Rainbow babies- for all of us holding, pregnant with and trying for our rainbows. While remembering all our darling angels

Oh and mecha I will have the cake and wine please .

too your friend sounds mental! Beautiful photo of Maia and Mrtoo.

angel you were in my dream last night, we were in Debenhams with Jennifer Lopez, Hughie Morgan and Liam Gallacher, was very strange !

little What a massive clash of dates, do you think you will manage both?

mecha Hope you are ok and the nrxt 13 days fly past.

Hope you are all ok.x

BabyH200 another warm but sad welcome. So sorry to hear about your little boy. Our first baby Dexter was born in April at 24+2 weeks and stayed with us for 12 days before catching pneumonia which he was just too little to fight. We were amazed how quickly our feelings went from "we can never do this again" to "we have to do this again". Nothing you are feeling is wrong and this thread is a wonderful supportive place for whenever you need to rant, cry, ask advice or share happy news.

Too Maia is just beautiful. Welling up properly here! And what a proud looking Dad. There are so many beautiful baby names on this thread. We clearly all have excellent taste!

WTW IT sounds like Holly is coming along in leaps and bounds, so pleased to hear.

razzdazz Thank you for your kind words, they really struck a chord with me. I am lucky my friends and family are in general really supportive and caring but they have moved on a bit, and I think were a bit surprised at how upset I was at the weekend. The backround track of "You should be pregnant, you should be pregnant" has faded a bit now I am past his due date but I do still feel a bit lost.

Drove the car yesterday on my own for the first time and did a day's work. Go me! Am sore and grumpy today though, Gallbladder pain on top of AF so feeling a bit sorry for myself. Still, 13 days to go till my op. Not that I am counting them down or anything.

There seems to be a lot of sadness going on on this thread at the moment. If I could, I would have us all over for cocktails (or non alcholic alternitives) and cake (or healthy snacks). Sending as much love as I can over the internet. xx

Too is your friend really my MIL from hell????? As they sound like exactly the same people!!!! Glad your ceremony went well xxx
Wtw glad Holly's picking up??? Phebs , too, was born at 37 weeks however she was a massive 10.05 lbs & still managed to loose 12% of her body weight initially!!! Don t worry I m sure she ll be fine xxxc
babyh200 welcome... Sorry for your loss. My dd :Georgie was stillborn at 41 weeks on 10/10/10... I ve since had Georgie's sister:Phoebe on 18/10/11... Very sad & hard xxxx
Blizy sorry , u ok? Xxx
Hi to everyone else , sorry no namecheck got to hurry for work... Thanks for good wishes over weight loss am pleased look much better now.... Phebs still teething we re functioning on 4 hours of sleep it's a killer at work ... Off to flicks tonight ; think I ll sleep all the way through ... Wish we'd hurry up & get back to normal , this is a killer
Xxxxx

Oh too Maia looks just adorable, and what a proud daddy MrToo is I'm glad you had a wonderful day and it sounds like you honoured Thea perfectly. What a strange friend though about the flowers Maia and Holly certainly sound very similar in their starts! Her bilirubin levels had come down slightly again on this 2nd test so unless she starts to look dramatically more yellow I think that's it for blood tests - phew as it was horrible and she's got 2 bruised hands and 2 bruised heels! Fx for another weight gain tomorrow - she's up and feeding again so I think we've turned the corner

Aaaah, such a lovely pic too.

Thanks for all ur comments/advice. Got consultant appointment in post today. It's next weds, so not long to wait. Has brought it all back though so am busy painting every room in the house to keep me busy. Daisy is being cremated next weds too, so a double whammy!

Welcome babyh. Sorry u find urself here but there are some lovely, supportive ladies on here.

Sorry, haven't got the energy to name check but hope everyone is ok.

Pic of Maia at the party on my profile - with DH, so it's there for a limited time only.

Hello all!

Babyh, so sorry you lost your baby. My first baby Thea was born sleeping at 41+3 (that means 41 weeks and 3 days of pregnancy) on 13 March 2011. I have a rainbow baby now, Maia, born on 9 March 2012.

Wtw, do not panic re weight or jaundice! Holly will be fine! M went through exactly the same process - born 6lb 5, went down to 5lb 9 on Day 3, and we would have been back in hospital except that the MW calculated her weight loss wrongly and thought it was 11%, when in actual fact it was 12%. She was also very yellow and went through 3 sets of jaundice tests, 2 with the full bloods meaning they were squeezing her little hands and feet for ages trying to get enough blood. As you say, they were born at 37 weeks, by CS, which means that our milk didn't come in until day 5, and they were both on the small side. M crept steadily up the growth charts and leveled out just above the 50th centile. I wound up feeding her every 2 hours, expressing after every feed and topping up with a syringe. It was exhausting but worth it - and after that normal bf felt like a holiday!

