Rainbow Babies. Making it through the storm, missing our Angels, loving and hoping for Rainbows.

ooh, xpost blizy, that is great news! Bet DH is proud

Know what you mean rainbox the thread moves fast these days! What did the docs/dentists suggest for you? Not surprised you are stressed to feck, I hope they can do more than just fix the teeth etc. Did they have any helpful things to say?

miasmummy thinking of you all lots at the moment. What are you doing this weekend? I hope it is much easier than you anticipate, but sure it is going to be a massively exhausting experience. Lots of love xx

babyh enjoy your night out! Well done

kleine so sorry AF got you. It's just another bloody kick in the teeth sometimes ((hugs)). I don't know if it's a good or bad thing to say so apologies now if this is the wrong thing - but I too have a 9/10 day LP and I worried a lot about it when ttc (googling LPD, the lot!), but actually it didn't seem to be a bar - I conceived Bobbie in 4 cycles, and Freya was a surprise. So I have every faith that you will become pg with your rainbow soon.

angel did you have a better night?? The tiredness defies description at times doesn;t it. I just end up eating eating eating to get some energy!! Thanks for your advice the other day. I did go for a walk and took Freya to the park. She had a lovely time picking daisies and being wowed by dandelion clocks!

Right, off to hoover, inlaws on their way. House is a pigsty. Tbh I'd rather eat some more chocolate!

Popping on to say Dh test results were good!

Morning ladies:

Little: DON'T APOLOGISE You have ABSOLUTELY nothing to be sorry for. Your entitled to share your wonderful news and shouldn't have to worry about doing that on here of all places. Yes it true I would love a rainbow baby and hopefully life will be kinder to me one day and your post gave me nothing but hope that my time will come again one day......in fact I should apologise to you for my non stop moaning lol

Your bound to be scared for your future rainbow but I would like (to offer my services....I sound like a lady of the night ;) to CARRY you through the bad days along with the other amazing ladies on here. Lots of love hope your feeling better today xxxxx

Angel: Hope you got some well deserved kip and those pesky teeth behaved themselves with Phebs last night xxxx PS We are going to Butlins in Bognor Regis.....wish it was somewhere warmer but the kids are looking forward to it and if they're happy I feel a bit happier x

Blizy: Hope your ok. Thinking of you xxxx

Kliene: Sorry your AF got you. Are you going to start using your CBFM now? Sending you lots of good vibes.......I have a little feeling you need them lately xxxxxx

AMY: Thinking of you and your growing rainbow keeping my FX everything will be fine which is what you deserve. Hope these next few weeks fly by xxx

Mias: Prayed for you all last night before I went to sleep. xxxxx

Busy day ahead I'm going to an old friends house tonight for dinner and a couple of drinks.....we have been friends for many years so I know I will feel comfortable and its the first time Ive felt up to going out since we lost Adam.

Oh and my ebay CBFM arrived ;) winks to Kliene just wish my Af would arrive soon so I can start to use it!!

Waves to everyone else xxx

Mias - sending as many positive thoughts as I can muster to you xx

Wow, I've just cuaght up with the threads but have forgotten most of what I have read.

Babyh - I love "Footprints" - I have a poster of it up in our toilet. I'm not really religious but love the idea of someone (maybe my Dad who died when I was 3) carrying me through the bad times. Hopefully he's looking after Daisy now for us. I just want to apologise to you as I now realise my post on Weds was a bit insensitive in regards to what you are currently going through. I hadn't read any previous posts and just needed to tell someone, sorry.

I guess the hormones have kicked in as have been crying a lot whilst catching up with you all and have felt emotional all day. It seems to have brought all the emotions back from Daisy and, as everyone else, I am petrified of what is going to happen over the next few months. Can someone just knock me out and wake me up when it's all over?

(gives herself a good slap). Right "today I am pregnant and i'm enjoying it".

Big hugs and hello to everyone.

Miasmum I m not & never will be religious in the slightest however, every positive thought I have is to will you through the next few weeks ... Be strong chick xxxxx
BabyH nice poem though!!! Xxx
Kleine sorry AF got you.. Fx for your BFP very soon .. You re quite right all our angels are totally amazing & your rainbow will be too... Xxx
Fan hope u re ok? Xx
Blizy know you re out .. Not in a stalkish way , but a FB way!!! Hope u have a fab evening & the results were ok?
Hi all; shattered again!!! Busy at work glad it's the weekend & only done a short week!!!
Enjoy all xxxxx

Miasmummy all my thoughts and prayers will be with you MrMia and MiasGrandad next week. You've all done an incredible job pulling everything together. It's just heartbreaking that you've had to. Lots of little signs - Mia is always with you. So much love to you xxxx

How are you doing Blizy? xx

Fab day at Harry Potter. Thoroughly recommend it! I'm going to a baby loss remembrance service on Sunday. Will think of all our angels as I light a candle xxx

mias I'm sending you lots of positive vibes, you are always in my thoughts all of you ladies but this week mostly you and blizy. The wood sounds great, I hope the woodland trust can help you with the planting and maintaining of the wood. (Wouldn't mind working for them myself) its so nice to think that mia's star is up there shining light down apon us all.

