Santa Baby, Leave a BFP under the Tree for me <brook the Rat Smacketeers>

Well prolific poster or not, smeggnog is a way better name. I don't actually get the other two front runners particularly.

You'll always be our no 1 smegs

Ok voted!!

Geek You may be right about it going to a prolific poster!!

Hey all

Loving the Christmas thread. I haven't been on these for a while as am now back at work part time. On Monday I go in for my SIS (putting dye into my uterus and having a poke around) and next month I should have one of the frozen embryos put back in, assuming all goes well.

Good luck to you all!

Oh and you didn't offend anyway, i''m just in a grump

Gonna get an early night as emotions are exhausting.

I know you didn't, sweetheart. You are so lovely and like a shining star of what is hopefully to come. I hope if when I'm in your position I can still be there to support others in this shitty situation like you are for us. Cuddle to your little boys. X

Deadline is 10pm (I think?) on Monday night.

keep I didn't mean to offend with the taking turns thing . I didn't quite mean 'taking turns' exactly and i do know how hard it is . Sorry my lovely

I haven't voted yet, when's my deadline? I need to get on a computer cus my phone doesn't like it!!!

PS I voted smegs too, and they're joint top again!

Oh keep there's no right or wrong way to handle news like that, and it's so conflicting!! But try to be good to yourself, take it easy!

Thanks everyone xxx at least it meant we didn't go out with work people who were getting drunk last night...

solars good luck for tonight. Hope you manage the required amount of pg-related chat then can move swiftly on. I think it'll be worse once the bumps there, as I can't stop staring...

Oh Keep :( big, big hugs!

In all honesty for me it's only slightly got easier with time. It's still very hard to put on my smiley face for them even though inside i'm hurting. We're actually seeing them tonight which was a date organised months ago, luckily there'll be another couple there too. But can I say don't hate yourself for feeling that way, it's natural to feel that way when the one thing you've been struggling for has come so easily for someone else. Trust in the fact that it will happen for you, I think that's what's got me through so far. You've got 3 great chances of iui and you could very well be telling her in a few weeks time that you're pregnant too! Concentrate on yourself and DH at the moment, cry about it, get angry about it and let it out your system and then you can hopefully move on from it.

Oh Keep that is such a hard thing to hear, especially as you are just starting your treatment. Be kind to yourself

You WILL get your bfp!

Yes, she knows, as do my parents. I'm sure she was nervous to tell me, and know she waited to tell me till dh came home. But that also, I know irrationally, makes me angry - did she lie to me, I know she'll have been discussing me and feeling sorry for me. I said to dh last night I wish I hadn't told her, but I don't know really.

I can't think 'it's my turn soon' as this so clearly shows it's not about turns at all

keep you poor thing. It's so hard to get news like that - double whammy when it is somebody you know you should just be pleased for so then on top of feeling envious you have to feel guilty . It will be your turn though, and soon. You're a brooker, so it is set in stone! I used to try and think to myself 'well that's fine, there aren't a limited number of babies, it will be our turn soon' but tbh it didn't really work - I still felt sad that it wasn't our turn yet!

Does your sis know about your treatment? Or do any of your family?

Take good care of yourself and DH and rest assured that we've got you covered on the brooking front - we'll get every single brooker their well deserved bfp. Fact. xx

Girls, remember how I found out my sis was about to TTC her second, about six weeks ago? Well last night she told me she's pregnant. I can't believe it, or how unfair things are and am, frankly, devastated. I spent last night in floods of tears, and am just so angry and sad. I don't know what to do, or how I'll get through it all. I phoned her to congratulate her, but made it all a short conversation. I don't feel happy, I feel angry sad jealous, and then hate myself for feeling like this.

Dh took it really badly too.

solars I know you had this a few weeks back with you sil. How is it now? I can't imagine it'll get any easier as the pg progresses, tbh.

The timing is just so bad, me starting fertility treatment and this a slap in the face to show me how easy it is for normal people.

Brookers Smegs needs you! She is in joint lead at the moment. Vote vote vote!!

Biscuits have a look outside Beedle's bathroom for the pom poms

C'mon everyone vote for our Smegs

Go Smegs

Go Smegs

[does that funny arm circle dance thing to go with it]

Oooooh, lets get the Pom Poms out....

[rushes off to dig out her cheerleader outfit]

Smegs is winning now cos I've just voted!

I've voted and smegs is in joint first place, get voting brookers