BFP 2013

Good luck someday. Not long to wait.
I'm 11dpo and yesterday I had my usual pre-AF mass outbreak on my face. Dp is trying to be lovely by saying it doesn't matter I look beautiful and its just a sign that my hormones are working properly but I feel like a troll. As well as pre-AF spots I also get ovulation spots and AF spots.
Think AF is definitely going to arrive but I'm ok about it. I've found a bit of peace this week by thinking that it will happen when it happens and I should just relax and get on with my life until then. Easier said than done around ovulation time though.
Whats everyone been up to this bank holiday?

Girls I have been given some free OV sticks from
Boots if anyone wants them? PM me your address.

resipsa sorry you are feeling so dreadful. If you feel that the depressive symptoms are returning you really should go and see your GP. Maybe they can get you some counselling.

Thinking of all you guys, hope you are enjoying the bank hol.

Hello everyone. Sorry not been posting much. Just been trying to focus a bit more on things other than ttc (ha!) so have been getting really into my running and working v hard. But of course there are certain times of the month where I'm a woman possessed!
Really sorry to hear you're having a tough time resipsa. I can only imagine how it must feel to go through IVF and not get a positive result. You wouldn't be human if you didn't feel the way you do. But that's not to say that it wouldn't be worth speaking to your GP. I felt the same way after my TFMR; my main worry was spiralling down into depression but I wasn't sure if it was a temporary blip that would just pass. So I decided to nip it in the bud and go for a few counselling sessions. I did pay for them myself but didn't need very many. The main thing I got out of them really was to realise that it's totally normal to feel down when sad things happen. I really hope you feel better soon.
Hi to winkle and others. Hope you're all having a lovely bank hol.
I'm half way through the 2ww myself. 1st wedding anniversary next weekend (test time). Eek. Been ttc for 17 months now, with just 2 failed pg's to show for it. Will be 39 later this year. PLEASE let this be my month! Same for everyone else on this thread

Hey res how are you this morning? x

Go to your GP, the worst they can say is to come back in a few weeks. I've been through depression twice and both times I left it only to regret doing so months and years down the line. I agree with winkle that some time off work is probably needed and ask for help from anyone around you. I hope you feel better soon res. x

Go to GP I think res - even if its just to tell someone how you feel - you may feel better just speaking to someone unconnected, especially if you like your GP...

I'm so sorry to hear you're feeling awful - the hormones must be at least partly (or mostly?) to blame as well as the stress of it all - I would never have guessed before I had my first mmc how painful that could be, let alone all you have gone through recently

You've had a really tough time recently, res, it's understandable that you feel the way you do. Would you be able to take some time off work? Look after yourself love x

Hi guys. I'm worried about things here. I had mild PND after DD and since the post-IVF BFN, the same feelings have resurfaced. Am sailing v close to the wind at work, have not been in proper contact with family/friends and feel hopeless. DH says that I seem permanently distracted. The worst s the way that I have been with DD since then; distracted, shouty, cruel even. Spent tonight in tears (no thanks to DH who fell asleep after first post-IVF shag at 7.30 - great Sat night). Should I go to GP or just wait it out as it's not been a week yet...?

I know how you feel, I have to snap myself away from feelings of jealousy all the time as we sell baby clothes and equipment. There are pregnant women everywhere!
Thanks, I think I will take it. I do plan on returning to work once baby is born as its only three days a week and I have support now that I never had first time around but the guilt of announcing my pregnancy not long after accepting the position will be tricky.
Anyway, first I need to actually.get pregnant. Back to waiting.

Yes thingy take it! I keep thinking of all the things I haven't done when I've been preg the last two times and then have regretted it when mmc happened so in tht spirit I would say just plough on - in any case it's better to be pregnant and have to disappoint them than the other way round - we should all have the right to think selfishly in view of what we are going through!!

I miss them too!! Am so today though - just heard a few more 2nd baby pregnancy announcements - it's so frustrating and unfair
It has to be us soon!!

Its nice to have a relaxed month now and again. Its so easy to forget how to enjoy dtd sometimes. You've still got time anyway assuming you ovulate around cd14.
We didn't relax this cycle as we tried SMEP which we followed to the letter. Dp started taking pine bark extract too which I'm pretty sure I would have laughed at a year ago. I'm around 9dpo atm I think but I disagree with fertility friend so I might be more like 7dpo.
I decided to stop putting my life on hold so I got a volunteer job which is doable now my kids are older. I am loving it and have been offered a paid part-time supervisor role after the summer holidays. Not sure how they would react if I was suddenly pregnant, I'd feel awful telling them but I can't wait around for a baby that might not happen or at least might be a year or two away. Do you think I should take it when I'm offered again?
I miss everyone who has progressed to the next thread. Hopefully we'll join you all soon.

Congrats tig

Congrats tigglett

I'm on cd12 and still yet to start dtd!! I had planned a few evenings out without DS and DH and forgot! Consequently have been having fun and being hungover whilst DH not impressed (tee hee!) and I'm using opks and had negative one yesterday so will start today! Am trying not to make it too pressured this month

How r u thingy? And winkle? And res? And all of us on our slightly quieter thread?! We will get to the other Fred soon!!!

Congrats tiglett, hopefully I'm right behind you.
How are you doing ads?

i'm onboard, i got my bfp this morning

Oh I hope that last post made sense - am a bit inebriated...

Yeah res - go for it. Bigger picture etc... - as a mum you realise any of that stuff about 'should have tried earlier etc' doesn't matter to your DM! She wants her dd to be happy! And in this situation she gets a grandchild too potentially so you are all benefitting... That's how I would see it anyway...

What do you think you're going to do res?

Glad you're feeling a bit more positive winkle. 6 weeks is so soon. I used to think these things took months of preparation.

Kerry that must have been terrifying but you got through it. For what it's worth, I was pregnant at 39, 40 and 41. I know time isn't your best friend but you're definitely not too old yet.