Anyone want to scream with me?

Anyone still read this? Well, my sister just told me on Skype that she's pregnant again and I had to be brave for 45 mins before I could get off and cry. I don't know what makes me sadder, the fact that she's pregnant after a whole one month of trying and I'm not, or the fact that she was so terrified to tell me :( I am definately screaming inside today :)

Aw Happily I know how despondant you must feel :( Can you be a bit more pushy and get on the phone and chase them for Clomid? I am finding that I am having to be very proactive with things otherwise nothing gets done. I remember the awful feeling of being totally helpless, waiting for a year then being referred, then waiting for the lap and dye, waiting for the fertility clinic then being told the IVF waiting list was 2 years. It's just bloody awful isn't it? We went private for 2 cycles (thanks to my lovely dad) because I just couldn't wait. It didn't work anyway though. On the plus side I got pregnant by myself, with only one tube, which was apparently blocked, so you have lots of chance :) I know it's saying the obvious but you just have to keep going. A lot of couples conceive while they're waiting for fertility treatment. Thinking of you :)

Had hsg, was fine didn't hurt too much but have come back feeling really depressed. He said that my right tube was fine, he couldn't tell with my left as there wasn't any liquid going down that side but he will assume that both tubes are fine :-0 then he told us to come back in 6 months when we can have iui.

I don't know why but I'm so upset, I really thought that maybe be would start me on clomid or something. 6 months seems like forever after 2 years of trying :(

Ha ha I know. He's a trier!!

Oh, and as an aside, my usually lovely and very understanding DH said to me last night once I'd finished explaining everything, "so, are we shagging tonight then?". Really?!! He was hit with a resounding silence

Happily I won't lie. It did smart a bit!! Take 2 Advil an hour before to help you relax. That's what they recommended to me. They also had to put a clip on my cervix because "it was flopping about a bit"!!! which didn't help. I'm sure you'll be ok and a brave lady! Good luck.

Getoff I will be thinking of you on the 7th! I'll keep checking every few days to see if there's any news. The lady at the scan yesterday said as I was leaving, "see you back here pregnant" so she is perhaps hopeful that it will work out for me. Let's hope it works out for all of us :)

Hi Jen,
I'm so glad your tube wasn't blocked!! I have a hsg tommorow and I'm so scared, scared of the procedure and scared of the results!!!

I have my fingers crossed for you, I have heard a lot of people get pregnant the first few months after a hsg :) here's hoping!!!

Well, not sure if anyone is still reading this thread but had the HSG yesterday. Was horribly uncomfortable and stung a lot. However, the doctor found that my tube is NOT blocked! Now, what's that all about? I had a lap and dye a few years ago that told me it was. I only have one tube. Very odd indeed. So, no free IVF for us but also no reason why we shouldn't conceive with a few drugs. I guess we just have to keep going! :)

That looks like a great box for cars! I'll let you know how it all goes :)

He sounds adorable. Hopefully you have nothing to worry about on the sharing front. Mine went through a real horrible phase about not sharing but seems to be getting better. No complaints from his pre school anyway :-) As for cars we have this one and it holds tons! Can actually fit two cars in each slot if they're skinny race cars. We actually were going to order a second on our next trp to the States though because he needs another I confess it's my fault - Hotwheels are a cheap and easy way to keep him quiet when I'm trying to get through Sainsburys so he gets a new one nearly every week!

Good luck with you HSG. Think we're going to see a clinic after this cycle...

Hmm that is strange indeed! Mine are never one and the same, but usually with clots I'm the same as you. Bleuch!

DS' party was chaotic and he loved every minute. I am now investigating some new storage options to keep his beloved vehicle collection in! I have to admit that he is quite cute most of the time, happy playing by himself and pottering around with his cars etc but also not too bad at play dates. I totally worry all the time that he is going to be a 'typical only child' and work hard to teach him to share etc but man, it is tricky! That's partly why I'm so desperate for him to have a sibling.

