BFP 2013

CD19 and my monitor just peaked which is very late for me. We have dtd cd13, 15 and 18 so far so we are covered.

Argh Kerry, really hope she stays away and you're weepy and hormonal due to being pregnant!

I've been reading a lot of blogs about IVF and I found this post which I really loved and wanted to share with you all. Red I think you'll be able to relate to this:

''I had a bit of a low day today and felt like I needed to write again! I'm angry and hurting today, everything feels unfair. If only we had 'YOU', our little precious one, we are overflowing with love and affection and at the moment it just feels wasted because YOU are not here.

Everything is starting to move forwards quickly now. I keep thinking about the start of my cycle, will I get enough eggies? Will they find suitable swimmers? Will we achieved fertilisation? But most of all will we ever have YOU? If I think about inside my body, part of YOU could potentially already be there waiting for daddy to make YOU whole. When I think about that, I get soooo excited.

At the moment I feel like I eat, breathe, sleep IVF. Its a nice feeling in many ways because I think that YOU are potentially nearly getting ready for me to nurture YOU and guide YOU through the stages of pregnancy. Then I get sad because we may never meet YOU :`(

We talk about YOU all the time and we get scared a lot. What we already know is, we have sooo much love for YOU and hope that we have the luck that we need to be a mummy and daddy.

Close friends are moving through their pregnancy and I talk to them about how they are feeling and what stage their baby is developing at. I want to be a supportive friend and I don't want to be a martyr but deep down I just yearn to feel YOU in my tummy. I want to love YOU unconditionally and give YOU everything YOU need.

We have so many wonderful people in our lives & they have helped us a lot. We always seem to tag along on family events but it always feels like something is missing.... And that's YOU! No matter how hard I try not to think about YOU, I just can't help it. That is why I know YOU are going to come along one day & as your mummy I will never stop thinking of YOU.

I hope we can meet soon.... YOU will make me & daddy complete!''

I've been stroking that pic every day red! What a thoughtless comment, I would have felt teary too. :(

Thanks all, I hope today will be a little better for all of us although the depressing weather doesn't really help does it?!

Am excited to be going on holiday so that is the main thing! It will happen for all of us - all the jibes and thoughtless comments are horrible red - I suppose one day you will be able to look back and sort if smile as you hug your 7 children to your bosom - I guess we are supposed to say its character building (but only if you don't stab the person saying it!!!)

winkle totally understand....I am willing to believe anything to do with getting a bfp.

Even started stroking those fertility statue pics (see thread in Conception on 'experiments') in the hope that we get a bfp this month. I keep bumping into people who keep asking me if I have any kids or when will I have some. And just put on a brave face?? today someone congratulated my mil on becoming a grandma as SIL gave birth few months back and this lady said 'ah it must be so nice at least one of your daughter in laws has made you a grandma'

I just wanted to burst into tears at that point. I don't know what I have done wrong to deserve this cruel cruel torture. Just want to be a mum :(

Sorry you are having a bad day ads I hope you can successfully seduce DH on holiday - maybe have a sneaky shag while others are in the pool or away from the hotel. That way no one hears next door. You won't loose your baby again. Keep faith.

I feel too red as this is the last month I can conceive to give birth before I'm 35. 35??!?! I started this journey when I was 32. .

Ad - I hate days like that when you feel like all hope is a lost. But please take comfort in the fact that you CAN conceive and IT WILL happen again. Big hugs if you need it.

I'm in the middle of shag week here. Have dtd twice already and need to go again tonight.

Funny/weird thing happened to me the other day. A guy stopped me to ask me for directions. He looked like one of those indian spirtiual guys wearing beads round his hands and feet. I gave him directions and he started talking to me. We had a brief convo and then he said to me that I had a lucky face and to expect some good news in July! I dont usually believe in stuff like that but I'm willing to try anything after all these months!

I'm a bit today actually - I know we won't conceive this month as we are going away on hols (yay!) with some friends and DH isn't the crafty shag with people next door type, so I will have to be extra aggressive seductive in my efforts this month!! I'm not really able to bother being more pushy as just don't see the point any more - even if we do get a bfp we'll just lose it again anyway!

