Rainbow babies- for all of us holding, pregnant with and trying for our rainbows. While remembering all our darling angels

Hello amyboo, congratulations!! And yes, I know those reactions of excitement and wanting to ignore things exactly...

whatever oooh, horrible injections, but for a wonderful cause. You are really on the countdown now.

Had tears in my eyes with Take That, the words seemed so relevant to us all the stars are coming out tonight for you. Yes, they were, for our sparkling, beautiful children. x

Hello to everyone and thanks for your words of support. I'm wavering between refusing to believe this will be a successful pregnancy (I had a mmc and erpc at 13 weeks before DS1), getting excited and thinking about due dates, and ignoring the whole thing. I can't wait to see my gynaecologist hopefully in a week or so, so I can calm some of my fears.

So happy to read about your approaching due date wtw.
Fingers crossed for blizy and fanjo on the tww.
And I hope today was not too upsetting for you august.

wtw what is his name?

That sounds fab fan we normally go to the kite festival in southsea over august bank holiday, Erin's birthday is the Saturday of bh weekend but might try and get over on the Sunday depending on how I've recovered.

Waves Blizy thank you my lovely. Hope 2ww passes quickly!

Been to see bil and sil's new baby this evening. He's very sweet and sil looks well. Bil was quite furtive we hardly saw him!

wtw its in Chichester at west dean. Its over the bank holiday, we are going on the monday.

blizy I shall be testing this friday or saturday depending on how strong I will be.

The chilli festival has chilli food from around the world, lots of chilli sauces, chilli ice cream, chocolate, fudge, sweets. Chilli plants to buy, music from all the chilli countries, all set in a wonderful west dean grounds. We didnt take alot of money last time and regretted it, as we wanted to buy lots of stuff to cook with, but we are going to take a bit this time. Might even buy a chilli plant this year.

Blue- I hope you are ok and that your little lady is jumping around.

Whatever- you are so close, hang on in there my lovely.

Fan- unjust told my Dh about the chilli festival, he is so jealous. He is a chilli fiend.

August- I hope the day has past by as gently as possible for you. I was thinking about Jacob today and lit a wee candle for him.

That's me in the 2ww now. Fan- when will you be testing?

Oops, sorry I forgot to wish Amyboo congratulations!

Oh blue it is very hard. Have had many of those heart stopping moments where you can't feel them move. Glad she's moving around now. Do take it easy xx

Where's the chilli festival fan? We like the garlic festival on the iow

thinking of everyone alot today. I hope your all well and the Rainbow babies are behaving in or out of your tummys. And all you ttc'ers are not too stressed out today.

Been out for lunch with my Dad today bless him, hes all alone as Mum is in Oz seeing my bro and nephew.

Just booked tckets for the chilli festival, cant wait, we went last year it was so good! We love chilli, going to get myself some chilli chocolate and other chilli products. So excited, something to look forward to.

I woke up very distressed this morning and couldn't feel baby kicking, almost had a panic attack. Cuddled up with DH and then she started kicking, after I told him I was worried.
Feel so so tired today, think the tiredness of doing holiday club has kicked in, have no energy at all and feel very strange... Also craving lots of sugary things and my hands feel swollen :(

Yes just come off it - she seems to be perfectly happy still. Just waiting for midwife to say I can go. God I can't wait for Wednesday!! xx

Here for hand holding too wtw. Have u had the ctg yet?
Only three more sleeps.

Flipping heck steroid injection do sting! Ouch!

Big hugs for august today, remembering Jacob with such love.

Also hand-holding for you, whatever, sending you confidence and strength this hot afternoon.

Thinking of you and Jacob today august hope its passing gently xxx

Congratulations Amy Lovely news

I'm sat at the hospital waiting to have my first steroid injection and a ctg. It's boiling hot and they seem a bit busy so could be here some time! Still feeling v anxious and tearful - hoping it will dissipate a bit once I've had the ctg. I just don't think I could bear it if something went wrong now.

amyboo a massive congratulations, fx for a sticky bean and an uneventful pregnancy.

august so glad it went well and you managed to sort Jacobs grave out. Hope DH is ok.

