Thanks for your lovely messages :) haven't had those sorts of reactions irl - not that the few people who know weren't pleased, but it's not quite the happy congratulations it might otherwise be iyswim, everyone's a bit guarded.
missalex I'd not put it into words, but yes I was thinking that sort of thing, that it's just another day of E not being here, like all the others. And it's always about just living life today as best I can (not something I used to be able to do but I have learnt to) so that day in some ways is just the same. Except it's also not, obviously, it's the day we would otherwise be celebrating his birthday.
I've been wondering about star and jules too - weren't they about the same no of weeks as you owl? Btw every time I check on here I'm secretly hoping there's some news from you... Hope you're getting lots of rest & feeling ok.
ruby sorry you're feeling rough, I've always felt dreadful in pg, with E I even took meds for it (yet another of the 'what ifs' to go around). But this time, so far I've not had much. Obviously it's early days, and obviously I can't help thinking its cos there's something wrong, but on the days I've been busy I've definitely had more symptoms. So I'm resting up as much as I possibly can, I figure it can't do any harm!
Waves to anyone lurking x