BFP 2013

Was weechops on this thread with us previously? Cause I've just seen she got her BFP on the April thread.

Big sigh. What can we do but carry on. But with a sinking feeling inside constantly.

Oh winkle it's like you stole my thoughts. I have been through all of that with babies in the family thinking how I'd bring my own up and all the things I'd want to do with them. Like you say just don't know when that will happen for me! For us!

Crying helps doesn't it, but I just can't see an end to this sadness till I have a baby. I feel miserable 24/7. Hell you can tell by readin my posts - they have gone from hope to empty disappointment over the months.

Res I feel like such a failure :( I know if you wait longer to have your baby then you appreciate them more but honestly I was already planning on how I'd bring them up and all the things I wanted to do them and what there bedrooms were going to look like, etc. I was prepared for the early mornings and sleepless nights. I'd seen so so so many friends and family members have their babies and I ached and longed for it to be me and picked up so many tips and hints that I couldn't wait to use on my own. And i waited patiently till i got married and now its been 2 years on tops of all those years where ive waited and wanted.

And now it feels like it was all for nothing. I just don't believe it's going to happen for me anymore.

Had a cry with hubby. He says he feels positive because of the changes he's made over the past couple of months and we have to hold on to hope. I'm sure ill be fine in a few days because I have to be, hey?

winkle and . You are not a loser, just someone who will truly appreciate her family once she has it.

Ditto red

and hugs to you winkle

kerry I have practically given up all hope of conceiving naturally. If I ever see two lines on a stick I think someone will have to slap me to make sure its not a dream. I just don't see it happening.

*every

See I can't even spell. I'm a fucking loser!

I feel like such a failure. Why can't I do the thing that millions of people do very single day?

So sorry winkle.

So sorry winkle :( it's shit isn't it?

Last night I went to bed and allowed myself to dream that maybe it had worked this month! I had the hsg, hubby hasn't touched alcohol since mid feb so this could be it and the bfn last week was too early. I thought to myself maybe I won't have IVF and have twins, maybe I'll be normal like everyone else and have one baby, naturally. Woke up this morning and its CD1 - again. :(

so sorry someday.
I do have children and am suitably jealous of your sailing holiday so objective achieved. It helps to have something else to look forward to. I'm quite distracted at the moment as we have lots of days out, a holiday in Cornwall to look forward to and a possible house move in the next few months.

I'd say go for it red.
Thanks so much for introducing me to egg share res. Even if its not something we end up doing it helps to have that there as a little bit of hope instead of the brick wall we were facing.

I agree with res.

Sorry someday :(

Cd34 here. Just want the time to hurry up where I can stop this madness and do IVF.

Red I'm bound to say go for it, aren't I? You have to do what's right for you and the waiting is so, so, so draining. Sometimes I can't even remember what I used to enjoy about life in the pre-TTC days. I seem to have lost a bit of me to it IYKWIM.

res I ovulated on cd16 (as per opk) and I am 8 days early to be precise. Just want AF to arrive. Fed up doesn't begin to describe ttc someday I just want one day where I don't feel so miserable and so full of self pity! Cruel is how I would describe ttc.

Hope you are one of the lucky ones who gets their bfp on holiday someday tempted to go on one myself..

do you guys think if we tried IUI in October this year we would be rushing things? By then we would be ttc for 18months. I just don't know how much longer I can cope without a baby. At the moment it's sadly become one of those 'I just want it to be over and done with and by any means necessary' I am just tired of the disappointment every month.

"Someday" with that post you've increased the chance that you will get pregnant before then and will spend an awful holiday fighting morning sickness at sea!

Hello everyone. Hope you're all doing Ok? Or as well as can be expected? I've been having an anti-mn month, telling myself that that would "do the trick" BUT I''VE JUST GOT AF AND AM MAD MAD MAD!!!!!!! Aaaaarrrgh!!!!!
So bored of this ttc now. SO BORED! HOW HARD CAN IT BE TO GET UP-DUFFED?!!! (Rant over) Totally with winkle on the doom and gloom front though.
On the plus side, decided at the weekend that I was starting to go insane putting my life on hold for years while we ttc, so have booked a 2-week sailing holiday around the Greek islands late June with my DH. Partly (if I'm brutally honest) to make myself feel a bit better as I know all my pals with kids will be very jealous of me being able to do such things. But hey; there have got to be some perks of bring child-free?!!!

A week early? Do you know when you O'd or was this a I'm-not-watching cycle?

Oh red :(

Thanks guys, but I am convinced its AF. Its turned light pink and barely there but I feel no different. I know I am not pregnant. Feel AF like cramping so she must be on her way.

8! wow! thats quite a number kerry, mine had 6 and I though that was bad!

Argh! this week is going too slow for my liking. Will take a test on Friday IF she doesn't show up. I doubt I'll get to take a test.