpo is VERY different to 7 or 8dpo! Don't give up just yet One x

I know bugs, but I already just know!
Wouldn't a sensitive test show earlier? Ds was positive by 10dpo.

I think I need to just accept that's it.

Got myself some super cheap tests so I can indulge my POAS habit - bfn today.

It might be early but I think something would show by now. Considering stopping the progesterone because it's giving me tummy cramps and upset stomach.

I might take a break from the board too. I don't think we will ever be successful with having a second child but I don't know how I make peace with that or how I get over feeling so angry about it.

Good luck for everyone cycling at the moment x x

Turq, I always find the cyclogest delays my period. Some people find that, others will get their period despite the drugs.

A lot of people feel like that about testing, so they test at home before OTD. My OTDs were work days, and they phone in the afternoon with the result. I never wanted a surprise in the middle of my work day. I could cope if it was just confirmations of what I already knew, either way.

one I tested the trigger out too. I wanted to know that when I tested it would be a real result.

Hurrah for being PUPO, wanna.

Yes cyclogest delays your period. Don't think it usually happens until have you've stopped taking progesterone.

My line was the end of the trigger I think, and was unbelievably faint. I'm only 5dp3dt today so 8dpo. Occasionally I feel hopeful then I remember that none of the others made it, it was a slow embie at only 6 cells not 8 and they assisted it to hatch because my eggs are hard boiled. So I think the chances of a bfp are probably about 1%. Still 1% higher than when we try naturally but still, not great. There's so much against us. Even with a good embie at day 3 I think it's only about 30% chance so ours must be way lower than that.
I'm driving myself mad.

Morning all. Having a nice lazy day. Have got a bit of a headache but hoping it's the hormones & not the lurgy