Trying to conceive after mc? Pregnant after MC and seeking somewhere safe to hide? Recently graduated from the mosh pit? Come on down to the mosh pit for some serious metalling and cake part 4

how you doing today jolly?

hope everyone had a nice weekend and BFPs are embedding nicely :)

I have had a SHIT morning! Have had more, redder spotting over the past few weeks and days and this morning woke to bright red blood and a clot :( Some cramping but not too bad and could be constipation so trying not to dwell on it. Since clot has come out tho I have stopped bleeding and all my pg symptoms are still in force... Rang MWs said to ring GP and get to EPU but won't as can't face another GP/scan trip, but will wait it out as it seems to be ok now... if mc kicks off will get to A and E. does that sound sensible to you folks? am 15 weeks tomorrow, if I am going to mc I do NOT want to do this at home alone :(

Anyway, part of me desperately hopes that a super busy, active weekend (energy returned, I overdid it as am shattered today, just want to lie down. I climbed boulders yesterday.. . oops!) disloged this clot that, hope byond hope, has been the cause of the spotting and now all the spotting will calm down. I just hope. Does that sound at all likely? I had red blood, the clot, then pink blood straight after and then brown and now nothing. Hope beyond hope.

bah. this pregnancy business is hard work! Oh to be 37 weeks! or even 24 weeks and viable!

got a project deadline for tomorrow aft then a week off so am working my socks off for that to a) take mind off possible mc (which shows it must have calmed down as if I was mc'ing I would NOT be working!) and b) get to my week off without letting anyone down, and then CHILL.

be well ladies, I hope you have all had very uneventful (apart from conceptions and dtd!) weekends :)

Popping in quickly to say a very whispered congratulations to jolly - hope you get through the next few days without going mad.

We drive ourselves mad don't we jolly?! Sounds like a pg to me too...least you'll know for sure in a few more days. Hang on in there!

jolly I hope the fresh air in the park did the trick!

I saw my reflexologist on Friday who recommended I eat LOADS of sweet potatoes as they have loads of progesterone in them (just I see the skin) so it's sweet pot soup followed by sweet potatoe roasties for weeks

*Jolly it's times like this you wish you could switch your brain off!

FWIW, you've had at least 2 positive HPT's - you cannot get a false positive, only a false negative.

So, unless you start bleeding/AF - you ARE pregnant.

Definitely step away from the sticks, for at least 48 hours.

Remember: what will be, will be x

congrats Jolly, a line is a line! X

jolly take a deep breath :) You have lines! lines mean that you are pregnant! congratulations!

Maybe step away from the sticks if you can and relax just a weeny bit? every day you don't get your period you are that bit more pg, that is a HPT in itself eh? and FWIW I always, always get a stronger line with mid morning wee, a few hours after i get up; my FMU barely got a line! really weird. I tested the day after my decent BFP (also not FMU) with 6am wee and had barely a line. was crushed, thought another cp was on its way. tested again at 10.30 and had a much better one. Lines didn't get darker steadily each day and after day four I stopped testing and just prayed AF didn't show (still hasn't!) so FMU not always brill tho think this is unusual.

anyway. congratulations my lovely!

Hi jolly how's things this morning with your tests? Hope you have a clear answer x

Hi lady when I told my family at around 8wks, I couldn't get really excited, it was as is it wasn't real, wasn't going to happen, like it was false to get excited about the news. I have no idea whether that's a normal self preservation feeling but I was just very aware of the fact lots of friends or work friends had had babies and that not everyone is that lucky, someone has to be the 'one that has a mc' Turned out the mmc happened around 6wks. I'll never know if that feeling is normal or not, because if I'm lucky enough to get pg again I'll worry anyway now.

Lovely to hear from you Jaffa - Enjoy your beautiful bubba.

Jolly - wow, the rollercoaster continues! My advice: only use FRER on 1st morning urine. And collect urine in a container rather than trying to POAS - good luck!!

hi jaffa! You had your baby! So pleased for you , it gives me faith it's all worth the wait and the stress

jolly step away from the sticks, you're driving yourself mad! A line is a line!

