Emmsy's ladies - 4 years of weebling - still going strong!

Moon I'm just glad you got a Christmas "miracle" after all. Yes I want a bfp but I've got my gorgeous ds so can't be too greedy now can I?

Barbie See everyone agrees with our texts this afternoon - wouldn't change you for the world

Had my gp appt today, she's done referral for fertility clinic at hospital so we'll see what comes of that but won't hold my breath! I managed to leave the appt with antibs and a diagnosis of pleurisy not what I went for!

blue you have a lovely way with words

Hey everyone,

moon brick hard boobs and being knackered are such good signs - eep! I know you are taking it one day at a time but you can now tick 'booking in' off your journey list. We're all here almost daring not to breathe but squeezing your hand and praying xx

barbie, darling. Hope you know that no Emmsy would ever say anything to hurt you and that sometimes seeing things written down is so subjective and what can be mild banter can be taken the wrong way. I totally get your love of lovely things, I when I get complimented on my boys clobber, especially when I match them. I will never be able to dress a DD so channel all my aesthetic energies into co-ordinating my boys. They are only ever in red/white/blue as (a) it goes with their colouring and (b) I think its such a lovely combo. At the risk of sounding up my own arse I've also been on the receiving end of playground 'looks' as I always made the effort on the two days I did the school run. It is absolutely a mixture of genuine "doesn't she look well" to "bitch, check her out in her bloody UGGS and skinny jeans". I personally am inspired when I see lovely looking parents and children, gives me an incentive to smarten up and not go about in my jammies .

I'm so sorry to hear you've been down but you have had so much packed into three short years and moving from Dubai to France is not only climatically different but the culture and language and sheer bloody grumpiness of the French. You are amazing the way you deal with it all in your stride. I hope and I'm sure your DH tells you this much on a regular basis. Keep on keeping on, be yourself, seek help if you need it but remember people who matter don't mind and people who mind, well they don't matter. One last thing, I still have the email you sent me via FB after I told you what had been happening re: school and moving house. It was one of the most heart felt and supportive emails I've ever received and I re-read it now and again when I'm low as it stll brings a lump to my throat. Never change xx

rumours so glad the anti-d's are helping and letting you relax a little and still allow your humour to shine through . I've actually booked some CBT sessions as I need closure once and for all on last year and am still so angry and need help to put to bed the never ending loop of what happened and what I should have said/done/whatever. My Mum and DH have gently cajouled me into going to see someone as I can still be found, of an afternoon, ranting about what was allowed to happen and how I've never been given an apology blah, blah, blah. Anyway I'll come back with some tips if I get any. It's all about replacing negative thoughts with positive ones. Man, we'll all be living in a commune in California at this rate

MLS I did at you and your crochet blanket obsession . I've discovered 'pinterest' - basically a website for mood boards and I am going ga ga over the gardening section and getting lots of ideas for my new garden. Give me a trowel and some plants and I am happy as a pig in shit

Big love and waves to everyone else. Off to watch 'The Killing' boxset season one episode 4- DH and my new addicition - Tak!

Barbie agree with everything that's already been said, we all know and love you for who you are, not for what you or your dcs wear - bin bags or the latest clobber, we'd love you whatever we know you meant no offence in any way, we know you better than that.

mls thank you so much for your very kind offer, that brought tears to my eyes. I really would love it, but just not now - I don't want to be presumptuous and jinx things, but maybe (hopefully) when I'm a little further along then I would love to have it. I really like the idea that its been handed along, lovely

Buddha I was thinking about you the other day and realised that I'd 'stolen' your dream of the Christmas miracle - I'm so sorry, I hope you didn't think I was being insensitive, I wouldn't ever do that intentionally, and completely empathise with how I'd have felt if it was the other way round.

Booking in appointment was yesterday, makes it seem a bit more real as 4ever said, but know I've been here before and so it kind of doesn't mean anything. But.... I am trying to be positive, and I still feel crap and starving and tired, with my brick boobs (thanks mls!) and I keep thinking surely it must be our time, 3rd time lucky and all that?

babie the tabs I'm on have totally chilled me out, took a few weeks, but I'm much more relaxed and less shouty and snappy, it's brilliant. I'm now able to hopefully deal with my issues, infact got another therapy session tomorrow.

