Rainbow Babies. Making it through the storm, missing our Angels, loving and hoping for Rainbows.

poppet you have made my day, its a miracle! I'm so happy for you. E is watching over you and this little bean.

Oh oh oh, it's even better now I have read the whole thing! That is so fab about the hcg going up so much, such a good sign and hurrah for a scan really soon! In the meantime, if you possibly can, eat eat eat ready for months of feeling rough as a badgers arse. Also, top tip, clean the loo now so at least it's nice when you have to stick your head down it

I am beyond thrilled for you.
And fx for just some morning sickness and not full blown hyperemesis eh?

OMG! kleine!!!! !!!

I have only read your first para.
Will now read rest of post !
But oooooh! Congratulations!

I hope Lotta is keeping you busy blue

angel bet you are loving having a working boiler again. You don't realise how much nicer they make life until they give out on you... And it has got fricking cold out there now.

miss nice to see you again. I think guilt is such a huge part of babyloss. It's misplaced guilt, and you probably know that on some level, but it's such an instinctive reaction - that feeling that your job as a mum is to protect your baby and so you feel you must have failed somewhere and then turn it over and over trying to work out what you did wrong and feel so terrible about it. But you didn't do anything wrong. It's quite clear from your posts how much Blake is loved and wanted. You might not feel it yet, but please believe us all, you have nothing to feel guilty for.

little thank goodness for a scan being sorted so quickly. Lots of luck for it, and for having a good MW who has sorted it out and lined up your consultant for sooner rather than later. Here's a hand to hold for tomorrow x

babyh ack how annoying! Must have been an epic post

moomins blimey, a whopper! Mind, that said fundal height is a pile of utter bollocks. They frightened me half to death with it - at 31 weeks with Freya I measured 29 cm, fine ok, then at 34 weeks I still measured 29cm, so officially 5 weeks small and no growth. Was sent for growth scan (obv a terror filled night whilst waiting for it) only to find she was a contortonist porker and measuring up at 35 week size so actually big for dates. V unscientific.

I have been having a totally nostalgic few evenings and reread my old threads from Conception and antenatal tracking my ttc and both pgs. Some very harrowing moments as I read in seemingly real time about Bobbie's death and remembered the total shock in which I posted, and the dark heartbroken posts over the months that followed, but more I was struck by the joy and excitement she gave us, and all the great laughs I had with my ttc buddies on the Charter's threads whilst trying to conceive her. And a bit misty eyed reading about them all rooting for Freya's safe pg and patting down my frayed nerves for months on end. MNers are fab! It was so lovely reading all the little details of the girls' pgs that I had quite forgotten now. So glad this place is here
And god it makes me want to do it all again!

In other news I am now a trained breastfeeding peer supporter Finished training today.

Hi all.... I've been a little bit absent the last few days, but you will forgive me, I think, when I tell you my news...

Today, I am pregnant.

Saw midwife today for booking in appt. Blaaah'd on her as soon as I went in, poor woman. Have been spotting and getting slight pains, but she has managed to get me a scan first thing tom morning. Had this with Daisy but can't help panicking! She also said I'll see consultant asap after 12 week scan if all ok, to talk about pregnancy plan and whether they think a stitch is required. Nice!

Sorry not feeling up to checking names but I hope you are all ok and sending big hugs to anyone that needs one. Will report back tomorrow. Take care, my lovely mners.

Hi miss sorry you are here and for the loss of little Blake. Were they able to give you any reason why he was measuring small? I know in the early days I felt the same, that even though it wasn't my fault I still felt guilty that I wasn't able to carry him longer. I have incompetant cervix. I hope you have lots of support in rl and if you need to talk we are here x

angel glad the boiler is fixed, it's freezing at the mo!

little hope you manage up see the consultant. You are bound to feel nervous.

Had the gtt today and was fine, saw the consultant to talk about the progesterone. Had swabs taken and the stitch and everything looks fine. Actually the doc said everything looks healthy down there reminded me of Elliot on scrubs! Fundal height is 32, which is well off the chart. Think he might be huge.

Morning ladies

Ive spent 45 minutes typing a big long post and lost it as I typed the last line grrrrrrrr its so frustrating when that happens.

So just gonna say I am thinking of you all. Ive gotta go but will type it all again later.........maybe in smaller blocks in case I lose it!!!

love to all xxxxxxx

Hi ladies, I've been reading and lurking for the last month since I lost my little Blake one month ago. I am doing much better, which shocks me...still have a good cry nearly every day, but I always feel better after it. I'm amazed at how many things set me off, like no longer needing my "pregnancy" shoes...or driving by a park where I had hoped to take him. I struggle a lot with feelings of guilt since I've found out not only was Blake very small for date but my placenta was very small as well. I feel like although I couldn't help it, I didn't give him what he needed :( . Hoping to ttc again in January or February, but told to wait 2 cycles first and I feel I need to find a dr. I will trust first. Hope you all are hanging in there as Christmas approaches. Best wishes and baby dust to all of you

Hi Little I m lucky . My consultant is fab & I saw her as soon as I was pg , think it helps working in the same NHS as they " fit" me in!!! I also had to contact EPU at 6 weeks as they scanned me to confirm a viable pg to start the luteal support . Don t see why they won t see you as early as possible. Xxx
Elly hi xxx
Hi all; oh bliss, boiler at a cost of £425 finally fixed now having a luxurious soak , good book, large glass of wine. Ant out, Phebs asleep who says I don't know how to live the high life????
Didn t get to the xmas market in Leeds postpone that to next week however, I have a house that's too warm again!!!! Yeh!!!
Xxxx
Love to all xxxx

Sorry little meant to say hi, and that I'm glad that Daisy's due date passed for you. This is the best place to be able to discuss your fears and feelings, we are all here to support each other xxx

little its no wonder you are nervous, you are bound to be. I wasnt due to see my consultant til 20 weeks but called and got the appt yesterday at 15+3 so maybe they would see you earlier knowing about Daisy.

angel, I hope they get your boiler sorted today x

How is everyone else doing?

