Rainbow Babies. Making it through the storm, missing our Angels, loving and hoping for Rainbows.

FAN, well done on the weight loss... That's a great total in a short time, you must be being really good! Well done! Also thanks for telling me to breathe, I can feel my shoulders getting higher and stiffer as the day goes on, I need to relax a bit!

RAINBOX... Agree with aaaagh about MIL. Not good.
My scan is at 10am on tues... Once again we are scan buddies. I hope it's all as good as last time for us both!

SPILT.. Poor you and F, I'm glad your sister is going to be with you, it's horrible when they are little and stressed, so difficult to make them understand what's happening. Only a week.....
You are right of course, Preeclampsia only starts about 20 weeks earliest, caused, they think, by problems in placenta. It is unusual in later pregnancies with same father, but merryns tumour caused a freak type of PE in me called mirror syndrome, which means I might get it again this time. Not helped by being left with high BP. I'll just have to wait and see.... But they are watching closely.

ANGEL, glad your DH has found a job, even if it's only to tide you over a little, it's good he's keen to take whatever he can, but rough he can't get what he'd prefer...

ELLY... Hope your friend is ok. And that you are feeling fine after jab.

Blizy... Doing anything for burns night? Nobody here except me likes haggis, and I don't think I could stomach it right now, but I usually love it!

Well, my face is more or less normal again! Roll on Tuesday and the next scan, getting a little worked up now! Sorry ive missed people, but knackered and need sleep!

Oh argh rainbox bloody MIL!! How infuriating. Why do people do this??

angel ahve a FANTASTIC childfree weekend, gosh you must feel almost giddy with freedom! Have a wee alone. Eat without small child on lap trying to nick your food. Talk to people without small child climbing your legs. Finish your sentence and thought. Oh my goodness I feel giddy at the thought! Have a lovely time my dear, very much deserved and needed! And congrats to Ant, tis a relief to have a wage even if the work is a bit crappy. Fx for something he would prefer soon.

green glad your face is going back to normal. I thought preeclampsia only occurred for the first time in first and very occasionally second pgs (to the same man)? As it's thought to be possibly to do with a reaction to his sperm?? I think?? And I'm sure it doesn't turn up until 2nd/3rd trimester, I am sure you are ok! Nearly scan day, lots of luck. What time is it?

elly you are doing amazingly, great news on a good scan. It is so scary isn't it. Like the stakes get higher the nearer you get as the goal seems to be so close and yet so far, and you've come so far already and invested so much... We all understand. Today you are pregnant, and this will pass, you're getting there, one day at a time.

fan wow to 6lbs that is a fab achievement. Do you have a weight loss goal or just seeing how it goes?

After a good start we are now struggling without DH. Freya is totally thrown and unsettled, tantrums GALORE, really clingy and needy (hysterics when I put her down for 40 secs so I can have a quick wee), and not eating properly. I am going crackers. My sister has come to stay for the weekend which is very welcome company and help. One more week to go, one more week to go

Elly xxx it is a scarey time but you will get through & come out the other side xxx take it easy.
Rainbox mils grh.... Awful beings!!!! 12 weeks wow xxx when's your next scan? Xxx
Spilt hope you re enjoying you re peace & quiet ? Xxx
Hope everyone's ok?
We ve made it to Durham through whiteouts & blizzards . The snows really bad up here we ve had it light compared to up here!!! Hotel lovely , nice to chill & if the weathers no better to not have to go out tomorrow. I ve got 2 books & a Phebs free day!!! Missing her already but she's having the time of her life with my folks...
Ant has tempary job starting at Nationwide on Monday ,3 miles from where we live in a call centre. Not his idea of fun but hey ho!!!
Here to Sunday then I m off with Phebs on Monday to spoil her rotten.
Hope all are surviving the weather? Xxxxx
Oh Fan well done I m returning to SW on Monday my last weigh in was Xmas eve I ve put 3 lb back on so quite happy with that but back to it now!!!( well, after the weekend!!!) xxx

Hi all - fan you are doing so well - 6lbs is great! Are you doing SW again?

Hope you are all ok - blizy I hope your appointment comes very soon.

Had flu jab this morning, can't have whooping cough til 28 weeks, so nurse is going to tell the practice manager off for sending out letters with the wrong info on!
had another growth scan this morning, all still ok so far. Am just getting really anxious. Consultant has told me that 28 weeks is the next big milestone, so 3 weeks to go - also is next scan and GTT then. While we were waiting for the scan, one of my friends was wheeled down - she lost her DD during birth last March, and she is buried next to Nancy. She is 35 weeks pg with twins, and is in hospital due to having tightenings and her anxiety levels. It's just such a scary time.

Anyway, just wanted to check in and say hi to you all, am thinking of you all loads even if I'm not on here so much xx

green Im just going to say breathe! Slow down hun, your right one day at a time and if thats too much take it one hour at a time. I really hope that the AB;s work and that the Doctor pulls their finger out and gets stuff done for you.

