Eggcellent egg buddies - a thread for all those IVFing in January, February and March - Volume 2

Hey ladies. Sorry I've been AWOL the last few days. It been hectic! I went to the Circus of horrors thursday night, to a twilight spa friday night then yesterday I travelled from my home in South Somerset to Basingstoke to go ice skating, bowling, for a meal and indoor skydiving, then to Cardiff to see a band play then back to South Somerset for a huge sleep! I'm so tired today!

One - Don't give up yet. I know its hard and I'm just as negative as you but its easy for me to say it isn't it?! I'll need you to say the same thing to me in two weeks time. I have my fingers crossed that everything you're going through will be worth it in the end!

Bad- I can't wait to be bloated for the right reasons. Now its generally because i've eaten too much fruit or bread. My stomach bloats the size of being 6 months preggers, no exaggeration! Good luck for your blood test tomorrow (not that you need it)

Bugs - Oh my gosh! How exciting. eeeeeek.

Euro - Good luck for your scan. I'm so happy for you. I'm glad you have told yourself to enjoy it if all is well, which I'm sure it will be

Good luck Bunny! I will be thinking of you xxx

afm, af FINALLY arrived on friday which means i can go for my scan on tuesday to see if im thin enough then start on my oestrogen wednesday! So if all goes well with the plumping of my lining I should have my FET the last week feb! I get excited then I fall back down to earth thinking of the disappointment and heart ache of the last two bfn's.

Its ok though, I'm strong, I can do this. I just so desperately need to be pregnant at the same time as DP's brother's GF so we can all enjoy it together

Mind you now they're home I wish dh would go back.
He's more upset Man U are losing than he is over the Ivf failure. How can this be?!

And yes mil is aware of the ivf and the likelihood that it hasn't worked.

My mil has annoyed me. Mind you that it quite easy to do atm - I'm either crying or annoyed. Occasionally both.

Dh takes ds over every Sunday without fail. I didn't really want them to go today because ds is the only thing that cheers me up, but go they did. They've come home an hour earlier than usual because dh was worried about me and apparently mil has been complaining about missing out. Piss off! She's lucky they bloody went. She's got three children, five other grandchildren and a great grandchild. I've got ds and that's it.

Turquoise - forgot to say thinking of you too. Buserelin is dreadful. I do hope you start to feel better soon. X

Hope your scan goes well Euro and yours bunny. I think spotting is pretty common with Ivf pregnancies but nonetheless worrying I know xx

The progesterone is messing with my mind! Giant sore boobs, yep, exhausted, yep, moody, yep!
Also the rash has returned. Why, why?! I itch!

Thanks Euro, I know it's the drugs but i still feel utterly depressed. Nothing that I normally like doing is making me happy.

I'm actually looking forward to work tomorrow so I have something to take my mind off things.

Good luck for your scan!

I felt bloody sorry for that giraffe as well.

Euro - so excited for you that you have made it this far!

Bunny - good luck for your scan. Am sure you will be fine. How far along will you be?

One - hope tomorrow is a brighter day for you.

AFM, I have to go for my blood test at the hospital tomorrow. I am going to try to go as early as possible because the blood clinic is always ridiculously busy and my DS always runs around causing havoc. I've waited 2.5 hours for a blood test before so am going to be there like a keen bean as soon as they open. I have told a few close friends about my positive test now and have decided there is no point in being all negative and stressed out right now. I should be jumping for joy after all. I am so lucky to get this far xxx

*luck

Bunnie good look tomorrow for your scan. You'll see a likkle hb flickering

Euro, hope your scan goes smoothly this week too

One, I just read about the giraffe too. I wondered why they couldn't just sterilise the giraffe if worried about genetic issues? Why did they have to kill him with a gun (rather than injection) to part use for research and part feed to lions??

Hugs for all the crying. Oh no hang on, no hugs, hugs will just make you cry more....that, or slap me

I also should not read the news.
A zoo has killed a baby giraffe because there were too many giraffes and then fed him to the lions.
This has also made me cry.

I really hope it's the hormones.
I've just cried at the Winter Olympics.

Other things that have made me cry today:
Burning toast
Old man in tesco buying small amount of food and paying in small change
Baby diplodocus being eaten in dino documentary ds was watching

That's how bad it is. I'm crying over an animated prehistoric creature being eaten by an animated prehistoric predator.

God. I hope this stops. I probably shouldn't go out again until it does.