Hello ladies. Sorry haven't been able to keep up as have just been going to work and sleeping!! Thanks for all the advice on consultants. My mum, sister and her two DCs can up for the day on Daisy's due date so was kept fully busy. Don't think anyone else realised so didn't say anything as didn't want to spoil the day.

Congratulations, Blue. So pleased for you and Lotta. xx

Angel hope you get boiler sorted tomorrow. A few years ago ours went 2 days before Xmas. Luckily there was a plumber down the road who did a temporary fix which saw us through Xmas but was not fun with no heating or hot water.

Blizy - enjoy vegas. Very jealous!

Elly - so glad you have a plan and is all well.

Hugs to everyone else. Sorry brain has gone to mush and can't remember what I've just caught up on!!

Feeling extremely nervous at mo. Trying not to stress as I know it's not good but keep having such awful dreams. Also, not felt so tired for the last few days which is worrying me that something has gone wrong. Am only 9+2 weeks. Had this with first mmc, so just willing the next few weeks away until 12 week scan on 7th dec. If all ok, will be demanding to see the consultant as if they do as with all of you and not see me until after 20 weeks, that will be too late to help if the same thing happens as with Daisy. Have about 6 other friends who are all pregnant at the mo (all are around 20ish weeks) which is nice in one way but will make it so much harder if this one goes wrong. Bargh! Hate being so negative during what should be such a lovely time. Am seeing midwife on Monday for booking in appointment so will speak to her about my fears. Soory about being so self-absorbed. Haven't been on here for ages and when I do it's me, me me. Will try and be better tomorrow, promise.

blue so happy for you what a lovely name!

Elly excellant ... Sounds very similar to my care plan with Phebs ( bar the AB) xxxx
Blue she's truely gorgeous xxxx
.latest; circuit board is being couriered here from Gateshead tomorrow am at an extra cost of £25 more!!! All being well will be fixed then as planned to go in to Leeds for the Xmas markets... Phebs fine after her 13 months jabs... Xxxx

For some reason I can't post on fb, blue she's beautiful!

elly I have a big smile after reading your post, the relief in it is palpable, what a fantastic consultant and sounds like she will really look after you. I bet you are delighted to have seen your baby today, it's such a great feeling to see them well and having a little wiggle. Enjoy the moment and I hope those ADs help xx

Oh no angel, I hope the plumber gets it sorted.

Safe journey down to Manc Blizy - soooo exciting!!!

Consultant appointment went well - she sorted a scan out for me which was fab - all well and saw heartbeat etc. She has requested appointments with me with scans at 20, 24, 28, 30, 32 weeks and then weekly after, with a view to delivering (ELCS) between 36-37 weeks. So relieved to have a plan in place (and that everything is currently ok), also that I won't have to wait so long to meet baby. Consultant was excellent, really glad I requested to be under her again. She also went through exactly what they will be looking at in the scans, and what the indicators that something might be wrong that they will be looking out for - any of which could very easily of saved Nancy's life had they done this last time, although I can't dwell on that. She also gave me a prescription for my AD's and explained how & when to wean myself off them if I feel up to it later in the pg, although she knows how hard it's going to be and to not worry if I don't feel I can come off them.

Managed to sneak across to see my Mum while there too, and operation seems to have gone ok, will see her again tonight properly.

Wow, huge congratulations to you all blue! Lotta Beatrice is a fantastic name! Such a lucky girl with 2 adoring sisters. Hope you are doing well and enjoy all those newborn snuggles. I am so happy for you all, much love. X

So sorry I haven't been keeping up to date but I have been busy, busy. I shall see you all when I come home, just about to set off!

Huge congrats Blue xxxx welcome Lotta Beatrice xxxx
Elly good luck today xxx
Miasmum xxx
Ba*d circuit board for boiler not here yet... Plumber chasing it... Sh*t .. So mad grh....
Love to allxxx

It's all happening today - babies, boilers and blow-out Vegas holidays!!

Blue so, so happy for you all. Lotta is a beautiful name. Sterre has indeed been watching over you all.

blizy enjoy Vegas in all its bling-tastic glory!

angel aaah, hot water and warmth again.

Congratulations blue and well done on such a speedy delivery!! Welcome to Lotta Beatrice - such a beautiful name xxx bless Ella when she wakes to her new rainbow baby sister xxx

Gosh angel, how tough, I hope you get through next wk ok and manage a bit of time to yourself x

Will let you all know how appt goes xx

Congratulatins blue. What a lovely name for your little girl x

Oh blue how wonderful! Congratulations, lovely lovely name xxx