Update with ds2, weve got his feedback meeting 2 weeks where we will find out if he is or isn't or they need to do further assessment. I'm in a bit of a state over it, but imagine what is be like without my drugs

to the lovely and well groomed barbie. you and the doc's always look gorgeous. I too am in awe that you can manage this with all you have to do. there is nothing I like more than seeing beautifully dressed kids - strangely I seem to have scruffy kids who never look tidy even in their most expensive outfits . it's most embarrassing when I see my sil as my nieces always look so perfect.

Do not change - we all need a glamorous friend

and as for the other mums - be proud that you can outshine the local ladies. in Paris that is some as achievement

Spoken to people who dressed there kids like mine!!!

rumours thank you my lovely

And on the suggestion of the lovely buddha I'm going to start looking like this for the school run img.thesun.co.uk/multimedia/archive/00398/vicky_pollard_398833a.jpg

Of this pms and lack of vit d is paranoia and anxiety, clearly I am suffering with both!

I wish there was such a thing as a chill pill, I could do with one maybe I need to start smoking weed!

I was really shocked when i saw your message neeko I thought you meant we wouldn't mix because either a, you thought I was stuck up or b, you thought I wouldn't want to speak to you because I only sp

Whoops sorry neeko I think I was shocked because we have always had a good relationship in here and via text.

You are right I am totally over analysing everything. One if the symptoms

Barbie I meant we wouldn't have mixed because I'd be shopping at Asda, hence the wink! It was a joke. I meant it light-heartedly. It wasn't a slight on you. I merely meant we'd literally never have bumped into each other as tkmaxx is the closest I'll ever get to couture. Please don't be offended.
The clothes are beautiful. If that's what you like and you want to buy them then great.
As for the pink stuff, why would that possibly not make us friends? I'd like to think we'd both judge each other's kids on something other than appearance - after all unless you brought them to my house with a receipt attached I'd never know how much their clothes cost . (I mean that as a joke too.)
Take what that other mum said as a compliment. She thinks you and your kids look great. Any bitchiness is to do with their own insecuries.
Please stop over-analysing. It's interesting to hear other people's opinions and ideas. There is no absolute right and wrong, merely what works for your family which is always going to be different from what works for someone else.

Thanks buddha , I was channeling blue who always writes the best things IMO

Delurking to shout "hear hear Rumours" very well put. Far more eloquently written than I could have managed

barbie those other mums are the shallow ones making judgements on your appearance only. They don't know the real you. You could dress like a tramp or dress like a queen, you'll still be you and they don't know you yet. Don't change yourself so you can be accepted, take pride and have confidence in being yourself.

And now my last message sounds a little aggressive which of course ts not meant to be

I am generally just curious.

I have found this last year tough in France and the mums at school apart from a select few tend to ignore me.

On speaking to a few of the 'nicer' mums it seems to be because they think I am possibly stuck up or shallow due to making an appearance will doing the school run! I shit you not... Anyway another mum stopped me the other week and asked how I always look so groomed and the kids immaculate, she said she was jealous as we're a few other mums.

It didn't help when dolly won the Halloween comp for the best outfit, I feel I have really alienated myself. So help, what can I do differently? Not dress nice, dress my kids like shit, go without makeup?

Seems you can't win either way these days

neeko we wouldn't of 'mixed' in rl? Why? Because I don't like pink? Or I'm seem to be stuck up because the kids are dressed in expensive clothes? Or just cos I tend to overthink things?

Barbie Yip. you're over thinking! Glad we met on line tho cos we're unlikely to have "mixed" in rl The clothes are lovely. Quite like vertbaudet imo - but I know little.
Hope H is better soon.

Moon sympathy and a Hurrah! for feeling rubbish xx

Whoops lost connection

I was saying all the clothes in d size tend to be babyish, not very suited to the headstrong, independent little madam she is.

Also the clothes in Dubai tended to be pretty 'bling' hence us going for the more classic look.

Little h today is rocking his converse high tops and red jeans oh and of course a navy top with arm patches. Also a navy and white striped t shirt. All the colours match his shoes cos I'm totally anal like that!

H has an ear infection, first course of anti b's coming up. I'm a walking zombie!

moon feeling sick and like a pile of poo is great in the nicest possible way of course. You won't have an early scan because bean doesn't need one, its going to be ok #mysticbarbieisback#

I'm still here and still totally over thinking things. I feel I need to so what defend myself. Firstly the statement I made about 'pink' wasn't meant to cause a debate nor was it meant to cause offence. It was clearly just me stating my preference.