AF started for me yesterday, its ok as we were on a break this month. But I need to get back into it, I feel that last month was a waste. Which is silly as Im trying to get fit. I have lost 6lbs yay!

Hoping everyone else is ok?

SPILT... How are you doing? I'm glad it's a bit easier than you thought it might be with DH away. I always find the run up to DH going worse than the actual time away, when I just get on with it. Its great when they get home though!

BABYH... Ill have your snow, we still haven't had any other than on the hills! Well done with the training (and to FAN), it's a great time to start so that you can see a difference by the better weather!

BLIZY... Any snow yet? I hope that your appt comes through soon.

My face looks a bit less deformed now, although still have one eye almost shut. The doc gave me ABs, ones that are ok when preg. I'm, obviously, paranoid that the infection will have in some way caused problems.... Silly probably. The doc is also concerned about my BP, which has been silly high since Merryn. Bit frustrated she has waited until now to be concerned about it! She tested my pee, and no protein, but surely preeclampsia wouldn't start for ages anyway? I wish this could all be a bit easier! Anyway, I have another scan next Tuesday, at 9+2, so I'll feel better if that goes smoothly. One day at a time.....

Hope you are ok green, did you get seen today?

Thanks babyh I am doing fine, much better than I thought I was quite nervy when I knew he was actually travelling, but now I know he's settled in, been fed a fab curry and finally got a chance to go to sleep I feel fine about it. Wish he was here obv, and miss him but so far so good.

Enjoy your exercise!

BTW....I'm not stalking you FAN, It just stuck with me because the evil red river arrived on Christmas Day and my heart went out to you because of the awful timing xxx

Morning everyone

Green. Glad you spent the day peacefully the beautiful sunset sounds perfect xx Poor you not being well....hopefully you will get sorted at the docs. Fx its nothing to do with your thyroid xxx

Split: How you coping? I know how much you were dreading this India trip. Big hugs xx

Fan: If I'm right the 2WW is almost over for you. Thinking of you and hoping that nasty AF never comes. How's your training coming along? FX it makes a difference xx

Blizy: Hope they sort your referral quickly xxx

Sorry haven't name checked. Thinking of all our rainbows and angels.

Off to train...another one hoping getting fit and losing weight might make a difference!!

Take care in the snow lots more fell overnight where we are in the north xxx

Thanks for the birthday wishes everyone! We had a lovely day really. We found snow on dartmoor and played in it, and the boys made me a cake. There was an amazing sunset over the moor which made Merryn feel a little closer too.
My friends are working hard at persuading me to 'do' something, but I just don't want to, I'm happy just to let it pass quietly this year.

I have to go to the docs this morning (they must be sick of me). My eyebrow has swollen up and so have my neck glands, hoping its not a thyroid related thing.... Probably just an infection. I look like a boxer!

Will catch up propery later, need to get boys to school.

Green happy b-day!!! Xxx

Hey mel! Yep we remember you, and congratulations on little Scarlet and good luck ttc, wow, you are brave, I couldn't manage a small age gap. I have full and total admiration for parents of more than 1 under 2. Thinking we will maybe be limbering up to the ttc wagon in the summer, so Freya will be nearly 2 then.

The weather is a total pita now. I have admired it's prettiness and we have taken Freya out to investigate the snow and taken photos. Now it can feck off and I would like the rain back! DH is flying to India tonight, currently sitting in Heathrow feeling a little glum as his flight keeps being put back and back. But I am v relieved that he is safely at the airport as I was stressing a lot about his 3 hour taxi trip to get there given the state of the roads round here at least. I've got Freya off to sleep and now feeling a bit sad and lonely Still, we will keep busy (as far as the bastard weather allows, no chance of getting the car out of our road for a few days), lots of baby groups in walking distance.

green happy birthday to you xx Hope you are doing something nice and all is well with the bump.

blizy I'm pleased you've got your referral sorted, and have fingers crossed that you won't need it and will have your bfp before your appt comes through.

angel fx for Ant's interviews this week.

Just spotted the recipe of the week is my old friend Cullen skink Rainbox I thought of you ... any further urges for that in the middle of the night??

mel so good to hear from you! Scarlet is a beautiful name and very fitting. Ttc number three wow, well if you need a bolt hole you are always welcome on the thread.

Hi melmal, lovely to hear from you! I'm glad all is well, wishing lots of luck with ttc number 3 - wow!

Green, happy birthday my lovely!

I have had me referral letter from the fertility clinic, we have been put on the waiting list for an appointment- feck knows how long it will take.

Oh, here in Glasgow we have NO SNOW! I the k we are the only place in the uk to be free of the white stuff.