Hi,

Just wanted to pop in and say congrats on all the BFP.

jolly, ICs are always faint, in my experience. Early testing is so hard, but just try and be strong and stick it out for a few more days... FRER are better quality, and a line is a line. We all know on here that that is not a certainty, but every day that goes by makes a difference. I know it is so very hard, but try to distract yourself any old how and get through this weekend. And do your next test with FMU for your own peace of mind. Big hugs love, I think you are pregnant!

pebs I'm so pleased for you! A boy, and confidence to tell the office in one week. I'm sure you were sensitive to the person with fertility problems, but you have more than had your share of hard times, enjoy this as much as you can.

And manda, a sneaky last 2ww. :) Things have a way of working out for the best, and our desires and wishes are not always immediately obvious to ourselves x

I've got a 19 day old asleep accross my lap. Never thought it would happen, so happy it did

Oooooo jolly will make sure I checkin over the weekend for an up date fingers crossed babe xx

Hi abbs not sure what you meant by your message - yes my oh has 2 dds from a previous relationship who live about 144 miles away (though don't recall ever mentioning them on here before) I have a 9 year old of my own from a previous relationship.

Should that stop me trying again - should that stop us being absolutely devastated when we fail??

Being pg before the first mc made us realise how much we both want a baby and will keep trying

jolly, eek how exciting!

pebs brilliant news on your little boy and telling work.

hi ladyflump sorry to hear about your MMC. I had one last Nov (a year tomorrow since that horrible 12 wk scan). I did know deep down that something was wrong, I know exactly when the baby died, I felt so so dreadful, kind of ill and exhausted but beyond any pg exhaustion I've ever felt (been pg 5 times). But because I had no pain or bleeding and I didn't know what a MMC was (lucky me!) I assumed that everything had to be ok. Anyway, it gets easier with time.

Yes, lady I spent a lot of time googling "missed miscarriage" in my last pregnancy.

The night before I found out, I had the strongest feeling of impending doom, like the world was crashing down. I woke up the next morning & had the tiniest fleck of blood when I wiped. I just knew I wasn't pregnant any more & a scan confirmed a mmc at 9ish weeks, despite a heartbeat at 8+5.

Yes lady I had exactly that. In fact I can pinpoint the moment I think I lost it. I woke up and told dh something had happened... Everyone including drs told me I was being ridiculous but had scan and unfortunately I was right. I had one scan with heartbeat and it was after that I felt negative for some reason.

jolly (quietly whispering) YEY YIPPEE!!!

Hey, I'm being well looked after, and I do already have one beautiful little 2yr old boy so I feel a bit guilty for feeling down, I've already been given one child - I feel it's a tadge greedy to be sad about losing one.

That made sense in my head.

Anyways, I'm definately getting my libido back, and starting to look forward to trying again.

Did anyone else have a sort of premonition before their miscarriage? I really struggled to have any excitement or emotion at all about being pregnant after about 6 weeks. In fact, my other half got very cross at me because I kept saying that I was sure something was wrong, and that I'd get to the 12 week scan and there wouldn't be a heartbeat. Even my mum said today that she had felt something was wrong.

Ooo jolly I really hope it's your month! Sounds like it, I'd agree with a Sunday test

pebs you have earned the right to enjoy the excitement from coming out. Having been thru what you have, you'll know when to be calm about it so as not to upset anyone else but you are allowed to be happy xx

AF, the old cow, rocked up today bang on time so that's one good thing and I'm looking forward to trying out my clearblue digital ovulation kit next time!

Have a good wkend everyone, I'm having a glass or 2 of vino tonight

Pebs first a boy, then coming out in the office! What a couple of days! So pleased for you be excited for now, enjoy it. There's bound to be more metalling round the corner at some point, so make the most of the feelgood right now.

And wow - oh my gosh Jolly How exciting! Totally understand your fear though. Keep us in the loop - we're here every which way

Hi to LadyFlump sorry you're here but these ladies are amazing - turned a huge corner emotionally with their help as no-one in RL knew what was going on.

Positive thinking ladies. Pixie between you and your OH have already 3 DDs but can see your want to make family complete fx for you