As d is still so small, she fits into 6-9 Month shorts, I feel all the pink cl

Well obviously I want morals and all that jazz for the kids too. but French children's couture is where I'm at

for those not familiar with bonpoint

4ever yes totally with you on wanting morals & kindness as a priority for our lo's. I do admit to also wanting a bit of Boden too but only when I get a good discount code! So, is your dd still sleeping in your room (sorry I've been away for about 192 years so have probably missed the bit where she moved to her own room!)

moon I actually woke up thinking about you the other day & I think I had been imagining you with bricks for boobs (as per a comment you made a few days ago)! Have you got a doppler? It's too early to check the hb but mine worked from 12 weeks. It was sent to me by the lovely anniecam & believe it or not I've been saving it for you. I won't be offended if you don't want it or already have one but just let me know.

neeko LOVING your talk to dd1 about image. My dd1 said to me the other day "Mummy I wish I had skinny legs like Ellie", I nearly flipped until she explained that she thought Ellie's school tracksuit bottoms didn't drag in the mud (unlike hers) because of the shape of her legs!!

rumours I'm really sorry to hear you've been having such a hard time recently. Have a huge squeezy hug from me. xx

barbie bonpoint? Is that the French supermarket that sells clothes along with le pain et du vin?? Really glad to hear you are getting some help. Having child no 2 can really send everything off kilter, I know that happened with me & I'm still trying to stop being such a shouty Mummy.

Right I'm off to crochet. My new found hobby, I could literally put all three kids in a cage & spend the whole day in a separate room trying to finish my blanket!

oh and lovely to hear you feeling rubbish moon - long may it last

evening all - loving hearing that yellow is summers favorite col our - is baby belles too however having seen her in head to head pink the other day, I sometimes question it! Personally, don't really mind as they grow out of it anyway - dd1 is beyond it now .

Hello ladies,

Meant to come back much sooner but have been feeling bleugh - hoping this is a good sign, I have never felt so crap before, last couple of days been right off my food, and feel sick although I never actually am and bloody hell I am sleeping for England! This is all normal right? Have been getting migraines too, can only assume this is my hormones all over the place?

Anyway, booking in appt got cancelled so its now tomorrow. Tbh I'm not much looking forward to it. I know it should be exciting, but I've been here before..... All I want is the scan. But no early scans for me when I went to the gp, she said to tell the midwife my history and she'd arrange an early scan, but when I asked about it on the phone she said she wished gps would stop saying that and they never give early scans, even if you're bleeding or in pain We have moved house since the last mc, so under a different area and looks like they do things differently.... but I think I will be 9 weeks on Friday, so in theory only 3 more weeks to wait.

Sorry to sound a bit down when I know I should be happy, I am of course over the moon but quietly so, and burying my head in the sand as much as I can. Dh is convinced we're having a girl.... he's annoyed I'm not being as positive as he is!

Oh gosh, I didn't mean to offend anyone over the 'pink' issue

I was merely stating that the transition between having a boy and girl was no big deal as we had been very much gender natural during the first few years.

We were very lucky living in Dubai to have the bonpoint sale store. Dolly was pretty much kitted out in this for the first few years. As you know bonpoint tends to use classic colours, think navy, browns and greys.

Before dolly was born both dh and I decided that we would try to dress her how we liked to be dressed. Both of us own a more classic wardrobe than a 'fashionable' one. (Can you tell we totally over thought all of this)

If I go into a store to buy the kids clothes, I'm naturally drawn to navy's, greys, yellows etc. I can honestly say I haven't fallen in love with a pink outfit. If I have I would of bought it.

That's not to say she has never had pink, she has had many gifts and has worn then. I can however say hand on heart that she just isn't a 'pink' girl.

I'm only too aware that the clothes dictate the personalities, however I hope that out influences will teach her that a classic style will carry her far. I know for a fact that I'm going to inwardly cringe through her teenage years, no doubt there will be many times I will beg her to change

So for now, the pink is for the dressing up box and bed...or until I find something that is totally cute

I do love other little ones in pink though!

As for the toys, we always wanted two children and made the decision to buy good quality wooden toys in a primary colour with the foresight that they will last both children.

That said, dolly is totally into pink, plastic, bling, kittens, princesses and such like. So for now we will roll with it!

moon how are you doing my lovely?