Hello all! Sorry for being AWOL this week, it was partyly due to me having a mad mad week and also partly because I need to try not to think about the elephant in the room during the 2ww. The next bit will be a bit long and a bit me me me (apologies in advance) but have had a bloody awesome week so hoping to spread some positivity and good vibes.
Had huge horrific massive interviews Mon and Tues for an Assistant Head post...(am 31 and in the possession of ovaries even if they don't fucking work very well so this was a long shot...) anyhoo...I got the bloody job!! Which means a huge pay rise which will make a massive difference to us and our mountain of IVf debt. So that started my week off fabulously! Wednesday found out about the job and also one of my school teams won a regional competition...boring story for non-teachers but a huge deal for them so was v happy by this point.
Started out with a distinct lack of symptoms since ET...no implantation bleeding, no veins, no metallic taste etc. Felt absolutely nothing! Had a few AF type aches but that is normal for all cycles I think. A few scratching feelings inside I think but could have been making them up tbh.
.... But from Monday started feeling so sick that I actually was a few times each morning...and by Friday felt so rotten that I just took a test (OTD is Wednesday).....and guess what readers...
BFP!! BFeffingP!
Faint but definitely there. Took another this morning...stronger line this time. Against all odds, after four cycles, three operations, selling our campervan and putting up with years of everyone else's opinions I am actually up the bloody duff! So it's early days for us (think I must be about four weeks) and we still have a very long way to go and we don't plan on telling anyone except our parents, but for now we are ecstatic and grateful and trying to get our heads around the fact that for once something has actually worked. Can't bloody believe it...we had genuinely got to the point of thinking it would never ever ever happen. Thanks for all of your support, I really do think that staying positive throughout the whole thing has helped.
AMH of 4, failed cycles, stage four endo, scar tissue from a million ops and low confidence from the docs...ha! What do they know? 
So how is everyone?
tortie any sign of the elusive AF?
noks stick with it....everyone is better when they have a plan and some action to aims towards. I really hope that happens for you.
buzzy have everything crossed, am excited for you(iykwim)
euro how's tricks?
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