Miasmummy: you are top of my list I've already started praying for you and yours. God this is so hard for you and your family. I know your parents arrived and hope this is helping you. Its lovely to have a star....my neighbours named one for our beautiful boy and Im sure Mia Alexandra will be shining brightly and lighting up the sky tonight.

Words are sometimes never enough and my faith has been tested recently but there is a mass intention for Adam on Sunday so I will light an extra candle and let the flame burn brightly for your beautiful red headed daughter.

Thinking of the signs too. I wear a 'FOOTPRINTS' necklace because I needed/hoped/prayed to be carried through these awful times. My hubby had never heard of it. My uncle died not long after the baby and a bureau was delivered to my mums from his house he wasn't religious in any way and we arrived at my mums just as the delivery guy left. When my mum opened up the bureau the only thing inside it was a FOOTPRINTS plaque with the full story inscribed on it....I hadn't seen my auntie and had only been wearing the chain for about a week it was almost like it was meant for us or my DH in some way because he didn't know the story.

I don't know if you are religious and whatever the 'meaning of it all' I hope you and your family are 'CARRIED' over the coming days. Sending you lots of love xxxxx

Footprints in the sand

One night a man had a dream
He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the LORD
Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.
For each scene he noticed 2 sets of footprints in the sand: one belonged to him and the other to the LORD.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him he looked back at the footprints in the sand.
He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints.
He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life. This really bothered him and he questioned the LORD about it.
"Lord you said that once I had decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me.
The LORD replied:
My son my precious child,
I love you and would never leave you.
During your times of trial and suffering
when you see only one set of footprints,
it was then that I carried you.

Hello all, I finally caught up with you!! Won't name check just now, but thinking of blizy and amy especially today.

Think nearly everything is ready for Mia's inquest. We are writing a press statement tonight - already have the local news channel contact us to say they will be talking about Mia on Monday morning, so we have ensured they have the correct facts.

The registration of the star Mia Alexandra came through yesterday, so it is shining brightly somewhere in the universe, even if we haven't quite been able to identify it. And just now, the Woodland Trust rang to say they are interested in doing a site visit to Mia's Wood, and it looks as though they are very open to helping us... I would love to take these as auspicious signs, but I can't think that way anymore, even if I am glad they happened.

But I bumped into two key hospital staff for Mia's inquest in a shop, very randomly, and it was quite awkward. They congratulated me on this pregnancy, and then I couldn't think of anything to say except - "I guess we will see you on Monday..."

I wouldn't normally say this, but if you do have any spare positive thoughts and prayers, if you could send them on, MrMia and I would certainly appreciate them next week.

Blizy, thinking of you today. Hope you get a good answer.

Kleine, so sorry AF got you. But you're right, little E was amazing and special and the next one will be too.

Hi all, sorry not to name check, just feeling a bit crap. AF arrived this morning (9 day luteal phase. So, an improvement, even if it's not quite good enough yet...). I was fully prepared for it to make me feel this way, but it's so horrible isn't it - I just miss E so much, and I HATE that we have to do all of this again.
Onwards and upwards, though. I will pull myself together, and remember how amazing our daughter was, and know that this next baby we're hoping for will be just as amazing... whenever he or she comes.
Love to all xx

Wtw glad Holly was ok .. Phebs is usually just grizzly enough for 1 dose of Calpol ,sleeps a couple of hours then ok.. Xxx
Spilt think the anniversaries are so hard.. It's very conflicting emotions isn r it? I thank god I ve got Phebs but try & seperate my emotions to " give" some time to Georgie as I feel guilty she's not here to live her life... Try & get out , even if just for a walk in the rain it ll lift you slightly. I guess , in a way, that's why works good because I have to go , I ve no choice & most times once I m there I ve friends to talk about Georgie & laugh & cry with ... See a friend or something to try & lift you ... Xxxx
Elly yes it is totally knackering I can t remember the last uninterrupted nights sleep we had ... I think it's payback as a baby she slept well.. It's like chinense water torture.. hope u re ok?
Xxx

