The BESH Fillies Are Under Starters Orders

I know, I thought they'd pass me at this point, given that most of my observations were satisfactory and give me more support next year.

I'm trying to tell myself it's all for the best. I was trying to get diffed asap and was really only using them for maternity benefits. Hopefully i can find a job now that's mostly 9-5 that I don't have to give up my life for. I still have my qualification, at least.

Oh alwyn that sucks :( I can't believe they've told you at such short notice!

Well my day sucked. Told by my head that they wouldn't be keeping me on next year as I haven't made enough progress against my targets. It is the end of term next Friday .

So I've spent the entire evening talking to CGH about our options. Best for everyone (we think) is that I jack teaching in and go back to accounting. On the downside, though, is that I won't get maternity cover anywhere until I've been somewhere a year. That means we're stopping ttc for the foreseeable, until I've got another job and have been there a year by 15 weeks before EDD.

So pissed off today, spent most of the afternoon in tears and now just wanting to punch a wall. Of course, I have to go back into school, bust my ass planning and marking until the end of term and have everything ready to hand over by next Friday.

You're doing what you need to do to get through this bugs. That is all.

the eagle has landed. The washing is in the basket and it only took 16 days of perseverance on my part!

I think the light....may...have dawned. He has 'found' two pairs on his chair. I said 'What about under your chair?' He hasn't looked yet but will. I think he will be surprised When will he realise it's because the washing fairy isn't picking it up for him? Place your bets now please!

Nice to see you sunny, how you doing?

Hi ladies

Just a flying visit

Work is beyond shite. Busy, boring, and unacceptably time consuming. I am exhausted. Body is doing god knows what (stabby boobie pains, horrible groin cramp and weird brownish CM - all making me menkul but desperately trying not to convince self we're definitely on the way to a BFP). Urgh.

euro that is just shite news from mr shiteface of shitesville. Really sorry hun. Grasping around for a silver lining, would this have gone unnoticed without TTC probs? Just wondering whether what feels like a super shite run of luck might actually be part of a grand plan that involves saving your life (and then of course being swiftly followed by winning a baybee....)

bugs don't make me hurt you. You have absolutely every right, and in fact need, to be off work. Be kind to yourself!

Bugs you could try the CARE clinics. There's a few in the Midlands / North of England. It's where we went for our genetics testing & they were very good.

Ps :( to potential droid womble cramps.

Yes cave I will not you. May point out to him there's only one pair drying on the line to see if that makes him twig?!

if its not office! Honestly, I really must check my posts before pressing the button!

dor office it's any consolation I did that a few weeks ago too. Pisses me off every time I look at it!

Right bugs have a you are perfectly entitled to be off work physically and emotionally. You would not have been signed off if you weren't. I know nuzzing about private side of things but hope you get the answers you need.

Epic fail on the pant gate front. I have come home to discover he has put a load of washing on....from the washing basket and left the pile of washing on/by the chair! how long til he gets the message?! I will not cave, I will not cave.....

Bugs, you can self-refer to many private clinics. Just pick up the phone and make an appointment (and make enquiries about prices so you know what to expect).

A lot of the recurrent miscarriage ladies on the Pred thread had had success with Mr Shehata. I have tried him and am going to have more extensive tests with Dr Gorgy soon.

You will burn through £1000 quite quickly though, be warned. I think my initial consultation with shehata followed by blood clotting and nk cell tests and a follow up consultation and prescription was about £1200 from memory. Someone else on the Pred thread is in a similar situation to me and has just been to Gorgy. She spent an additional £2500 or so.

I don't know about consultants outside London. Shehata and Gorgy seem to be the leading two in London. If you look on fertility friends for the immunology board, there is info about other specialists on there.

PS.

Dor how annoying.

Oh bollocks I just put a large scratch in the bumper of the car. Just bloody annoying more than anything.

Oh, and bugs - you are not skiving you need to be off work. Enough!