Maia's naming day went really well. I discussed the speech with DH and he thought that I should do a proper toast to Thea, which I hadn't thought of - I was thinking that it was Maia's day, but once he had suggested it it seemed like the right thing to do. So I thanked everyone for coming, bringing food, helping set up etc and then thanked them all for the support they'd given us in the last 18 months and asked them to raise their glasses to Thea. Then I said a bit about Maia's name and toasted her too. I'm so glad we worked it out - it would have been wrong not to mention Thea. Had an argument with one of my friends, though - we were tidying up afterwards and I said she could take some of the flowers home, but not the red and pink roses because we were planning to take them to Thea. She said they were the only flowers she wanted and if she couldn't have them then she didn't want any at all. Another friend was listening to all this and suggested other flowers, but Friend 1 just kept repeating that she only wanted the roses. She didn't get them! Then she told my sister on the way home that I was being really annoying about the flowers. My mum bought those roses specifically to take to Thea after the party - they weren't up for grabs!

blizy so so SO sorry. You have had a really crappy few days. Nothing I can say to make it feel better, I know. Hugs from me x

fan your words made me too. So you get a hug too (whether or not you want one, frankly )

hi babyh I am so sorry about your little boy. I am quite new on this thread; we lost our beautiful daughter E in June, aged two days. She was something of a miracle baby - conceived naturally the month we started IVF, as we'd been told 'you need to do ivf NOW, or else...'. So while we are hopeful of having another child - she was our first - I understand the worries about not being able to, just like fan and some of the others here too. I am already more grateful than I can say for the support on this thread.
Maybe I should put that in bold - more grateful than I can say for everyone's support

wtw so glad for H's weight gain. Thank you for your kind words... I am trying very hard to eat well (and enough), I think perhaps just the stress of the whole situation is burning all the calories up. We are aware of it and will make sure I am getting stronger.
What flowers are you getting for Erin's birthday? Pink to match the writing on the headstone?

moomins 15 weeks!! Hope you hear from the hospital about your next appt soon.

Night all x

blizy Im so sorry AF has got you (that really is gash as DH would say), how are you doing?

wtw Yes I saw Erins stone, it is beautiful. I love the stars and the butterflies, it really stands out it has a lot of character as Im sure she would of.
Oh and Im glad H is putting on weight.

babyh all the feelings you are having are natural. We tried for a baby (ttc trying to conceive) for 18 months before I fell pg with Ophelia, and then she died from a knot in her cord at 36 weeks. I then fell pg three months later with beanbag (thats what we called it) and miscarried at 5 weeks. And then 3 months ago I fell pg again with bungle and miscarreid at 6 weeks, I feel like this is what my pg's end with death. But I so desperatly want a child, I will keep on trying, I love my three babies that will never change. Our feelings are so mixed, to be the mother of an angel.
Please tell us about your baby boy, we would love to hear about him.

Babyh200- a sad but warm welcome to our wonderful thread. I am so sorry to hear about your little boy.

Wtw- well done H, fattening up already! Sounds like you have a busy day tomorrow, remember and take it easy.

Sorry not to name check everyone, hope you are all ok? X

AF arrived earlier today.

So pleased you grant is in trickle do you have a date for your section?

Totally understand about not wanting to get anything ready Mias I felt the same and only had bare minimum stuff. Am now itching to get out and get her things I know she'll wear/use. Hope you're resting now the Olympics is over

Waves fan forgot to ask - have you seen Erin's stone? What do you think? Dp going to turf it this week ready for Saturday.

Make sure you are taking care of yourself Kleine you will need your body as strong as possible for another pregnancy xx

A sad but warm welcome babyh feel free to tell us all about your lovely boy x

Glad all is well Moomins 15 weeks already

Waves and loves to all xx

Well Miss H had gained back 30g of the 360g lost today so a small step in the right direction Repeat bloods sent to check the bilirubin levels, hoping they will ring tonight with results. Just about to go out for our first walk along the seafront and we're all going to register her birth tomorrow and to the florist to order Erin's birthday flowers

Ok so now Im learning some of the acronyms. My current worry is that I will never get my AF back and the shock of losing my beautiful son has sent me into the change or something. Dont get me wrong I know he can never be replaced but I've gone from 'never again' to 'what if this is the end of the story?' and I'm gonna be punished even more?

Thank you FAN and MOOMIN feeling at home already x

I didnt even know that PFB meant that. Theres always one or two you have no clue what they are.

oh and DH mean Dear Husband, DC means dear child, DD daughter, DS son.

BFP Big fat positive, i think these are the only ones that appear on this thread oh apart from POAS, pee on a stick.

Hello : ) I know facebook is fb but what is AF? and is PFB Positive pregnancy test? I feel really silly because Ive never really posted on forums before. Heads in a whirl at the moment.
Thanks x

babyh what initials are you struggling with, post them and I will tell you what they mean.

Welcome babyh200 glad you have found us but also sad that you are in the same situation. I hope you find this thread as supportive as I have.

Hello. first post today. Been reading the thread but confused with some of the shortened initials? Sorry if I sound thick lol. Anyway our beautiful son was born asleep on 4th July 2012 5 days before my planned section. Hello to all you lovely mums : )