Rainbow babies- for all of us holding, pregnant with and trying for our rainbows. While remembering all our darling angels

Been there fan with the fleas... Donnt seem to get them as much now with only Cleo as she doesn t go out half as much as Scottie did.... Xxx
Blizy bless little Alfie ... Remember our Scottie having the same done xxx
Mech you certainly see the best & worst of people at a time like this. As well documented I ve never spoke to my MIL since loosing Georgie due to her terrible acts of selfishness... Amongst other stuff: she bought Georgie some roses for her cremation then took them home after the service, was the only person to not contribute to Georgie's just giving site, talked all the way in the car to the service about crap whilst upsetting my Sis & BIL ( she was in their car), loitered at the end of the service whilst the minster was spending a few last minutes saying goodbye to Georgie with me & Ant... They re to name a few oh yes & allergdley tried to commit suicide 6 weeks after Georgie died because she was " suffering" totally unbelievable .... At lease you he's shown himself up for the selfish git he is... Sufficient to say she has nothing to do with Phebs , as only seen her once which suits me fine... Take care xxxx
Love to all xxxxx
Still dying here will be ringing in sick tomorrow ... & sleeping xxxx

Oh no fan! We haven't had them yet, fingers crossed. Alfie had his balls off on Friday, he has been fine and mad as ever!
Ov day is coming for me, had my first high on the cbfm this month. I reckon O day is thursday.

Kleine- your break sounds idyllic, I hope you can relax and enjoy yourself. Remember little E is always with you. X

Sorry, I have forgotten who to reply to i am blaming cocktail hangover my phone.

Hope you are all good, love to all of our angels. C

angel waited for the arrival of Phebs this morning lol.

trickle thinking of you.

The kittens have fleas so de-fleaing the house today oh what joy!

elly congratulations and I hope that your test today was even stronger.

Lots to catch up on so apologies but I just wanted to send my very best wishes to you elly.

Greetings from beautiful, secluded Cornwall (with wi-fi!) and very very excited congratulations to elly! Wonderful, wonderful news. So pleased for you&your DH . Am joining in with the chorus of 'here's to a very uneventful eight months'...

mecha/fan re my DH's uncle - I KNOW - isn't it awful someone could say that about their son. Implying they'd basically chosen the wrong baby when they adopted him, as he hadn't turned out as they wanted Frankly after reading that, it didn't matter that he didn't send condolences or mention our little girl - we just thought, ugh, what a horrid person you are... and it was almost funny, yes, in its total self-absorption. You do see what people are REALLY like in these circumstances, don't you?

Thinking of trickle and excited for you!

We are relaxing here in a lovely cottage and even had a mostly good day yesterday. So sad to be here without our daughter, though.
Love to all xxx

Thanks blitzy and fan and angel

Boring days right now YAY!

Mech thanks... Hope the next week flys by so u can get back to the important business of ttc!!!
Good luck Trickle cx
Fan that's a lovely offer ... Don t worry about the distance Phebs' ll be with u in the morning!!! good idea about the hotel will look in to it... Had a really good night out with some mates last night & we discussed all this .seems I m not the only one who, at times, feels like this!!! Problem with men is ; they don t think like women!!! , indeed , if they think at all!!!!!
Excellant news Elly so happy for you... Long may the new rainbows keep increasing for all of us...xxx
Hope u re all well!? I m feeling crap like I ve got a virus again. Started last night after I' d been out felt freezing, headache , aching etc... Thought I'd sweat it out ( pleasant) over night ... But no feel just as crap..., just hoping I feel better for work on Monday... So, my plan to be a vixen in the bedroom was completely out of the window!!!!
Love to all xxx
Smiling about Elly's news xxxx

trickle should have said aswell. Love nature names. Hazel, maple, etc.

trickle great names, I love the name Raven. Know a little girl in the states called this, she was great.

elly fantastic news!!! I am so happy for you both, hoping, praying and wishing for a boring 8 months. . x

trickle Dh wanted River if Z was a boy! I hope the lift can be sorted. x

Elly !!!!!!! FX for tomorrow's test xxx

fan we were thinking River or Raven for a girl but not sure about a middle name DH is insistant they have a middle name because he doesn't have one and feels he missed out

Have just had the OT round to look at putting in a through floor lift so I can independantly look after the baby/toddler and 'hmm you may have to move' was mentioned - I moved here because it was supposed to be adaptable and the old house wasn't, that's why the old place was reposessed! I've just finished getting this place livable ARGH! I'm ok though, this is why I'm so well practiced at 'nevermind it'll all work out in the end tra lala'

Oh Elly squeeeee that's fab news!! Here's to a boring 8 months or so xxx

Thank you!! DH said don't get too excited yet cos it's so early and to do another test in the morning - I'm trying so hard to not get too excited yet, but yes - please keep fingers crossed for a very sticky bean and a boring next 8 months (and another BFP tomorrow!).