Blizy hope it goes ok today xxx
BabyH thanks xxx some more sleep here she slept from 10-3 then disrupted sleep since so an improvement!!!! Enjoy your break ... Where you going?
So glad it's the weekend ; time to sleep, sleep, sleep!!! God, this weather is depressing & crap , can t believe this time last week I was in shorts & vest now I m back in my boots
Roll on summer
Managed to blag another AL day next week so off Thurs & Fri so makes it another short week. Thankfully, as too tired to do long stretches at the moment!!!
Love to all xxx

blizy fx for today.

wtw that would be lovely, I shall pm pistey to say I have a donor. I shall pm you to wtw.

Thank you for the lovely new thread RAINBOX hope your ok lovely lady xxx

Little: Congratulations on your BFP lovely lovely news x

Elly: So sorry about your uncle. Thinking of you....try not to get too stressed you need to look after yourself xxxx

AMY: So sorry your having tough obstacles to face with your rainbow. Sending you big hugs and lots of love xxxx

Too: Sorry about your friends scare but glad shes keeping alert with babies movements xxxx

Fan: Read about MY5 : ( Dexter was such a beautiful boy and the blanket will be full of love your so thoughtful xxxxx

Angel: Sorry your feeling crappy...hope your lucky and get a nice sleep tonight x

Blue: Great news about the homebirth my J was born November 20thxxxxx

Whatever: Hope Holly is ok after those nasty jabs!! Enjoy the HP tour tommorrow : ) we went on the Forbidden Journey in Florida this year it was amazing, have fun xx

Split: Grief is so exhausting. Sending happy vibes your way and hoping your ready to face the world again soon xxxxx

Sorry if I missed anyone. Brain frazzled a bit tonight. Need to start getting organised for our half term trip it takes me ages to pack!!!

I feel all dirty

Ack, just re read my post. Tge bit to wtw should of course say babies not baby's.

Thanks for the new thread Rainbox
Congratulations on your BFP little9 that's fab!
Elly I'm so sorry about your unccle, what shocking news. How is he taking it? Love that poem by the way.
Well done with Holly's jabs wtw. It is horrid, but I always remind myslf that it's me getting in a tiz beforehand, the baby's have none of the anticipation fear.
angel arrrgh to the teething. Here's to a better night
amy I feel for you, such a stressful time. I didn't have the screening, I didn't want to be faced with the choice and couldn't accept the risk of mc from the amnio. Hoping all is well in there xx
blue great news on your hb!
fan that poor mother, how lovely you are.

So tired here. I think it's the aftermath of Bobbie's birthday & the build up. Just drained. I keep telling myself thaht I have to now take the deep breath and get back out into the world and carry on with normal life. I'm been a bit hermitty over the last couple of weeks. But I don't really want to, I feel very withdrawn, tired, not interested, and just very different to everyone else. Need a kick up the arse!! It's not fair on Freya to be holed up at home either!

little am totally here for handholding - I'm now 9+4, and I'm completely with you being terrified! Am also consultant led, although I haven't seen my consultant yet - maybe after 12 wk scan (2 wks today), but iv had 2 early scans already because I had some spotting and was so scared it had all gone wrong. I hope it goes well at your GP appt and that you can get referred for an early scan for reassurance.

wtw, forgot to say, great news about the biopsy too!

Thanks for your comments about my uncle - he only lives 1/2 hour away so we will be around to help him and keep him company, and my mum will be round with him too, it's just really horrid :(

angel, I hope that you can sleep better tonight, it must be so draining x
Hope everyone is ok xxx

Lovely new thread rainbox

Thank you Elly I'm so sorry about your uncle. Bastard bloody cancer

Great news Blue homebirth on then? You are so close now xx

Bless you Too I find other people's pregnancies stressful too. Especially when I think they're being to blasé

Fan you are so lovely contributing your woolly skills again. So sad Cot death is my current big big fear. Can i still be your donor? Do you want to choose some wool, let me know and I'll get it sent to you?

Oh Amy big big hugs. It's such a hideously scary time. Have they booked you in for another scan?

My lovely little Holly was a brave girl with her jabs today. She's a bit out of sorts tonight so we're snuggled under our woolly hug. Off to Harry Potter Studio Tour tomorrow. Can't wait

Love to all xxx

little I think your pregnancy must be a sign from my Sterre... Her due date was also 3rd November, last year and now you're due on her birthday :)
pm me your real name and I'll see if i can find you and add you to the group