Round up your ghosties and ghoulies and long legged beasties, the BESH are going to scare out the BFPs!

Nope don't mind the pointed hat. Bosom is certainly ample enough to take both you and the hat :)

Norfy the BESH survey is right (as always) - ditch work, have a good cry, go to Wales and just let yourself deal with this - you have an operation, drugs and grief to deal with. No wonder you are A Bit Miz.

Work is definitely the thing to put at the bottom of the list. Sounds like the doctor is sensible - looking after yourself is a good choice.

In any case, going to Wales is always a good idea. I keep meaning to arrange a visit to my mum and dad, it's always so peaceful staying with them. Or it would be if they weren't having work done on the house, anyway

faif, you iz well gay. don't mind the pointed hat, do you?

I will very gently tell you (as a veteran) that the tablets will take a couple of weeks to kick in. However, I felt better within days just for knowing I was doing something. Actually the best thing is to combine the two (trust me, I know). Yes within 2 weeks the tablets will start to kick in (about 6 weeks before they're fully up and running) to start thinking about the counselling.

Stop apologising we are here to support each other. So stop.

Ps luff you!

The doctor offered counselling, but I was more fixated on something to make me feel instantly better, hence choosing drugs. I couldn't bear the thought of having to wait weeks for a slot. I have to go back in a fortnight though, so I might ask then about counselling.

Thanks everyone. I'm really sorry about this.

Oh norf. You need R&R. Yes pliz to ring the hospital, explain, request blood tests tomorrow - no reason why not - then you can jump on a train straight after. Tis unfortunate re work but can't be helped. They don't want you sniffling over the computers anyway! No seriously, they would rather have you back when you are well. Have you thought about counselling? Someone to talk everything through with/process things?

Go to Wales, Norfy and give yourself all the time you need - work can manage without you.

This too shall pass.

It's beyond shitty norf. You need to give yourself time to get over it. If it helps, methotrexate is a horrible drug. Blame this all on the drug. But the outcome is the same. You need time and space.

And why not ring the hospital? If they say no, well, sit back, watch Jeremy kyle (or perhaps something less brain rotting) then go on sat.

Have emailed. And been to bed and cried. I am really quite embarrassed by all this.

Going to stay here till Sat morning blood test and then head straight on to Wales. Am even wondering about calling hospital and asking if I can have it on Friday instead.

You don't need to be more specific other than to say 'the doctor has signed me off for a further two weeks.'

Job done :) Well, other than going back to Wales that is.

Norf, complications sounds fine. Do not try and get by on the beta blockers.

God, now I sound like a weak and feeble loon here as well, when ideally I would seem like a polished and capable bizniz traveller sort of person .

I don't like people knowing I am in a tiz. Either here or at work. Is what it comes down to.

Which is why you need to take the time & the rest. Goodness.knows you've been through the ringer.

I am just so bloody tense!

Survey says - stupid. GO BACK TO WALES WOMAN!!!

"Further complications" is a perfectly acceptable reason, you can always give more details later.

Yes, I told him everything and he was lovely.

I've just flicked on my blackberry and there are some emails which I already want to deal with, in quite a positive way. And it has been nice to be back, the last couple of days. But at the same time my heart is racing, and if I do go in I won't be able to go to Wales for Crying and Talking, which I think is actually what I need. But I feel I can't say to work it's an emotional reaction, so I have to go all coy and call it "further complications", which sounds like I'm just avoiding work.

Should I go in? And just try to get by on the beta blockers? Or is that stupid, when what I really need is to grieve and stop suppressing everything like a blasted Victorian paterfamilias?

Oh Norf I'm sorry. Of course you are A Bit Miz, you've had an utterly rotten time lately. Screw work and what they might think - you've got a sick note. Have you told your boss what happened? I'm sure he/she would be understanding if you explained (in part) the situation.

But what do I say to work? I feel really stuck about this. Do I go into details? What do I say?

Please someone write me an email?

When will you know if IVF is this cycle or next, JethrosonAirplane?

Northey I am not surprised you are officially A Bit Miz. You've had a brimming bucket of shit to deal with. I second the doctors advice on Having a Big Cry and a rest.

Good morning foul hags.

I went to the doctor yesterday and was diagnosed with being A Bit Miz. Because after about two seconds of controlled professionalism I cried all over her like a massive pansy. Anyway, I've been given some nice magic pills and also a sick note for another fortnight, along with instructions to go back to Wales and Have A Big Cry and stop trying to be all stiff and English. I need to tell work this morning and am really quite scared of doing so. I've only just got back. What on earth do I say?

;(

Low GI is the key. Bananas are actually one of the most high GI fruits, if I remember rightly. Carrots are also bizarrely high GI. There are loads of lists on t'internet. Basically, you need to make sure you are eating mostly low GI stuff and if you do have high GI stuff, eat it with something low GI to balance out the insulin your body needs to produce to deal with the meal/snack.

So dried fruit would prompt your body to produce loads of insulin. Half the fruit and the rest substituted with nuts would be better. Carrots are fine as a side dish to a roast but less good to munch as a snack on their own. That sort of thing.

The idea behind a low GI diet is to make your blood sugar a gentle wavey line rather than a roller coaster of ups and downs caused by high GI food -> blood sugar spike ->huge production of insuln -> blood sugar plummets, causing you to crave something sugary/carby. I do feel better when I eat lowish GI tbh. But I also like chocolate. A lot.

This is a very serious post. I need to balance that.