Hugs to all xxxx

Elly if you hear a squeally noise coming from the north, it's me! How exciting! Have a wonderful spa weekend :)

elly congratulations! How exciting. Hoping for a sticky bean and a boring pg.

Elly eeeek exciting! Now don't you go lifting any heavy things

Omg omg omg just done a test because AF is late (put down to moving house stress and trying not to get excited /read too much into it) but there is definitely a +!!! Got DH to check it too and it's def there - trying not to get excited and will do another test tomorrow to be sure but YAY!!
We are going away to a spa with a lovely couple who have been such great friends since we lost Nancy so got to take it steady but I can barely contain myself!!!
Got loads of moving to do today but bil & pil are coming to help so it shouldn't be too bad, and if we get everything done then I'll really be able to chill.

wow lots happening on here the past couple of days.

poppet that is a shocking thing for a family member to say, your DH's poor cousin. What a horrible thing to say about anyone but also so insensitive to you.

trickle been thinking about you all day, cant wait to hear the news of baby trickle's arrival. Ash William is a great name. Do you have a girls name picked too?

mecha not long to wait till your op, it must be a relief to know its nearly here and you can start to recover.

blizy or should we call you Super Nanny! Hows it going? isnt ov week for you soon?

angel if only you lived near me I would babysit for you. How is it going today? Relationships are hard work, are you very touchy feely with your DH? I make sure I give him cuddles and pinch his bum makes him feel special. Might sound childish, but it does. Sometimes just staying in and spending time watching a movie or having a special dinner can be a step in the right direction. I think some blokes find it hard when theres a baby in the mix, they feel left out, or not top of your affection anymore. I hope your holiday away really helps, maybe ask the hotel if they have a babysitting service so you could at least have dinner together alone at least once during your holiday.

blue and miasmum wow you too are really growing now.

Well my tww starts now, Im going to try so hard not to obsess about symptoms this time, and I know I have said that alot but it does no good, so really going to try this time. Im loving this chill in the air, really loving the cooler nights, means I can snuggle up to DH with out him complaining Im making him hot!

Im loving the paralympics, such amazing people.

ooo just realised I missed a question - yes we did a really big shop and MIL has been here for two days helping DH to cook a freezer full of food into foil trays so we can just bung things in the oven . She's also taking a couple of portions with her so that if DH needs feeding but can't leave the hospital she can bring him in something that isn't a baked potatoe or a sandwich, DH runs on his belly.

Trickle Ash William is a wonderful name. Your hospital visit is going to be way more exciting than mine! Will be thinking about you and sending all sorts of good vibes. Happy lentil weaving! I am on Facebook if you would like to keep in touch. Totally non political here!

Take care xx

Good luck with the op meach, sound horrible FX it's all sorted and you never feel like that again after monday.

Kliene so hope those mice don't come in - can you get hold of something that smells like a cat? Just to stop them thinking your house is safe - you can get rodent deterrants, as long as you don't have pet rodants or a minature breed dog they are supposed to be good.

Thanks everyone so lovelly to hear from you all, I'm doing OK thanks, few minor mishaps - the mattress was supposed to be delivered today but the delivery driver went to the wrong number. They told me he couldn't come back till monday and I had a very unlike me hissy fit on the phone - he's coming back this afternoon . I went to a local sling meet on tuesday and met some fantastic people - I've even got a new facebook profile so I can keep in touch with people . Sadly to stop any politics all of DH's family has had to be banned which I am quite about, it's the few that spoil it.

I now have 4 slings people have leant me and a definate that I want to buy myself (along with several others I'd love to have but that's just greedy). I have 3 invites to mother and baby groups and a few breastfeeding support groups. My best mate is back from down south with a car and it quite happy to come over and take me out in my wheelchair. I'm not sure how wise it is for my social life to explode right now but we'll see. The only problem is I keep telling people this is my first, I didn't want to do that, I feel a bit like I'm erasing Sproglet from history, but it's so hard to start a possible friendship off with such a bomshell. I think I'll just have to deal with it.

I think I'm finally coming round to the idea we will be bringing a baby home this time - though I'm still not totally convinced. I've been daring to practice with the slings and relearning my nappy folds (yes it's time to out myself as a true lentil weaver)

Oh and we finally decided that if we think it suits the new baby we will use Ash if it's a boy, it's the only name we really like, but it would be Ash William. May yet change our minds but at least we've allowed ourselves the possibility of using a name we love.

