BFP 2013

Oh God, I've killed the thread

Correction 15-28

How have I missed this whole thread?
Alex if you're still here, belated congrats! Wow, 1st month. Makes me reassured that the docs do know a bit about this stuff. Hope all going OK. What a present that'll be come Christmas.
Talking of which, why is it still like Christmas outside? Crazy weather.
How's everyone doing? Winkle & someday sorry to read it's been up and (more so) down for you.
Wee congrats re weight. Absolutely understand the need to focus and control something. Not eating is easy peasy compared to TTC with guaranteed results.
On CD15 here so gearing up for O. Think we're deffo on to go for IVF next month if this month is another fail. Was a bit cheered to get my AMH result of 21 which is in the satisfactory range of 15-21 and good for my age. At least the trying hasn't been in vain.
Think it's wine tonight regardless of impending O!

Well done wee on the weight loss. I keep gaining and losing the same few pounds arrrrgghh. I think going to the gym is key, will sign up to the one at the end of my road and start running again.

FFS Where is AF? I'm on CD33 - wish she'd just come and put me out of my misery!

Well done weechops, that's amazing. I have started back on a diet too. I've put on a bit of extra winter weight and I want to lose it early May which is definitely doable if I avoid Easter eggs.
2dpo atm, I think this will be a long wait.

I have lost 10lb in 5 weeks through sheer bloody willpower! winkle I know what you mean about controlling something, It makes me feel like I'm in charge over some part of my body, even if not the part I really want :) Usually I give up after a few weeks and binge on crap again, but not this time. I figure if I focus all my energy on food (or lack of) then I can't completely obsess over ttc.

Thank you Kerry, I hope it works! For all of us :)

Yes someday let's fast forward to the time when we all have kids. I understand the grand parents thing. I dream of how my mum and dad will be so happy and spoil their grand children rotten. Can't wait to see that day.

winkle you are allowed to feel that way. Big hug xx

Thx someday for your lovely words. I'm mostly ok but sometimes it does hit me. Thanks for allowing me up have those moments.

Yesterday must have been hard for you. Big hugs to you. I have nieces and nephews too and it saddens me when I spend time with them.

As for the diet thing, yesterday was a good day, planning about her good day today (just making soup) and planning my meals for the week. I may as well focus on the things I can control! Why don't you join me and we can motivate each other :)

P.S. winkle - I'm with you on the weight thing. I just can't seem to lose any. I bought lots of clothes 1-2 sizes up when I was 3 mths preggo in Jan (just before the bad news) and annoyingly they only just fit now and I might have to go up another size! And I'm not preggo. Not good

Thank you to everyone for cheery words of support. It's very kind of you.
Aw winkle, really wish we could fast-forward to the time we all have babies! It's so difficult not knowing when, or if, it will happen, isn't it?! Sometimes it hits harder than at other times though; you mustn't beat yourself up for having rotten days when it feels all is lost and I'm sure things won't feel quite so gloomy once this shitty weather has passed. (That's what I keep telling myself anyway). You are still young enough to have options, it just may not feel like it when you're feeling blue.
I was round at my parents-in-law's house yesterday and my DH's brother and his brood came round and it was a real family day but it was so hard thinking that we may never have children for our parents /parents-in-law to dote on. We always come away with presents/toys for our cats (!!) which is very sweet but not the same as having children with doting grandparents.
Ah well, onwards and upwards. Have stocked up again on epo and opk's for next month. And the roller-coaster continues...

I dreamt about IVF again last night. I ended up with a very long baby girl.

I just feel like such a failure. And to top it off I haven't lost any of the weight I promised I would for the next appt. I keep losing and gaining. I just feel rubbish!

For winkle and someday

winkle

I feel your pain. So sorry and a very big hug. Just hope we all get of this roller coaster soon. It will happen for you. I know it seems like a remote possibility on days like this but don't loose hope. It's a shit unfair process. Just think of it as life having something beautiful and special in store for us because when it does happen I know it will be the best thing in the world xxx

Thx everyone. I'm just so fed up.

Youre right its not a guarantee, but it does work for the majority. And when said it - you're young and healthy and there's no reason it shouldn't work for you. I'm so sorry you're going through this winkle :(

It's not a guarantee winkle but remember what your consultant said. Your situation is more likely to go well (your young and healthy).

I'm sorry it's so hard for you and your dh.

My husband confessed he deleted his FB account as he couldn't bear to see everyone else having children. He's so fed up too. I don't know what to do, I'm so scared that IVF isn't going to work. I've resigned myself to it not happening naturally but what if IVF doesn't work either. It's not a guarantee.

Winkle I'm so so sorry you're hurting this badly. Nothing can help but just know you can let it all out here too. Xx

I'm so angry and in so much pain :(

winkle. I'm really really sorry.

someday sorry about the bfn.

I've screamed and shouted and thrown things. I hate life :(

It just doesn't seem fair sometimes. So sorry, hope your weekend improves a little.