Hi again Amy, congratulations.

Just wanted to say thank you to all for the reassurances after my last post, the day has arrived and I feel ok - for now. Been holding it all together for the last 48 hours but Jacob has never been far from my thoughts...

Thanks wtw for the ideas - my mum had given me some big pebbles which the boys have now painted and ive made cupcakes with glitter to mark the day.

Fan DH did manage to get down to the cemetary to clear up a bit, he was feeling better - unfortunately has just had to go to A&E because his throat is now bleeding, im trying not to worry as its apparently quite common but needs attention.

Thanks also kleine - Understand exactly what you mean. I have a lantern which we will let go at 7.45pm this evening and I will be thinking how thankful I am to have all four of my wonderful sons.

blizy hope having this diagnosis helps you get back on track and 'happy' again.

Love to all of you x

Congratulations amy
I know it's a really scary time but the people on this thread will be here to hold your hand. I'm 31 weeks pregnant and the baby should be born just two months before my son's first anniversary. I can tell you that this pregnancy has been frightening at times but it has really helped me to cope and get stronger, as well as making me eat!
I always lurk here (mainly post on the facebook group instead of here) so I'll keep you in my thoughts.xx

Congratulations amy big hugs as well! x it's not easy and you will worry all the way through, but we're right here to hold your hand! x

Creeping back on here very nervously. I've been lurking for the last couple of months, as I've been finding everything quite hard to deal with. Several of my closest friends have announced pregnancies, which I've found quite hard to handle. I've been following you all though and definitely sharing in your ups and downs. It's just over 3 months since we lost our little boy Thomas at 35 weeks and I definitely miss him every day. I still find myself getting quite upset.

Again very nervously I got a bfp this morning, 4 days after af was due. I tested the day af was late and got a very faint positive after about 8 minutes, but I didn't want to get my hopes up. This morning it was a definite bfp. I thought I'd be panicky, but I think I'm ignoring it, like I don't want to believe it's true. If my pregnancy is successful, the baby would be due on 17 April, 5 days before Thomas' one year anniversary. I think I'll just carry on trying not to think about it till I get home and see my gynaecologist (am on holiday at the moment).

I'm so sorry for those new ladies who have joined here since I was last on the thread.

It surely is a family thing Mech

and so true what you write, definitely not a betrayal! nor a replacement! x

Not a great weekend for me. Three months tomorrow since we lost Dexter.

Having another child is not a betrayal. It is not a replacement. It is a much loved sibling for a child we miss dearly, every day.

Really am thinking about us all, and all our angels and rainbows. It is kind of a family thing here, isn't it?

Just Sunday, Monday and Tuesday to get through after today! Having been feeling positive am absolutely wracked with fear and anxiety today. Struggling to believe she will actually come home

Going to see batman tonight with dp so hopefully that will take my mind of it for a while. SIL had her baby this morning - 2hrs after arriving at the hospital a healthy 9lb boy was born Day before due date too!

Don't over do it blue x

Good to see your hat in the ring Kleine. Hope your ttc journey is a quick one xx

Waves and love to all xx

wtw do we need to put up an official countdown

Had such a busy week with having holiday club at work! Very tiring but very rewarding as well :)

26 weeks tomorrow :)

Quick message, as I'm not sure I'll be back on here during the weekend - hope everyone enjoys the sunshine. august I am thinking of you all, especially of Jacob.

Looks like DH and I are now back on the ttc wheel... sigh ... but it's the only thing we want to do, and has now been okay'd by two consultants. So I am officially throwing my hat into the ring.

Love to all xxx

blizy sending you lots of love. I also really hope your telephone consultation goes well.
(I remember babysitting a friend's kids downstairs a couple of years ago, while she had her initial consultation on the phone upstairs. She was in floods of tears afterwards but it was the beginning of something REALLY positive for her. I so, so hope it is the same for you.)

Waves to all - esp the very nice man at wtw's garden centre - what a sweetheart!