BFP 2013

Red did AF arrive?

As for dieting I have a few weeks till my appt and ill be gutted if I don't get to my target or at least near to me target. ESP as I've been using ttc as an excuse not to diet for the last two years (thinking oh ill get fat anyway!)

Hugs thingy sorry about AF arriving. Agree with ads - it doesn't matter how long you have been trying or even if you already have kids - anyone who has been ttc will feel a whole wide range of emotions and is allowed to feel that way.

I will join the dieting club too winkle have gorged on so much food last month - need to really do something about my bingo wings.

I'm dieting too, so we can do it together thingy :)

REALLY sorry!!!!

Oh that sounds a bit preachy! Sorry

It took 10 months after my first mmc only to have another one so technically it's been 14 months now so I totally feel your pain, but I feel even less able to complain because I have a ds already!

It is so personal - time doesn't matter per se it's the effect it has on the individual/couple - you aren't insensitive! It's such an individual thing and anyone who has had to try like you/we all have does to an extent feel a bit selfish because it is all about you! It can't be about anyone else anyway! You need some tlc today xxx

Oh, I'm really sorry if that comes off as insensitive. I realise some people have been trying for years and I've barely begun compared to others. I think I just needed to get my frustration out before DP gets back from the stag do in a bit. He was so sure this was our month.

I hope they aren't AF pains ads. I like to enjoy that time before AF too. I don't like to test around that time because I like feeling like I could be pregnant even for just an extra day or two. Fingers are crossed for you.
This will be month 11 now winkle. I used to wonder how people coped with trying for this long but now I know. You just carry on because the only alternative is to stop.
I feel a bit better now. I can't wear make-up because of my skin but I can put on a bit of mascara, put on a dress and do my hair, which I have. I feel a bit more like me. I'm going to try a low sugar/carb diet for a month to see if it helps my skin and the (possible) PCOS symptoms. I always fail when I attempt this but I need another focus for a bit.

Sorry she got you thingy. How long have you been trying this time round?

I second the wish to go back on the pill! Since I came off it I have been similar with spots- it's very annoying! I still feel pre-af pains so am not hopeful this month but in a way don't really care! I'm sure ill wake up tomorrow feeling different but will enjoy this feeling for the day if I can

AF is here. No pains yet so I'm not too cross with it. I am however beyond annoyed with the hormonal spots that have invaded my face. Its been months now and its making me miserable. Part of me wants to give up and go on birth control so I can feel like me again. Relatives ask if I'm eating enough or if I'm ill because my face is so blemished. I have never suffered with acne before in my life. sigh
At least I can go back to my GP in May and request more blood tests because I'm pretty sure I have some obvious PCOS symptoms.
Here endeth my CD1 rant.
How's everyone else doing? This thread has become so quiet.

Ah thanks all, but I have no sticks to pee on now and also can feel af on her way so will try and hold out for a bit longer to see if when she shows up! (am saving up for next month ??!)

Hope everyone's well? Who's POAS soon?

Good luck ads.

Good luck for tomorrow, ad.

Naught ads ! :) Do it again tomorrow though :)

Oh dear the POAS addiction resurfaces... POAS at 9dpo - BFN surprise surprise!!

Oops posted twice accidentally!

That was lovely winkle thanks - needed to read something to help me stay motivated. I am so tired and frustrated by all of it. And same as you wrote earlier I am starting to see ttc as pointless shag weeks with no joy at the end of it.

I hope as wee said you don't need the ivf. But IF it doesn't happen (it's a big IF) naturally we will always be here to support you. It's a scary path winkle but I know at the end of it all we will all become excellent and loving mums to our long awaited babies.

That was lovely winkle thanks - needed to read something to help me stay motivated. I am so tired and frustrated by all of it. And same as you wrote earlier I am starting to see ttc as pointless shag weeks with no joy at the end of it.

I hope as wee said you don't need the ivf. But IF it doesn't happen (it's a big IF) naturally we will always be here to support you. It's a scary path winkle but I know at the end of it all we will all become excellent and loving mums to our long awaited babies.

I read this on babycentre. Thought you'd understand this red:

There are women that become mothers without effort, without thought, without patience or loss and though they are good mothers and love their children, I know that I will be better. I will be better not because of genetics, or money or that I have read more books, but because I have struggled and toiled for this child.

i have longed and waited. I have cried and prayed. I have endured and planned over and over again. Like most things in life, the people who truly have appreciation are those who have struggled to attain their dreams. I will notice everything about my child. I will take time to watch my child sleep, explore and discover. I will marvel at this miracle every day for the rest of my life. I will be happy when I wake in the middle of the night to the sound of my child, knowing that I can comfort, hold and feed him and that I am not waking to take another temperature, pop another pill, take another shot or cry tears of a broken dream. My dream will be crying for me. I count myself lucky in this sense; that God has given me this insight, this special vision with which I will look upon my child that my friends will not see. Whether I parent a child I actually give birth to or a child that God leads me to, I will not be careless with my love. I will be a better mother for all that I have endured. I am a better wife, a better aunt, a better daughter, neighbor, friend and sister because I have known pain. I know disillusionment as I have been betrayed by my own body, I have been tried by fire and hell many never face, yet given time, I stood tall. I have prevailed. I have succeeded. I have won. So now, when others hurt around me, I do not run from their pain in order to save myself discomfort. I see it, mourn it, and join them in theirs. I listen. And even though I cannot make it better, I can make it less lonely. I have learned the immerse power of another hand holding tight to mine, of other eyes that moisten as they learn to accept the harsh truth and when life is beyond hard. I have learned a compassion that only comes with walking in those shoes. I have learned to appreciate life. Yes I will be a wonderful mother.

Wee - me and my oh are really really strong, you are right there. We had a talk about my fears tonight, it's scary being in our situation. That's good news for your friend, I hope that's me soon.

Reading that back I don't know if I sounded flippant or insensitive. I didn't mean it to come across like that if it did, sorry winkle x

Hi grannyapple :) thank you.

Winkle you sound like such a strong person and I'm positive that you and your dh can face anything together.

Just a wee story but my friend had one round of ivf and needed another. They were all set to go for round 2 when she fell pregnant naturally! After trying for I think 3 years. She is now pg with number 3 again naturally :)
It will happen for you one way or another.

I resigned myself to it not happening naturally ages ago but I'm still really scared about IVF. It's not the easy option, from what I've been reading its hard on your mind, body and relationship. It's really scary.

*guzzled