Anyway, sorry not to name check everyone, I'm supposed to be doing house work- oops. Hope you are all good, thinking of all of you fantastic ladies. X

Happy birthday green

Snowing here again, DH is hoping work will phone him to cancel as they canceled all deliveries yesterday

Hello All

Now its officially Sunday I just wanted to wish Green a very Happy 21st (cough) Birthday lol
Delighted you and the gosling are doing well and wishing your beautiful Merryn was with you to share your special day. I hope you get spoiled rotten by DH and the boys xxxx

Rainbox: Glad babybox is doing well xxx

Angel: FX for Ant. Thinking of you xxx

Kliene: Motorbike accident Sounds like an awful scare.....hope your ok xxx

Busy bee with one thing and another but quietly lurking and thinking of you all

Night Night xxxxx

Hi MeL. Huge congrats xxx good luck with ttc .. Xx
Happy birthday tomorrow Green xxx
Kleine hope you re ok? Xx
Elly you re two thirds of the way there . Well done xx
Rainbox hope u re ok?
Sorry can t name check all. Shattered. However, my girl thinks its fine to be up playing now instead of being in bed!!!!
Hope everyone is well? Sick of this weather now it seems to be going for ever.Ant still not secured any work but got some more interviews next week. So hope he's gets something next week as have a lovely weekend lined up & don t want it to be ruined by me feeling frustrated at him.theatre on Thurs night & weekend away just me & Ant Fri & Sat ... So big FX...
Lovely not to have to go out today .relaxing again tomorrow... Stay safe on the ice everyone ... Roll on summer xxx

I'm not sure I'll get on here tomorrow, so just wanted to wish green a wonderful birthday in advance! I know it won't and can't be the happiest of days - without Merryn, of course it can't be. But I hope you nonetheless feel spoiled and loved and special. I expect your best present will be the secret one that's snuggling up (and growing little arms and legs ) in your tummy... and I hope so VERY much that he or she will arrive safely later this year, and will bring some joy back to you xx

rainbox how's your bum?

A quick wave hello and congratulations to melmal!

Much love to you all xx

Mel congratulations! Beautiful name! Glad you're doing OK! Number 3 already

Hi ladies, not sure if any of you will remember me. Been completely off the radar for about a year now!! I just wanted to let you all know that I had a beautiful baby girl in June of last year. We decided on calling her Scarlett as that felt like it fitted with Her angel sister Ruby. Anyway, I've now found myself in the position of TTC baby number 3???? What a crazy time! I wanted to let those of you who remember me know and kind of apologise for my total disappearance xx

We never get any decent snow in Devon! Might have to drive up unto the moor tomorrow in search of it!

KLEINE.... You poor thing, and that babies mother must have been out of her mind with panic. I'm so glad it wasn't as bad as it looked like it could have been, but just so scary...

WTW AND MIASMUMMY, I hadn't thought of it, but I am keeping my defences up this time round. I think 20weeks is the point for me, after that I might believe there is going to possibly be a baby. I might be kidding myself though, once I feel a wriggle that'll be me in love again!

ELLY, I can only second what others have said, wow to 24 weeks, and very well done for thinking about your bag. One day at a time....

ANGEL, are you off on Fridays or did you mean the WE? I'll have your snow, if that's ok. Very jealous! How's Ant coping with the job hunting?

BLUE... Hope L is feeling ok after her jabs, I hated getting mine done!

As for me... I've not felt sick yet today, which is freaking me out a bit. I hope it's all ok. I had to go to hospital to get bloods done today ( rubbish veins) . This means i should know how thyroid is coping in a few days, will feel better when I know I'm on enough meds.
Counting the days until the next scan, I can only hold onto feeling possitive for as long as it takes to get to the lifts in the hospital after the scan..... I'm a bit rubbish!

My boys have gymnastics tonight, so that will be a laugh, then on Saturday we go climbing, then on Sunday I'm 40! Not sure how I feel about that one!

Love to all, hope you are cosy and snug on this very wintry day! X

How is everybody doing? Snowed in? Coping, in general, I hope...

I was a bit shaken yesterday - I saw a motorbike crash into a pram
I was a few cars ahead, and couldn't quite bring myself to get out of the car - obviously lots of other people did - but I stayed put until I was as sure as I could be that the baby wasn't seriously injured (although I'm sure he was taken to hospital and looked after there, he was breathing, maybe just a little too shocked to cry). So scary for the poor mother, and I hope so much that the little boy was fine. I was just sat in my car thinking, he MUST be ok, I can't possibly be witnessing another child's death...

Waves to mias and the gorgeous Finn, and hi to elly - well done you on buying something for your bag. A small step for most mothers, a huge one for you. And angel, I'm also thinking of Ant and hoping he has a successful interview soon.
Love to all xx

Fantastic news green and rainbox, I'm so pleased for you!

When are you due?

Am appreciating both of your words and coping strategies mias and wtw - feeling regular movements now so really reassuring, and have passed the 24 week milestone now. I have ordered somethings online from Boots today for my hospital bag - things that I will need either way, and I'm going to get bags packed pretty soon just in case anything does happen early. We are counting down now, rather than up - 12 weeks to go hopefully before this baby is delivered.

Good luck to Ant for his interviews angel

Waves to everyone else, have been thinking about you all - hope you are all keeping safe and warm in this cold! I have decided to not leave the house unless absolutely necessary, just not risking slipping or anything.