Gosh I sound depressed!! I'm not really, just a bit whingy and fed up but then maybe ill be less hungover tomorrow and more positive!!

How is everyone doing today? Any plans for the weekend?

I had a broody morning obsessing over due dates if we conceive this month. Like that's ever going to happen. ! Bring on the cocktails.

So sorry ad :(

Sorry ads gutted for you. Hope next cycle is our lucky one!!!

I am going out drinking tomorrow night.

I drink less these days so I am worried I am going to get tipsy very quick. Will have to line my stomach! Going to be a long night with cocktails looking forward to it actually.

Cd1

Going to have plenty of tonight and hope that this month we can be a bit more proactive!!

Ps I think stress can really affect cycle, but probably some more than others! I say go and have a relaxing massage after next dtd and hopefully relaxation will provoke ov!!!

Hi red. Sounds stressful. Don't want to add to it but I had mad 2 weeks at work pre-predicted O date and kept testing...and testing. End result was that O delayed by a week.

Thx red :)

Work sounds hectic, hope it calms down soon for you!

Happy Anniversary winkle 3 glasses of fizz is nothing in 12 weeks! You both deserve a treat Here's praying all your dreams come true next year and there's def 3 or even 4 of you!

I have given up all hope of conceiving right now. Work is just too demanding and I don't know what the effects of working all these hours will be on my body. I have had to stay in late at work till 10pm 3 days in a row. Start at 8am :( I know! I know! I just hope it hasn't pushed ovulation back or affected it. I haven't done these hours ever before. Got a busy week till OV day next week. Don't know if I hve already screwed up my chances.

The cultural reference will be lost on them when they're tween/teens!

Twinkle/winkle either or. I don't mind. We're all friends here :). I'm doing ok on the diet (apart from my lovely meal out yesterday). I've been running too.

Res - oh and I discussed this and we would go for 2 to be put back in. I'd love twins! In fact I've already convinced myself I'm going to have IVF, it will work first time and ill end up with twins. Have thought about how I would tell my mum and even know thier names . OH wants to call then Sheila E and Cat after the girls in Prince's band

Happy Anniversary twinkle/winkle which name would you prefer? I keep getting confused.
Hugs to red. We all seemed to get down at once. I feel as though I might have triggered everyone off with my AF induced rant over the weekend. It's understandable that this process is going to make us cross, upset and frustrated which we have every right to feel like that but we can get through it and we will eventually succeed. I'm feeling much better now and have realised that giving up is not an option. The "what ifs" would be just too great and DP would so love to be called Dad one day.
How is everyone doing with the weight loss/healthy eating changes? I've been pretty good this week so far at cutting back my portions but I did sneak myself a bit of homemade flat bread yesterday with my dinner. Its just too tempting. I'm not weighing myself till next week though.

Hi winkle that sounds like a lovely end to the day all round. A bottle of prosecco is definitely not going to affect your DH one way or the other and am impressed that he has kept off the booze for so long.

Out of interest, if you get to it (and fx you won't need to), will you have 1 or 2 embies put in? I think I'm gonna say 2 which is what they say is OK for old hags like me but what if it did result in twins? Not sure we could cope (yeah, yeah, I know we would but the prospect is a bit )

Well done twinkle I'm positive you will be surrounded by at least one screaming baby this time next year :-)

Morning everyone.

Me and OH had a lovely anniversary dinner last night. We both talked about how we hope it's the last one just the two of us and this time next year we hope there are 3 of us. Hell if we have IVF there might even be 4 of us!

I have to confess we shared a bottle of Prosecco even though OH isn't supposed to be drinking. But we figured 3 champagne glasses of fizz in 12 weeks can't hurt and the wedding anniversary was a good excuse.

Plus we dtd :)

That was an awfully sad story res I fear I might go that loopy one day. I am so broody right now-I can't even be 2 feet close to a baby without feeling sad.

I have decided to try and be cheerful but I don't know something doesn't feel right - maybe it's the weather but I just don't want to be happy right now. Just want to be moody, angry and sad and throw a tantrum till I get my bfp

what is ttc doing to me!

Oh, I really did kill the thread with that tale!