The BESH Fillies Are Under Starters Orders

Really? The heat impacts on insulin? I never knew that! and I'm a nurse!

I'm finding work quite tough. I feel like some people have no concept of what I do so assume I do diddly! and so imply my job is meaningless. Some people think I do nothing and so they can pile loads of work on me. All for a job I have to hand over in two months. Demotivated much?!

Otherwise I'm ok, feeling better for the exercise and sunshine :) about to hang a load of washing on the line. Always like that!

Loving the heat - although, my insulin doesn't work when it's hot. Preparing me for pregnancy?!

How you?

How you doing kickass?

Not sure what the whooooshwhoooooshwhooooosh was but there you go

Ah that's better!

splooooooooooooooooooooooosh

Whooooshwhoooooshwhooooooshwhoooooosh

Anyone fancy chucking buckets of water over me like they do at the end of horse races?!

God, a swim would be nice. Am nearly at work, and already feeling the swelter.

It has been beautiful weather today. The Mister finished work at 8pm and then we raced to the beach for a lovely swim. Bloody freezing though!

Walked at a pace norf. Trying to melt the lard! Been gorgeous here although was stuck at work til 5 at least with my walks I feel like I'm appreciating the nice weather. And nature and stuff :)

Sounds like you have something of a plan then euro? Gives you a few options.

Ah wasn't the weather gorgeous today?

I think I am waiting for our respective parents to be unhappy and tell me I'm too young. And that I am destroying lives. I am too scared to tell anyone else really...

It took ages for me to pluck up and mention we were TTC

Amazing, fee! Walking briskly (from shade to shade) or ambling in the sun?

They were delighted and supportive, gnu :) Such nice people!

Well done on the exercise, wedding dress purchasing and droid kicking ladies. Just been catching up with fred.

Norfy gynae is in 10 days to discuss what happens with my abnormal cells. We've got no more fertility appointments lined up now. I have one IUI in my back pocket, already paid for, and we could presumably resume our NHS IVF cycle once I get a clear smear (although I think it is unlikely that we will ever want to given what happened last time). And we need to decide what additional tests we get with Gorgy. I still have no signs of ovulation and no cycle to speak of, which is getting a bit old now. I want to know that everything is getting back to working order after the drugs of evilness.

I've stopped practising :(

I feel like that about some people too euro. Two of my old friends from college have babies about 6 months apart - they never really had anything in common at 6th form but now they're best buds and go to baby stuff weekly and meet for coffee fortnightly. They are both very 'Mummy-ish' and I feel I have little to say to either of them. Some people I don't imagine may invite us to more stuff if/when we have a baybee. Almost waiting in the wings. Might be able to tag in with their second

I have done a walk tonight of about 6k need a shower now!

Northey - what was their reaction to the (mythical) pregnancy.

I did the same thing walking back from the shops. My in-laws got very angry with me for befouling their son, my mother started crying - but my brother was happy for me

I hate the "they've moved on" feeling. Ugh. I'm glad that overall it was bearable, though.

When is your next meeting with the foof doctor?

Evening BESH (and the odd PESH who is still around). I survived the Christening weekend. I'm glad I didn't do it on the IVF 2ww, tbh. Lots of babies (of course) plus hanging out with a preggo might all have been too much. At least I could have wine to help me through. The only bit that got to me a bit was last night when we were out for drinks with the couple we went up with (preggo) and the parents of the christened baby. At one point the conversation split into girls and boys and the other two women were chatting about pregnancy. And I realised I wasn't part of that conversation at all. I ended up chatting to the blokes instead. On the way back and KFZK commented that he feels that they've all moved on whilst we are left behind. It's true - and we're a year or so older than all of them too.

But it was generally a nice weekend - time with friends, lovely countryside and a chance to bomb about some fantastic roads in my pocket rocket.

I have been working hard all day! Apart from the 15 minutes I spent In front of the mirror in the disabled loos, practising telling in laws of my (so far mythical) pregnancy.

Project BMI baybee a go go here. I have walked for three hours and avoided snacking on any crap at all. And booked a riding lesson for tomorrow.

Oh and yes getting fitter will definitely win us all baybees. Project BMI baybee! Whoop!

Well in essence cavey, yes! I worked late (outpatients clinic(, popped to supermarket and had tea. Cleaned the kitchen - that's cardio, right?! Once dinner has settled (and painkillers kick in) I'm off out for a walk.

Droid/Druid still lurking at the mo - heaviest I've had for a while! - but reckon we'll be back on it soon, especially since I've got more energy now I'm walking :)

Happy anniversary bugs!

I am home today as well. Well, I will be until I get a proper job. Have another second interview tomorrow and need to do a presentation. Goodie.

We're back on the TTC wagon end of August - unless my levels haven't managed to drop like a measly 3 points in 6 weeks (would be doubtful). It would make me slightly on the higher side but it also means that I get an extra month in. I don't really care what anyone says - I went out on Friday night and we walked (fast - because we missed the boat - long story) for an hour, then I had some whiskey and a two course Thai food and managed to keep my sugar under 7.8 the whole night. So BLEURGH to control!!!

My husband said that's what happens when you give something that needs controlling to me. He then did a weird Michael Jackson dance move and an "awh" but I got his meaning...

How are we all?

I just woke up from a dream during which I met Cavelina - and you were making a life-size wall hanging of Frankel! You were really lovely (and also TOWIE tan... )

Sun sun sun has been amazing...visiting inlaws has included a little stress (going out on the sailboat has saved us).

Sorry for a wham-bam-thankyou-m'am post without proper hellos, but running off to a MW appointment.

Hope everyone is having a happy Monday!