Round up your ghosties and ghoulies and long legged beasties, the BESH are going to scare out the BFPs!

Ooh I like the London Aquarium!

I am weird with diffage announcements. Mostly I'm on a fairly even keel but when SIL made hers the other week, I lost the plot completely. Completely and utterly.

Bugs just think you missed the really boring bits at the end of the night. Nice work!

faith it sounds like you have had a trying day or two. But it's great that your scan is only a few days off!

Drizz I am mightily impressed by your restraint.

FSR good luck with the drug mixing potion making!

I've had quite a pleasant weekend. We had lunch at a trip to the London Aquarium with some frends and their little boy today. She is heavily preggo but it was a hard won win, so I can't begrudge her diffage. It was a lovely crisp autumn day to be out and about. After we left them, I went for a quick look around the shops. I came back with a sweater dress, a jumper, a gorgeous snuggly poncho thing, a lacy t-shirt and an electric blue skirt for work! And I have just bought some boots online that I saw when I was out because they didn't have my size when I was at the shops. In my defence, with all the work and biz travel over the summer, I haven't bought anything in AGES, so I was making up for lost time.

Celeb announcements usually don't bother me. RL ones occasionally do. But mostly I think I'm dead inside. Maybe that's the problem?

I feckin hate Fearne Cotton with a vengeance. "Oh I want a baby now - therefore I shall have one."

Sorry about the hangover Bugs. I had a little one today, but yours sounds of epic proportions.

Hello

Fearne Cotton RILES me beyond the telling of it.

driz you did very very well. It was the spoilt, ungratefulness of the babay shower of shite people that made me stabbiest of all. How can they not grasp how lucky they are?!

I have mainly had a nice day, cleaning and help a newly engaged friend plan her wedding. Am bridesmaid, she is being kindly and saying she knows I might be diffed-fat and won't be a problem but (a) am fat now (b) am highly unlikely to be diffed if HUSBAND WON'T DO SECHS so doesn't look like there will be an issue.

bugs sympathy. Hangovers - not fun. What was your costume? Am crap at costumes.

That was quite a rant, it bothered me, didn't it?

We went for a brief walk and a cup of tea after the family thing and now I am cooking MEAT :) for dinner later.

Afternoon hags!

Good work on the hangover, bugs. I was saved from that by the very considerate neighbour initiating a party at 1:30. At 3am SB had enough and went round (twice) to get them to turn it down, met the police the second time as the other side had rang and complained too (and as it is a known issue, the police actually come out!) So we didn't sleep, but lovely SB brought me water to avoid hangover from hell, plus post-MC period from hell, plus Granny-birthday with SIL from hell. Yay, only 2 out fo 3 straight from hell. It is cd1, I feel like shit, physically, but as I am convinced I still had some stuff to clear, I am actually okay with it. My interaction with SIL went as far as "hi", and then hiding in the opposite side of the room with a very dull but friendly uncle and his lovely grandchildren 1 and 3. I overheard SILFH (she's got a new acronym!) complaining about the night feeds (he's four months for fucksake) and I quote "I know there is light at the end of the tunnel, I just don't know when". I did not go over and say, "what you've got is the light at the end of our tunnel, but we don't know whether we'll ever get there, but as you are the most unsatisfied bitch I know, I am actually not jealous of you in the slightest, I would not change places with you, ever. And I don't want your baby, I want ours". So I am quite proud of myself. The rest of SB's family is nice, even my BIL who made a point of coming to me to chat. So it was okay all in all.

I am liking the water and capsizing chat on here, I had a go a wave surfing a few years ago and that seemed to involve mostly falling off and being hit by the board...

Sorry for the scare faify. Hope all is well, but it sounds okay-ish. Stupid UTI are after you. Keeping stuff crossed for Wed or before!

Celebs announcements have seized to bother me (although I am worried about Middy, as it will be impossible to ignore). I am impressed at the not vomming, not hitting, not crying response sinky (if it was you, posting from memory). Phases of letting it go and just surviving are part of the deal. I depend very much on the person it is wrt RL diffs.

Did you try the dodgy knee today, euro? Hope it is okay.

oh no Buggerlugs poor you, I hate it when that happens. I sometimes think that I'm like a child again, I get so excited from the expectation of a good night that I wear myself out and have to leave in a walk of shame

Another one not in favour of water-based activities here, though that's mostly because I cannot swim very well (took 5 attempts to get my 25m badge aged 10 so just gave up after that!).

Saw my very pregnant BF yesterday to give her a birthday pressie. Her bump has grown massively in the 2 weeks since I last saw her. Before she had a teeny bump and looked about 6/7 months gone, but now it's a proper one!

I've checked out my "How to Mix Drugs & Stab Yourself" DVD so am a bit better prepared for tomorrow, but I keep having teary wobbles over it all

Faith eek about your scare, but glad everything seems ok now. Can't quite believe your scan has come round already .

Jethro Fearne Cotton really riled me too. I don't give a stuff about Coleen and her announcement, but Fearne and that Imogen "Tilted Uterus" Thomas get right on my wick

Thanks all! Yes I think EPAU will ring me and get me in for a scan. Regardless it's my scan date Wednesday so not long now either way! It's all settled down now so I'm fairly confident the antibiotics are doing their job.