Euro I'm glad things are looking good for you this time x x

If we try again I will do short protocol again even though dh wants me to do long. I think short is as far as I will go. I don't want the migraines to come back. I am worried the clinic will say I need to do long protocol too.

When I went to the EPU, sure I was miscarrying (again), there was a pregnant woman standing outside the doors smoking. There is no justice in any of this.

Turq the downregging drugs are evil. Almost everyone feels terrible on them. If you can make it through to stimming, you should feel better then.

Mine is nearly 5 turquoise and I feel the same.
Looks like he will be an only one.

I know loads of people (through work) who drink, smoke, take drugs, eat crap and live in squalor. Yet they pop out baby after baby after baby. I have concluded lifestyle makes very little diffence if you're highly fertile.

A mom a ds's school is pregnant with twins. She has four children already, by four different fathers. She stands and smokes whilst she waits for her other kids and I feel bitter.

One I'm sorry you are feeling so shit at the minute. Please stop testing and torturing yourself. I know what you mean about hating people with more than one child. My son is 6 now and I'm kidding myself he'll ever have a sibling.

Well I thought I was doing ok and being quite rational 7 days into down regging but had a breakdown yesterday when I went for a wedding hair trial for when I'm a bridesmaid and I looked so spotty and ugly. My skin is terrible at the minute. I just cried at the hairdressers then all the way home. Poor woman didn't know what was going on.

My mam rang me this morning to see how I am and told me my sister in law is accidentally pregnant. I'm fucking devastated. Why couldn't she have announced it at 12 weeks like everyone else not 4 weeks?

They have a one year old already. My brother is about 24 stones and the unhealthiest man you could imagine whereas my H is so fit and healthy.

Just goes to show that all the shit about eating healthy, not smoking etc etc doesn't mean shit.

And my stammer has come back because I'm anxious. I could hardly get a word out at the hairdressers yesterday. How unlucky am I to be infertile and have a stammer.

So sorry for the rant it's just no one else understands.

Just de-lurking to send hugs to all, especially one feeling so blue.

bugs FX the line gets darker.

euro 12 weeks already, wow!

I have early scan tomorrow (think I will be 6w), started spotting last night so I am stressing! The stress never stops!

bad I hit 12 weeks on Thursday. 12 week scan will be on Monday week at 12+4. If all is well then, I have promised myself I will chill the fuck out.

Re: the bloat, the arse bullets don't help I think, but I've heard of natural differs suffering too. I've been told that it tend to go later on, and you get "sllimmer" before the real bump appears. I think that might just be happening to me now. (TMI alert) I spent yesterday emitting the most toxic farts and am a lot less bloated today than I have been in ages. The nausea seems to have gone too. I'm trying to see this is a good thing and not menkul about loss of symptoms.

one I'm sorry your night out left you feeling bad. Like some of the others, I have found talking about it openly helps. Not everyone will say the right thing, but I have had some great support, even from some instadiffers.

Your PND has no effect on anything. If there was a deserving element to any of this, would anyone have more than one child with foetal alcohol syndrome? Would the absolutely lovely poster on another thread I am on have lost her IVF baby at 12 hrs old? There is no logic or karma or anything like that in any of this.

Please wait a couple of days before testing again. You are just torturing yourself with these early tests. x

Agh One - as Bugs says, 9dpo is WAY too early! I bet even Octomom didn't get her BFP that early.

Even though your friends are pregnant, or have young children, I still think you should confide in a couple of them. Those with children get it more than those who don't have kids, anyway. The most insensitive comment I have ever had was upon telling one of my best male friends, who is gay, that I was now technically infertile and would have to do IVF. He told me there were too many children in the world anyway and that i 'should be grateful' I already had one. Pregnant ladies or mums might not fully 'get it' but they will still be able to empathise and offer support. And try not to blame yourself! I know its easy to say - I thought it was 'my fault' I lost my tubes to ectopics because of waiting until I was over 35. And when I found out I was pregnant with the first ectopic, I was a bit annoyed at the inconvenience because we were due to fly to Australia. We always try to blame ourselves, but there's no point. Shit things happen to everybody. But there is no point torturing yourself - yet! - because you still don't know it hasn't worked! And if it doesn't, remember you have the option to explore other avenues. Chin up, One!

That's where I am bugs.
It might be hormonal too like you say. It feels like terrible pmt. dh better watch out, I'm homicidal on a normal month! He may have to move out for a few days for his own safety.

9dpo, (6dp3dt) bfn.