Emmsy's ladies - 4 years of weebling - still going strong!

rumours did you? But did you feel pregnant?

I dont dare to get my hopes up as I dont feel anything except I have backache and feel very much like af is still here only she isnt. I cant test, I really cant, I dont have the energy to deal with a bfn right now.

Ooooh exciting, dd will love the princess castle cake.
It's dhs birthday on Friday and I'm making him a three tiered chocolate cake filled with butter cream and topped with maltesers, I can't wait to eat it I'm sure dh will enjoy it too

Rumours Just ordered it off amazon

moon test that is, I did a test with ds1 because I had an af like yours!

Hi neeks it starts in November, did you get the pink icing ordered?

sabs I would love to see pics too

moon why don't you do a test just to be sure you're not pg. I did ds1

mls hope you're ok and just busy with you're 3

Moon Agreed. Our bodies do play stupid tricks on us. Not going to say it, but you know what I'm hoping

Rumours You sound much calmer about the whole thing. Just take it one day at a time. When does your new course start?

Buddha are you ok? You've been quiet about you recently. Hope the packing is going well.

4ever Hope you are all packed too. Net you have lists of your lists Try to switch off from sad dates and enjoy your holiday.

Speaking of quiet, we haven't heard from Barbie Blue or Monkey recently. Hope you're all ok, lovely ladies.

Cupcake How much did you lose this week? Those pics ofyour boys made me go AWWWW!

Sabs Your life sounds really busy. Good luck with the fundraising. I raised £60 with my run yesterday for a local cancer charity that was close to my DGran's heart, so I am really pleased. I'd love to see the picture of DD if you don't mind emailing it.

af has all but stopped and I've got backache, but no symptoms - my first pregnancy indicator is usually really heavy sore boobs and I dont have that so I think I just have a weird cycle this time round. Stupid body.

Hi buddha I'm pleased I don't have to wait too long and just want to get the ball rolling if there is anything there. We waited 18 months with ds1 from initial observations that he's showing autistic traits and official diagnosis. Ds1 was older though, so don't know if it would take even longer for ds2 so I give him a chance to develop or whether it will be quicker. I will hopefully get some more opinions and advice soon, only a week to wait .
I'm quite positive at the mo, dealing with the possibility in a positive way.

Rumours I forgot to say how good it was that you got an appointment through so quickly, how you feeling about it?

Hi moon how're you feeling today? Is af behaving?

4ever buddha enjoy your hols

Moon AF did sound rather weird, its so kind the way our bodies play with our minds . . NOT!

I totally understand. How are you feeling today?

I have one left. I was tempted earlier, but honestly I do not feel pregnant in the slightest. I dont think I can face another bfn.

Aww thanks girls!

Moon have u the nerve to do a test? Squeezing your hand tightly x x.

Way to go neeko what an achievement, you should be very proud of yourself. Hope your legs arent aching too much. Think of all the calories you've burned

Sorry to hear af has turned up for 4ever and almost for buddha it never fails to upset you does it, even after all these years, the arrival of her always throws me into disarray.

My af has been a bit weird it usually lasts one week, sometimes 6 days. This time round, it started Weds afternoon, and by yesterday was almost gone? Tiny bit of dark discharge today (sorry tmi) and that's it - not even enough for a tampon, my last one got a bit stuck coming out as it was so dry very odd....

Well done Neeko

Hugs for 4ever but vent away. Hope you and buddha both have lovely holidays and tew stays away!

Did my 6k run today. Did it in 39 mins so pleased with myself, especially since I couldn't run at all 3 months ago.

Happy weekends everyone.

4ever We are here hun and always will be with ears to listen, empathy and understanding, shoulders to cry on and if all else fails cake and wine same goes for to Moon

On phone so can't remember what else has been said (such a goldfish brain) but E is all better, I'm recovering from a migraine and dh has a chest infection so will be glad to get away for a break next week. Like you 4ever af will arrive to share my holiday too due today or tomorrow and I have absolutely no doubt it will appear as zero symptoms

Oh, 4ever, you can never use up our support and sympathy. Sorry we weren't there for you yesterday. 5 yrs since you realised you weren't invincible is certainly worth marking and the challenging road it took you down. I remember my dr who has 4 llo's herself saying that mc is the death of all those plans and dreams no matter how small the lo was.

For me, having bb (and only one mc) largeLy took the pain away but for others who have been harder hit, I know that's not the case.

Keep talking and letting us know when you need support - september will always be a bittersweet month for you as without September there would be no Summer. You do have the luckiest girl there too - you know exactly how special and wanted she is and she will be growing knowing this everyday. Lucky, lucky girl - many people don't ever remember how lucky they are to have their LO's. And now I'm going as the phone has already eaten one post from me!

4ever we do care, whether we've been through it once or 5 times, we know the pain and heartache and the never forgetting. As for people in real life, well for them life moves on and unless they are particularly close friends or family then they wont remember, its not that they dont care, it just doesnt have the same meaning as it does to you.

Thank you for the posts today, at the risk of sounding like a stuck record, it means such a lot that you take the time to post to me about it, it gives me hope and you spur me on to keep the faith and keep trying for our dream.

moon Life just seems bloody unfair at times doesn't it. There's a couple I work with and all she has wanted , as long as I have know here is a baby. They got married about 4 years ago and were trying before the wedding and getting pregnant isn't the problem but she just can't keep hold of one.
Like you, it is desperatly unfair - they have tried IVF but no success and last time we spoke were thinking about adoption.

They would make such good parents and I hope they do go for adoption as there are so many deserving babies and children out there who deserve the love they could give.

Life can be wonderful - like your wedding and it can also be crap, like now.
Have a wonderful honeymoon - enjoy the time with your DH and leave the baby talk untill you get back xxx

moon there are just no words (but I'll attempt some anyway)
My heart just breaks reading your post, it's so bloody unfair. I hope I don't sound like I'm just spouting platitudes but some positives to focus on- you are still so young my lovely, so time is on your side, and there are still many options open to you. Will you discuss a higher dose of clomid with your consultant, or IUI as the next step?
Re adoption, a good friend of my sister's just recently adopted a 12 week old baby after years of ttc, and they are absolutely BESOTTED with her...heck, my sister's friend even took pills to produce milk so she could breastfeed her (not sure if that worked out or not!) I know it's a very real worry that you might feel resentful/always wanting your own baby but I'm sure if you and dh eventually came to that decision that child would just totally fulfill your need to be a mummy.
Of course you never thought of any of this when you decided to start trying, none of us did. But this pain will shape you and your dh. I remember monkey's analogy of the tapestry looking a complete mess on the back but beautiful on the front. You will see the front one day.

Huge hugs to you too 4ever, this is certainly a bittersweet month.

blackrocked hope you're ok..pompoms a-waving for you that te clomid will work its magic.

louey and sabs lovely to see you both back.. louey sounds like your boys are thriving, lush that Oscar is walking now!
sabs I can't believe how grown up S sounds...hard to believe she and my ds1 will be in the same school year! I always think of her and the other 2009 babies as so much older than him! Good luck with the walk.

Well ladies, only 1.75lbs off today..I was hoping for more as it's been SUCH a hard week of having to resist cakes and biscuits at countless playgroups/book groups/church stuff...but never mind, at least it puts me just under 12st which is a good milestone :)
Happy weekend all!