Well, had to phone the doc today to get referred for a hysterosalpingogram (HSG) to see what is happening with my tube. I had a lap and dye in the UK 4 years ago and it showed my one and only tube was blocked, but then along came DS by surprise so I have no idea what the story was there. I will be quite interested to see what it shows up this time. If it is blocked I will get free IVF but have to pay for the drugs (about $2000) so really not sure we would go ahead with that all over again. It really is hard on your marriage and emotional health :(

Anyhoo, have a great week :)

Aw Jen so sorry to hear. CD 4 here so we can wait it out together.

How was DS's party? He sounds adorable!

I've had a really weird period actually. First two days were extremely heavy with HUGE clots but strangely not painful at all . Usually clots like that are accompanied by really bad cramps. Sorry if this is all TMI! I just wonder if it had anything to do with what acupuncturist was suggesting (ie that egg was fertilized but didn't implant). Strange

Well, it came bang on day 28, right when I was about to get dressed for DS' party. Bugger it! Here we go again :)

Well, now day 27 and still no AF. My body is playing horrible tricks on me. Last cycle of Clomid AF came on day 23. Grrrr, screaming inside with frustration while DS naps upstairs. Looking forward to an evening of wine and cake decorating though! Even spent the morning making my own marshmallow fondant. Delish! DS is 2 tomorrow :)

Lastbox how weird is that?! Very intriguing indeed. Well, still nothing here, just that peculiar feeling that something is about to start. I just wish it would so that I can get on with the next cycle :)

So sorry Jenrendo. If it makes you feel any better, I'm right behind you.

I had a very strange experience at acupuncture this week. Had it last week at 1dpo and she said to me 'Your pulse is very strong, that's a good sign' and then just before I left, she very pointedly said 'take it easy the next few days, ok?' I said yes f course but didn't think much about it and then I thought what did she mean by that and of course got to googling. I didn't even know an acupuncturist might be able to tell you're pregnant by your pulse! Still skeptical but intrigued! Anyway I've been spotting all week so when I told her that at my appointment last night she was so surprised and said I thought fr sure you were pregnant lat week. And sure enough when she felt my ulse she said it wasn't the same as it was the week before. Like I said, I'm skeptical....but it's interesting isn't it?

Ah well I think that's my AF on the way now too.....got that familiar feeling :( Due to start a different drug next cycle though so been reading up about that. Always focussing on the next shot......

Happily glad you had a nice day! I know what you mean about waiting. I got so bloody impatient, having to wait for a year before the GP would even refer me then being told it was at least 2 years on the IVF waiting list, which they wouldn't put me on until I had all sorts of tests which I had to wait for, of course! that's why we ended up paying. I knew the stats were low for IVF and figured that I would probably need at least 3 cycles so we'd better get on with it! It's horrible being in limbo.

I'm shorter this month Happily. Day 28 and the witch got me. I think I ovulated earlier around day 15 which is pretty good as it was as late as day 20 when I started in February. Just a bit worried about my luteal phase.
Horrid when you think you've got a pattern established and it changes. I've had very little pmt and virtually no pain recently so I'm gutted that I'm really suffering this month.
Keep testing though, and FX for you.

I have been doing Accupuncture too, ever since I started seven months ago my cycles have been 30 days every month without fail. I don't know what's happened this month, on day 34 now, no AF, I've tested three times and bfn. I've never had a 34 day cycle, so I don't really know what's going on! Just have to wait and see, not holding out much hope after two years tho!

I have a hcg in four weeks and then I decide, it's hard really everything seems fine so far but I don't think I want to keep trying for another six months, I'd rather start treatment. It feels I've waiting so long already.
Day with the little ones was wonderful, I'm overcome with jelousy but I love them all dearly so it doesn't last long! :)

I think the only good thing about my short lp is that I don't waste money on tests because I never get that far! 7dpo here and already spotting fairly heavily. Had been so so well behaved this month, swearing off coffee & alcohol, eating well, lots of veggies etc. so annoyed with my feckng body!!! Why is this so hard!?!

Hello Mistress - so sorry to hear of your mcs. I've been doing acupuncture fr 6 weeks now - was just thinking today how long we'll be able to afford to do it! Hoping you won't have to do it much longer.

So strange that we've all got boys...wonder if there's a connection

Getoff we lay in bed this morning and listened to him in his cot singing his rendition of 'Happy Birthday' whilst melting inside, even DH! Aw, sometimes I think I need to take a look at what I've got, not what I haven't!