Elderberry Pavlovas Unite - the over 30s TTC number 1 (thread 2)

Fuck.
Just got back from a really lovely evening to find the sodding cow waiting for me when I got home.
Conceive plus, charts, opks and bad poetry were clearly not enough. I hate this so much.

Oh, and this is my local maternity ward. There is clearly something in the water here, there are three women pregnant at my work too. www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-england-suffolk-20543580

Oh Winkle we both deserve brilliant Christmas BFPs.

I had visions of having a baby by this Christmas. We had already been trying for 6 months by last Christmas, I had every reason to think we would be three by this time.

Pip my BFP is due 19th, what an amazing Xmas present that would be for both of us! I thought I'd be pregnant last year and had planned to send auntie/grandma/uncle cards to announce it...

Sorry to hear she got you Bunny You can be my cycle twin this time. We can both get our BFPs this cycle and be pg twins too.

I've worked out that if my cycle stays the same as the last few months then my fertile week will be when we are staying in a posh hotel (with my parents though!) and AF / BFP will be due on Christmas Eve. Wouldn't that be the best present.
The other day we were watching a drama where a woman POAS and got two lines. DH said 'what does that mean? Why do they always assume you know what that means?' Must remember to actually tell him if I get a BFP, not show him.

Love your little ode Captain, it made me smile and feel sad at the same time. Damn hormones.
Sorry she got you Bunnie
And apologies to all the other up duffed berries, who I now realise, I have given yet another thing to worry about, as if wobbly bloated tummies weren't enough to be fussing over, you're all now going to be assessing your nether regions and wondering if they look fat
I'm seriously struggling for clothes already, I'm down to one pair of work trousers I can fit in and a couple of stretchy tops and I still look like I've eaten all the pies (actually, it was all of the hob nobs).

Captain that's really good! Whatever it is you do as a day job you should immediately give up for a literary career

A very tedious train journey has resulted in the following literary travesty. You are the only people I can possibly share this with:

Listen, little blastocyst
(I'll assume for now you do exist)
I promise to look after you
So say you'll stay and see it through
I won't eat Stilton or get boozy
Or smoke fags (they make me woozy)
I'll take expensive supplements
Begin yogic experiments
Whatever you need to stick with me
I'll give you if you just agree
To concentrate on getting bigger
Grow a heart, a brain, a liver
And don't forget to make some hands
To wave with at the 12 week scan.

I have the first sober Christmas party of the season tomorrow night and I am feeling fat fat fat!!! So much so that I haven't even bought a new dress and will instead be wearing an old and not-so-clingy little black number from the Narnia at the back of my wardrobe, along with some M&S thighs, tum and bum extra control tights. I will not go down without a fight! DH says he can't tell but I can see in his eyes that he's bullshitting, bless him.

You all saying that you are feeling like fat bloaters as well is making me feel much better

Oh no bunny! I'm sorry to hear that. Not a good month for us TTC-ers.. FX for a better December..

Feeling oddly smug for the first time ever that since I am already fat, the awkward in-between bit all you Pg ladies are getting to grips with won't make any difference to me (if I ever get my BFP). One less trauma.

Oh god I can see the fat fanny coming my way too!!!! Good job I'm pg. don't think DH will be too tempted

at the idea of a fat fanny ! Sorry she was mean to you purple there's simply no need for that. Bet your next one is a million times nicer.

I'm in the usually flat tummy but now bloated look. I'm ok with it so far... I'm feeling sick a lot so not eating loads, and trying to ignore the fact that eating makes me feel better (cos otherwise I'll never stop). Have also realised that slowing down makes me feel slightly less vomity - my usual 30 minute walk to work was more like 40 this morning simply to ease off the nausea.

I'm determined not to pack on too much excess, so currently literally only eating the same as I normally would, although if you put sweets anywhere near me they ain't gonna last long.

Still waiting to hear back from mw, I texted yesterday. Will phone up this afternoon if still nowt by then.

Like the symptom spotting moll! Although, yup, every single pg symptom is the same as PMS. Tis one of mothr nature's very special little jokes Fx it's the former though!

p.s I look fat too. Oddly, as well as having a big pot belly, my knickers seem to be digging in more than normal, they sit just above my natural ahem, hair line so I think that must mean I'm getting bigger around the hips. Either that or I've got a fat fanny

Thanks for the sympathy, I'm feeling a bit more rational about it all now and thinking at least I wont have to see her again and may end up with someone much nicer next time. I was on my own as it's hard for OH to get away from work so that probably didn't help. I still don't know how many weeks I am and I still don't have a due date. She asked when my last period was, I explained I hadn't had one but that I'd done a digital test if that helped. She said they don't take those into consideration and pretty much guessed - "Looking at when your positive test was, lets saaaaaay...8 weeks?"
Suppose I'll just have to wait for the scan!

Yes I'm strugging with that too, looking just fat and not obviously pregnant. Maybe we should try to stick the stomachs out more and walk around sighing and rubbing our backs? (well, I'll have to wait after I have told my colleagues though)

I can see my DH calling me fat anytime now!!!!
I'm only 5 weeks but I generally have a really flat stomach and big ass but my belly feels podgy. And I feel hungry all the time.

Haha! Glad your DH has a little more space between brain and mouth than mine. I'm quite surprised that it actually does bother me a bit, I thought I'd be fine with the wonders of changing shape - just didn't really expect it so early and I don't think I really thought through the fact that there's a stage between 'normal size' and 'obviously pregnant' in which you just look a bit blobby!

Yes! Waistline is definitely disappearing, I'm starting to look like a barrel. DH would not dare to mention it though

Oh Purple that's horrid! What a callous way to treat someone. I'm not surprised you were upset. Was DP there with you?

So my DP (who has been away a lot) mentioned when I was in the shower yesterday that I have changed shape around the middle. I seem to have laid down some padding around the back as well as getting a bit of a pot-belly. I'm only 8 weeks and have been eating really healthily so it seems weird to me that I'm changing shape already - had anyone else noticed this??

That's rubbish purple. How many weeks are you?
I felt like crying just reading your post. I'm not hormonal either

Hello all, sorry you're out Pip but I've got everything crossed for next month for you.

It has been a bit of a crappy week here, turns out we need to move GPs and therefore midwife groups as since we moved we're now outside the catchment area for the GPs we've been going to for years. Nobody rang to tell me this though so my already arranged booking in appointment consisted of a disinterested midwife saying she didn't really want to see me as I needed to move areas but since I was there she'd do the form. Which she did, at breakneck speed and then summarily turfed me out and told me to find a new GP. I had no chance to ask questions, didn't really get any information and felt a bit like I'd been chewed up and spat out by the NHS. Which naturally, given my hormonal state resulted in tears.

Me neither. Or the fact that maternity pay is crap. Not thinking of any of those things. Otherwise would not ttc.
Today I was at a conference (I'm a bank manager) and one of the speakers said they did this research and asked people what's the ideal amount of money would like to have and the answer is almost always "a little bit more", no matter how much you earn!!!! So I could do with a little bit more to afford child care