Exciting and scary to have the appointment tomorrow, at least not too much time to get worked up about it faif. Keeping things crossed for some good news on that score - luck ought to turn. And well done on both pants and sock-fronts! Maybe a bit more sleep is not a luxury!!

And euro I do hope your luck is turning, but it is a spontaneous BFP turning up soon after the procedure to remove the strange cells, resulting in a happy healthy baby for you next spring/summer, that I have put my money in for now...

I feel okay and am doing fine. It's just that normally my short term memory is really good and freaks me out when I forget simple things (like leaving strawberries out overnight on the work surface, not happy about that this morning). Brain mush is less then it was already, SB seems to think I function at levels close to his normal achievements... (I think that says more about him than me!)

Thanks for your comments ladies. I've bought a lottery ticket (my first in about 15 years). I figure our luck has to change soon. Even KFZK had a little cry last night (not normal for a buttoned up Irishman). It's just too much for both of us.

faif stay strong on pant-gate. You can see this through to the end. .

Dor I think every pregnant woman I know has complained about the looking-fat-not-pregnant stage. Your bump will pop soon and it will all be fine.

Sadly MSB does not do well with 'I feel' statements....given up trying!

lems I hope you feel brighter soon! Yes I do sound post-op don't I?! Remembered my socks today sp it's progress. Felt better for an earlier night so will aim for another one tonight.

Good news, gynae have found us a cancellation for...tomorrow! So we'll get the test results and know if the treatment had worked. Put MSB out if his misery wondering..,

I missed a whole page of pants all over faif's floor. Well done for keeping strong. My otherwise lovely SB is a bad offender too. In fact when we used to use Those Things as contraception, he used to leave the soiled ones by the side of the bed. Until one day my mum came round and saw them. He did understand that was minging and got better. Now obviously it is just pants by the bedside, socks on the dining room table and clothes absolutely everywhere. Sadly he's okay with me not washing stuff that is not in the basket, and he has too many clothes... Oh well.

Very impressed with the way you're talking to the Mister about these things, dor. I know that works, but when something annoys me I tend not to be so patient!

On other news I slept well, but now feel completely wiped out from showering and writing a post-card... I'll pop that in the post and have a snooze, I think for my morning activities.

First: euro I am so sorry, it is unbelievably shitty news. And I feel for you so much. Frankly you've been going through enough recently. It is time fate/luck/whatever is cutting you some slack. Have a breakfast bowl of pimms (I find gin on the empty stomach a bit much). So sorry!

Also sorry about the mehness cave and norf. I hope having a good cry will set you up better, I do believe in sometimes getting it out in one go.

Oh faif you sound like me, but I have the GA-brain mush which I am hopeful will bugger off.

Oh, and when I am dealing with The Mister over things that have upset or do upset me I use one or two counselling techniques. My favourite being "When you do it makes me feel like ".... so for example

"When you leave all your skanky pants on the floor and don't take the effort to put them in the washing basket it makes me feel like you do not appreciate either our home or the time and effort I put into doing the laundry".

I have to admit that it has workd quite well for me over the years ;)

I am fine at the moment although struggling with looking fat rather than pregnant. I don't mean to sound all ungrateful and whingey but having struggled with my weight for many years and it now slightly odd to have all my fat pushed upwards under my boobs to make room for baby, but instead of looking pregnant I just look like a barrel. Does that just sound a bit weird?

We are also in the process of trying to buy a ludicrously expensive house that needs loads of work doing but the vendor (who happens to be the States of Guernsey) are being arseholes and now we have got boundary issues which need ersolving before we buy it. Obviously I am now getting worried that we aren't even going to have moved in by the time the baby comes!

He thinks iambu simply for complaining! He is a bit previous about his pants. I will see if explaining that I'm only washing from the basket is enough to penetrate. The confusion on his face was amusing - they can't all be in the basket? No they're where you dropped them!
If not, binning them will be phase 2 :) usually I cave before now. How are you dor?