The BESH Fillies Are Under Starters Orders

I am here. Equally glum, though, after some sort of brown pant splotch. Not blood. But not nothing, either. Bah. Droid due on Sunday, so I think this is the start of the usual two days of preceding spotting.

I seem to have killed Freddie...

Morning ladies. I don't drink tea. I even find the smell of it a bit boaky. I have a very occasional green tea or herbal infusion. I LOVE kick-@rse strong black coffee but haven't had any in over 6 months.

My buzzwams seem to have returned to normal after the weekend's extreme pain. That's something I suppose.

Thanks for al the enquiries after my menkulness wellbeing, laydeez. I think I am marginally less mizz than yesterday, but still in a pretty bad way. I have at least managed to order my thoughts, rather than just being a randomly miserable cahhh. I don't want to be doing this. I do want to stop. However, I am curious about the diagnostic aspect (can sperm meet egg and develop a healthy embryo and if so will the healthy embryo stick or be evicted by my hostile body, etc) and my head tells me that this is the sensible thing to do although my instinct is screaming "STOP". TBH, despite that, if this is something I was doing just for me I would stop right now. But it's not just for me, it's for KFZK too and I know he will be disappointed if I stop, even though he says he will support whatever I want to do. Why TF did I ever convince him to want a baybee, eh?

I still struggled with my faith. I sit in an comfortable place at times recognising that do much of what I do is ritual but every now and then I glimpse God and that encourages me to stick with it. Living with faith us hard sometimes.

Just on the boat with lots if musos. Gorgeous day.

Have fun dor!

I am joining eeyore/euro in the mizz corner. Massively down and struggling. Pain was really bad last night, had to take strong painkillers to get comfy so am drowsy now. I'm fed up of being ill even though I know the end is in sight! and tired of things getting in the way of winning a baybee. I'm pleased it's nearly the weekend and MSB and I have all of Saturday with nowt but pottering round the house planned. He's stressed out - lots of family problems his side and work future unclear :( Grr.

On the more lighthearted random conversation note - I never drink coffee. Love tea. Hate coffee.

cavemeister sounds like a really fun night! :)

Morning peeps, I will probably be incommunicado for a few days as I am off to Sark Folk Festival. I am obscenely excited about it!

Cheeky midweek drinking? I like your style cave

Good night, cavewoman?!

Extra handful of oats for euro.

Spent all of today in a training course. Ho hum. No new buzzwam news.

Mmmm tea. I only drink about 3 per day, but find myself getting a bit angsty and headachey if I go too long through the day without one. Only takes me one glass of wine to get pished these days, too. Just call me a lightweight.

Buzzwam watch: more normal today. Have been wearing one of my bras from when I was on the pill and boobs were at least a cup size bigger

Sending happy thoughts to eyore's euro's place of gloom

It's been a long process, but I would say I'm probably ready for the Tea-Drinking Olympics. I'd deffo have a good chance of getting in the squad.

D'you know I only started drinking tea at about 15? Before that it was hot Ribena all the way! I like my tea really strong which is why I find decaf a bit lacking. I try to have red bush or peppermint at times for variation.

Ditto. I honestly think I'm immune to caffeine, or at least the caffeine in tea.

The result of years of hard drinking tea-training.

I will possibly think about decaf again when I'm diffed, but not fussed for now (and have a massive bag in the cupboard to drink).

I didn't really notice the difference, TBH.

Just making a cuppa now. I have a secret stash of decaf tea, which is ok-ish, for that potential diffage, and also when I'm at home all day and can easily get through 6+ before midday

It's so that when I'm diffed I won't be traumatised by how much I'd have to cut down. To be fair, the woman on Supersize is drinking 12 sugary teas a day!

I luff tea and don't worry about restricting it!!

Mmm I luff tea. Try to restrict myself to 3 a day!

Not sure I agree with all the anti-tea chat on supersize/skinny!

I'm still doing Paul McKenna. Only eat half my pizza! Cut off a quarter for breakfast before it got to my plate too! :) he's influencing my brain. There's a bit on the CD that says your mind is becoming open to my suggestions ! I'll be interested to weigh myself when the droid has left town! Mmm chow mein...we rarely eat stuff like that, MSB isn't a fan and it tends to upset my digestive system. Shame cos I really liked it!

I'm watching it too, but also eating chow mein...