Take Care everyone, might not be abel to keep up but I do think of you all, I'm hoping when I can start following I'm going to come back to newly concieved rainbow babies, people nearing their due date, healthy happy older Rainbow babies and NO MICE!

Morning ladies.

Wow Blue and Mias, 26 and 28 weeks! Exciting times :)

Angel Thinking about you. It is not fair to have so much preassure and stress on two people. I hope things get easier.

Elly good luck on the move! The reduction in stress and worry can only be a good thing.

Little I hope Daisys day went as peacefully as it could, and I am sorry you didn't get the answers you hoped for. I love hearing about your dogs too, they sound so clever! I would love to do agility with mine but she is not terribly bright and doesn't always listen to me if there is something more interesting!

Fan I am still giggling at Nuts for nuts . DH has started eating super nutty granola for breakfast and I don't think he knows why I am giggling at him every morning!

Klein I am just at your DH's uncle! I mean that is prize worthy, but I don't know what for! Perhaps massive insensitivity? That is so outrageous I hope you were able to find it funny rather than upsetting? Enjoy your time away, are you going somewhere nice? Hope the appointment goes well.

Blizy hope the babies were not too difficult to be around. You are really brave and a wonderful person.

WTW A year is such a long time, and no time at all. Hope the uniform shopping went well!

I know what you all mean about control! I am doing my best to install order on my surroundings and it just isn't working. I have managed to do a lot of redecorating and mu house has never been so clean and tidy. I need to get back to work though. The forced tome off through illness has been good in a way, it has given me some time to rest and not worry about decisions and things. But to heal mentally now i need to get back into everyday life I think. Not long now!

I usually feel not too bad. I have a constant mild pain in my chest, and I can't eat much. Last night I had a horrible biliary colic attack so I am feeling pretty awful today! The pain is amazing, I find it worse than labour. But they only last 1-2 hours (only!!). Then they leave me feeling sick, weak and feeble for a day so I am really feeling sorry for myself. Four sleeps to go. am going into hospital on Monday and getting the op Tuesday. Hoping to get home on Tuesday afternoon.

Waves to everyone, thinking about us all. And now I am going back to bed!

Just quickly - early night tonight, before our psychologist appt and then few days away - but I HAD to share...
We got an email from DH's uncle today, first time we've heard from him since E died. It was quite long, so obviously I am paraphrasing, but it was very clear: "As you know, we adopted your cousin [who is DH's age], and we must tell you that we're not that happy with him. He has been difficult and doesn't have a girlfriend. We thought you should know that there are problems in every house."
!!!!!!!!!
I am rarely speechless. But - I don't know what he wins a prize for - but surely that must be prizewinning?!

blizy you are obviously the best childminder in the world. How lucky your future DCs are...
blue hope all continues to be well and that you will be able to plan to have the birth you want.
mias ... well done you.
angel at 'woman up' - enjoy...! I will be thinking of you (though not RIGHT now as that would be quite inappropriate ).
Love to all Xxx

Miasmum whoop whoop 26 weeks .. Fabulous ... Hope u re making it through all your anniversaries ok? Hope u enjoyed your shopping? Not much between u & Blue ? Take care xxx
Little sorry I didn t realise yesterday was Daisy's cremation hope it went ok as it could? Xxxx
Blue my word ...28 weeks wowee.... Glad all was well at the hospital... Thanks for u re kind words xxx
Blizy thanks ... Hope you survived those babies??? Xxxx
Kleine thanks for your nice thoughts.... We just have to keep working together... Relationships are so difficult aren t they ? It's too easy to take each other for granted? Your day sound s productive & busy . Nice to see friends but chilling also. Take care xxxx
Hope all are well? Knackered here from work now got to " man up" for sexy time!!!( or should that be " woman up"???) xxxx

Hello there. blue Yay for perfect sized bump, but boo for possible infection. As for me, I am 26 weeks today, and have officially given myself permission to contemplate a few baby purchases now, so braved Mothercare for the first time in a year. 13 weeks to go...

angel sounds like you have been making some important discoveries about yourself and what you really want from your life in the past 24 hours. Without sounding all mystical and 'whooo', maybe voicing your concerns here also brought on your dream and other deeper feelings too.

trickle hoping you are enjoying these last few days, but bet that you are also very impatient now too - I would be!!

little9 while you didn't get anything clear-cut about Daisy, and it was all just terrible luck, at the same time, it sounds like you feel you can move on now. And remember what blue and fan said about houses and babies...!

kleine a very positive way of looking at things. Yes, our babies are definitely worth waiting for. If they had any idea just how much they are loved and wanted, there would be BFPs left, right and centre!

Hello to everyone else, hope you are enjoying the Paralympics, what a bunch of inspiring people!