If TTC # 2 has turned you into a nut job this thread is for you! (Part 4)

Oh Fedup, we are all there/here with you. Sending you some hugs and . I think avoiding facebook can only be a good thing.

Oh I want her to go away. Just go away. Another snug announcement of # 2. Going to deactivate my Facebook as can't cope with it. :(

Don't worry Lucy, I'm hanging in there til sat just like you. Also imagining symptoms and basically being a grumpy old cow!

I think cd29 is a good middle ground Cake. Don't you dare do it before then!
Well I have been feeling sick all day and building my hopes and getting just a little bit excited. But now I'm home I realise I am totally imagining symptoms. I think AF is for sure on her way, all the usual signs are there and no vague indications that maybe I have started growing a tiny person. I will definately not be in the mood for a party on saturday if I get a bfn, even if I can drown my sorrows. Oh ladies, how do you keep going! Talla you are so brave to have gotten this far and to be relaxed about it all. Are you still hopeful and feeling positive that your time will come? Glad the tests all came back clear. I can imagine how hard it must be for you with your DD, I am feeling more and more now like I desperately want another child just for my daughter to have company more than anything else.
Sebs what a strange woman! Is there a chance she too is ttc? maybe she felt she needed a rant and you just happened to be in the line of fire!! I bet she really did wonder what the hell had come over her when she got home!!
Would you recommend the fertility monitor even if you are managing to get sort of positives on ics?
I think I might try acupuncture too next month, anyone got any advice/tips?

I really hope that lady gives you an apology next time you see her sebs!

Still desperately trying to hold out to poas til Saturday unless AF rocks up before them. Technically I could still be too early on sat but as cycles are a bit irregular i thought cd29 not a bad bet and I will go fully bonkers if I wait longer

Sebs how awful, she sounds like a total witch! Words fail me at how bloody stupid people can be, you would definitely think someone running a toddler group would know better! Poor you, hope you're not too full of rage about it.

Fedup good luck with tonight!

Still playing the waiting game here. Trying to avoid crazy symptom spotting. The only thing that's different is I'm kind of off my food a bit (not like me!) and just really want meat...a big burger would be ideal.

Oh how horrible!! What a stupid woman! Perhaps she thought you had lost it cos of the bleed and was 'trying' to make you feel better through the usual 'oh it's so common to miscarry' rubbish that I always get! Even so... What a dick! Hope you are ok and you aren't talking any of it on board.

Ah, thanks for soft cup, much appreciated. Got another load of ewcm today so not quite sure what's going on. Didn't manage to have sex last night as DH was out til 1 but will try conjure up some energy tonight!

talla glad all the tests were normal but eeeek re invasive ones. Sound a bit scary but hopefully get you resolution if needed.

Wishing all those (and their OH) in the fertile zone all the energy and enthusiasm required for sufficient shagging!

Great news sebs! And also punky, definitely something to feel positive about!

lucy we certainly are similar! Thanks for the hand holding until sat!

Hi fedup I remember you too. Lovely to see you (though it sucks to be Fred 1 alumni)

Hello everyone else

Are congrats in order sebs so pleased for you!

So 2 years! I am actually OK about it now. I was very upset from about 6 - 18 months. Every month was a crushing blow. Now I am just used to it. AF was three days late this month and I didn't even take a test

All my hormone tests and DH's sperm test have come back normal so just have to wait and see what the 'invasive' tests throw up.

Luckily we do have DD (6) who is fabulous. The hardest thing is that she is desperate for a sibling. That really hurts

*today Sebs!

Gosh Cake we are quite similar! My last 3 cycles have been 23,24 and 34 days!! I'm used to 26 day cycles, I haven't come off the pill or stopped breastfeeding so I'm guessing it's just down to stressing myself out over ttc I am just the same as you, I don't feel optimistic for this cycle, and I too would just love to get back to normal cycles. sat will be cd26 for me. Sounds like a date Cake!! Two parties for me on sat!!
Good luck with your Dr tomorrow Sebs!
Fedup maybe perhaps you are reading too much into it!!?? have you been drinking the cough medicine? Did you manage to dtd last night?

Good luck today Sebs, thinking of you!

Hi Talla, sorry you are still in this situation after 2 years. Wishing you lots of luck with your appointment.