Eurgh sleb baybee wins make me want to puke. That one from Atomic Kitten, Jenny Frost is diffed with twins. I got annoyed when I heard that. RL announcements vary depending on the person and how they announce them. One friend texted saying DC1 has just learnt to say baby, which is good because DC2 is due in November We had been TTC 5 months when she announced her first diffment

I dislike canoes. I tried to have a go in the sea and the tide swept one over my foot. Mega ouchy graze. Then I tried again and capsized in a lake in September. No luff for canoes here.

*especially even. Fat fingers.

Faif sorry to hear about your shitty day. I saw the PESH thread on active convos so had a read. Sounds like you're coping admirably but have the Cod of Comfort just to be sure

Driz I had to kayak last year as part of challenge weekend at work, I could only get the damn thing to go round & round in a circle. Then I fell in. Brilliant.

I don't really get too bothered by other people's babies / diffment anouncements, especilally not friends. But I did have a complete overreaction to Fearne Cotton being pregnant. I was furious. Unreasonable? I don't know but it irritated me beyone belief. I know what you mean though about 'dead inside' - I think that's why I'm all over the place at the moment, because I haven't allowed myself to believe that we would even get to the having IVF stage.

Thanks guys. A numb sort of detachment is exactly right. The thing is, her H saying about how lovely and amazing it is is perfectly reasonable and understandable, but I really didn't need to know.

Sounds like an eventful day, faith! Glad you're okay and it's something simple to deal with.

Evil you aren't dead inside, I'm with Witch on this one. And you dealt with it very respectfully, I probably would have been speechless to. Or slapped her

faith horrible day for you! Glad you are ok. Do you think you might have a scan tomorrow then?

Hope Granny's birthday goes ok today lemon with your wonderfully insensitive bitch SIL!

I am going to have another lazy day I think, bit of washing/cleaning and shopping. Droid is hurting a bit but is not horrendous, just heavy and bloated. I've managed to drink my whole tea/coffee allowance for the day before 1030 a.m. Just to wake up after drinking wine last night. Bad raspberry -slaps wrists-

graf I think when you try as long as any of the BESH have to win a baybee, there's a certain amount of numbing goes on. There's only so many times your heart can break before you build yourself a protective wall. I didn't realise how much it was affecting us both til I finally got diffed.

I iz enjoying your stories of antics like falling into water :) exciting weekend.

We had a scary day yesterday. We'd taken the camper to MSB's Nan's. driving back she overheated (camper, not the Nan) so we stopped to let her cool. I went for a wee and was spotting The bloody camper continued to overheat so we were stuck an hour from home! My wonderful sister collected me while MSB waited for the AA (thank goodness we're covered by the bank account). Anyways, we all got back ok. OOH doc diagnosed yet another UTI and started me on antibiotics and the spotting has stopped. Think they will move my scan forward from Wednesday though. Camper has not faired so well - looks like she needs a new head gasket! Scary day but put the other side now :)

Not dead inside draff, just the necessary to survive. At my best, I can listen and respond to stuff like that. I can coo over babies. Inside I know it should hurt, and it does, but you can examine that hurt and not really let it touch you at that point.

Does that make any sense? What my moods are proper crazy, I get quite pronounced derealisation, when I feel I'm observing life and myself rather than actively participating. I means i can cope with stressful situations at work, and I think, cope with stressfull baby situations.

Anyway, it's too early and I've not had my morning tea yet.

And. Finally. "look what we made"? No one would have blamed you for vomiting there and then. On the scan photo if at all possible.

Arrgh, I feel sick again. Ridiculous. My innards can just fuck right off.

I'm feeling very proud of myself today - I did not cry last night. My very dear friend was telling me all about her 20 week scan and how excited her husband is, all lovey dovey "look what we made" etc. I was speechless that she'd tell me that, but as I say no tears. I'm wondering if I'm a bit dead inside actually.

drizz good effort on getting out on the water (in fact in it) in October.

Draf I cannot believe some of the stuff I have overshared on here. Knock yourself out.

I am staaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarving. KFZK is in the kitchen making home made chish and fips. Mmmmm. We were out all afternoon at the Create Open Day. We have booked a consultation for December, with a view to starting in Jan/Feb. KFZK was a bit cynical about then (he's cynical about everything) but I quite liked them. They said what I wanted to hear anyway - no downregging, light drugs.

I skipped my run today. I'm not convinced that the knee I banjaxed last weekend is strong enough to run on yet. But I might test it on a short run tomorrrow. I'm never going to lose weight without some cardio.

Huh. Broke fred. Norovirus spell too mean?

Aw driz perhaps she'll contract the norovirus overnight & not come?

Maybe I should wear my witches hat and plan wittiness. Sadly, as I am getting PMTty I'll probably just cry. So that would be great. SB hasn't mentioned the MC or the bitch's behaviour to his parents, so they won't understand if I am more hysterical than usual. Oh well.

Go on. Plan to make a scene. I love planning my sparkling comeback which never actually gets said

The merengue chat actually made me wretch - does that mean I am diffed? Or just a sensitive soul? (Or did I contract something horrible in the river?)

I am happily stirring a cauldron full of pure hate to throw over the evil SIL who I might see tomorrow at SB's gran's birthday maybe I can borrow some dust, because it seems apt. I shall kill her and/or leave the room if she says anything resembling her usual insensitive self tomorrow.

What can I say? There's a whole lotta pure lurve blowing around.

Have just read back on fred and seen the merengue chatter