Thanks Cake and Lucy, back seems a bit better today, and yes we DTD last night.. I only managed about half the chat with DH that I practised in my mind, but it worked for this month anyway.. or maybe it was the floods of tears that did it.., either way it is a pretty good job something worked as I got an 'almost' positive on the OPK stick yesterday. Bit of a surprise coming from nothing the previous day (not even a squinter).. so hopefully going to DTD again today, and maybe tomorrow if temperature hasn't jumped up by then.

Hopefully too this is a sign my cycle is getting back to normal(ish)..

FedUp I'm with you on the cough mixture next month though. When I said in an earlier post EWCM was 'on the change' it was (TMI ALERT) really thick.. I'd never seen it that thick before.. and again was waiting for lots of EWCM like last month to start BD.. but now I get the OPK (almost) positive) out of nowhere and hardly any CM, and what is there is really thick.. Talk about head-f*.. it's hard enough ttc without getting a curveball every month!!

I had my legs and bum propped up for half the night though so hoping that helped a bit!

Right, on with some work now.. Happy Wednesday!!

Sebs, good luck today, do keep us posted

Fedup, I thought all EWCM was the right stuff, never knew texture mattered! You are a cm expert!

Phew. Sounds like it just was a bit of breakthrough bleeding then sebs. Hurrah!

So husband is out tonight and just went to the loo to find (sorry way tmi) a v long ewcm bit. I find it funny how this would have previously grossed me out (am super squeamish) but now I'm like oooooooh. Although I really think I need to do the cough medicine thing as mine is quite rubbery more than watery / slippery. So even though I have it, it doesn't feel like the right stuff. FFS!

Good luck talla I was Fred one and remember you! Bum that we are both still here :(

From not for!

Hello Talla, really good luck with your appt, do let us know how you get on.

lucy don't worry it's impossible to remember everyone's details! My cycles have been 27, 25 and 34 days so far! Saturday would be cd29 and I am determined not to test before then, I know in my heart of hearts this month is very unlikely and I'd just be happy to have a sensible cycle. So lets make a deal - we keep each other for testing til sat ok? Your party will be fab either way, as you say you can commiserate if not but maybe just maybe it could be a real celebration, fingers crossed x

Zippy hope you get your +ve opk soon, which sticks are you using?
Hello Talla I am a newbie on this thread, but hello to you! 2 years, you poor thing, how have you coped?? Do you have one DC already? Good luck with your appt, will be interesting to hear what the Dr has to say.

Punky I too suffer with a bad back, all DDs fault, I think if I have another one I will turn into the hunchback!! I am going for physio for it but it doesn't seem to be working as well as I would hope. DTD certainly doesn't help, especially when I try and keep my legs up in the air afterwards but needs must and all that....
Hope your chat with DH goes ok tonight.
Cake how long are your cycles again? I'm sorry my memory is terrible. Do you think you can wait until sat to POAS? I will be having a poas party too on sat as we are having an actual party on sat night and I would like to know if I can drink or not! I was just going to wait for AF to show up this month though as I can't be doing with any more bfns. Party will be good commiseration anyway though.
Fedup I'm with you on the second babies everywhere. I am finding it harder and harder to take DD anywhere toddler/fun related as there are just bumps and babies everywhere. It's not even babies that get me though, it's seeing any siblings together and wondering if DD will ever have that There was a woman in the knitting shop earlier telling the cashier that she was starting knitting for a woman at her work, she'd just found out she pregnant with number 2, her DC was 3, what wonderful, happy news yadda yadda, and I just thought come on! Of all the times I could have gone into the shop I had to overhear that!!!!
Sebs how are you feeling? Have you made your booking in apt yet?

Hello all waves

Not sure if anyone remembers me, I was on fred one, now been TTC for two years (AF started this morning 3 days late the cow).

Anyway we have our referral to the fertility clinic through and the appt is on the 29th Jan

I am dead nervous.

Now I will go back and read the rest of the fred

Oh punky, it's so tough isn't it, your DH sounds similar to mine, he's very busy with work etc and is walking around like he has the weight of the world on his shoulders at the moment, so it is hard to then go anyway let's DTD! Hope your back is on the mend soon, hang in there x