Rainbow Babies - hoping and trying for rainbows, loving and remembering our Angels xxx

august I am totall thrilled for you, Adam is a fantastic name, I loves it!

blue your poor sister sounds like she is having a rough time.

green Scottish you say? Me too, I'm in Glasgow and also melt in the heat. I burnt a bit on Wed and I was wearing factor 50! ( I was a ginger as a child, and I'm full of freckles)

HI mogwai Of course we remember you! Hope you are keeping well. x

fan/angel Your weddings sound fantastic! I am well

I was shopping today for dh birthdat present, every shop I was in had sad songs playing, Puff daddy's I'll be missing you tipped me over the edge. I can add River Island to the list of shops I have sobbed in.
I too am looking forward to the opening cermony tonight!

Hope you are all ok, sorry I can't name check Alfie has decided to lie over my arm, one han typing is a pain. Good job he is cute fan How are your two terrors?

Hi all,
Haven't been very active on here the last few days! Been very busy with arranging everything for the holiday club we're organising in 2 weeks, as I'm going over to Belgium next week to visit my family! :)

August congratulations! Your rainbow is a day younger than my new nephew

green I'm too hot as well! and I burn very easily in the sun, so I'm trying to stay out of it

wtw glad you're home! Enjoy your K's cuddles, soon she will have to share you

Oh yes for the newbies! If you are on FB we have a FB group as well, so if you want to join (you don't have to feel obliged) pm me your name and profile pic description and I'll see if I can add you (sometimes it's really difficult to find someone on FB)

I'm doing fine at the moment, my bump has really popped out now :) will be the 'magical' 24 weeks on Sunday...
We're flying over to Belgium on Monday night! the midwife was going to write me a 'fit to fly' letter, not that I need it, but flying with Ryanair but when I went to pick it up this morning it wasn't at the doctor's surgery... Not sure if I can be bothered to hassle her for it now, as I will need it on Monday... ah well, I'm taking my notes anyway so there shouldn't be any problem really. Fx

My sister is not coping very well at the moment, nephew had high temperature yesterday and is dehydrated, she's blaming herself that she's not breastfeeding well. But it is very very hot in the hospital... they decided to keep her in a day longer until Sunday (it's standard to stay 5 days in Belgium with a normal delivery) I said to BIL they should let her go home if it is that hot, but they need the support of the midwives and doctors at the moment. :( Feel a bit sad there is not more I can do for them... They have cancelled all visits and my sister is now going to extract milk for 24 hours and they're feeding him that and topping him up with formula too... Only a few more sleeps before I can be there to help her out!

Looking forward to the Olympic Opening Ceremony tonight! :) fan will be thinking of you! I know you're counting down!

August a million congrats xxxAdam is a lovely name .... It's so bitter sweet isn t it? However, the pure relief I felt at Phebs being here & alive was over whelming .. Meant we could move on to the next stage with new worries , not the same old.. So happy for u & your family..xxx
Welcome Adam : another rainbow baby to add to our ever expanding family xxxxxx
Green mmmm.... Home baked bread sounds fab??? Xxxx

Cross posted August!!.... Congratulations!!! Adam is a lovely name, I have known one Adam ever and he was very special, but it's a name everyone can say and know, while being quite underused, good choice, if you stick with it! How are you? It sounds like quite a long haul, but obviously well worth it! DS2 has perfect timing with the tonsillitis! ( making sure he gets his share of you too?)! xxx

Kleine indeed I am very glamorous???
1 day at a time , gradually over time the good days outweigh the bad but took me a long time to get there... Lots of hugs xxx
Fan couldn t recommend Cuba highly enough ( 1 of my fav destinations amongst my cruise, Egypt & Budapest ) xxx

I'm going to be very very British and say..... I'm too HOT! The Scottish girl in me burns at the first thought of summer, and I'm melting! I'm not wishing it away though, it's glorious. Have spent today playing with water and drain pipes in the garden with the boys and baking banana bread. Sometimes it's almost harder doing stuff I love, it makes it obvious that I'm not completely happy, and can't imagine ever being complete in anyway anymore. I hope for the sake of DP and DSs that this isn't true, they deserve the 'happy me'. I'm getting good at faking it I think.

I hope you are all appreciating the sunshine if not at work, and if working I hope it stays through the WE for you! Off to get the bread out of the oven... We are eating it in the treehouse!

Finally found some time to catch up with you lovely ladies... DS2 been poorly with tonsilitus - that and a newborn = rushed off my feet!
wtw seems you were in hospital for the same time as me! Glad you're home and feeling a bit better. Bit of a shame about missing what might be the one week of summer I agree. Not that I can complain - I feel like the luckiest person alive right now. You're on countdown now - not long
fan your wedding sounds incredible, am a little bit ! Where are you in yr cycle now? Lost track a bit. I know you and blizy are kind of in sync... I'm actually surprised to find I'm quite excited about the opening ceremony too! My boys will be staying up tonight.
poppet haven't officially "met" so sorry you're here but I would be lost without this lot so you're in a good place - as i'm sure you know already My baby Jacob was stillborn at 35 wks almost a year ago and I now have a rainbow baby - it's strange being so happy but still having an ache in your heart
Hi to angel, green, too, blizy, blue* and anyone I've missed.
mech hi, not really "met" either. So sorry about Dexter, I love that name - was on our list. Good luck on your journey. It's a long, hard road. Sadly longer for others.

Quick birth story:
Went in Sunday morning for induction but v busy labour ward meant I had to wait til the evening for first prostin, which didn't do anything. Had the second Monday morning and the third monday afternoon, a few contractions started but nothing really happened. So, Tuesday morning went to have my water's broken. Still nothing (!) - he didn't want to budge. Eventually it was decided I would go on an a syntocin drip, had a little wait for the anaesthetist (wanted an epidural) which finally got things moving and he was born at 5:15am on Wednesday 25th July 2012 weighing 7lb. We're calling him Adam, we think.

PS Hi mogwai. I can't imagine what you're going through, losing your DS at that age. It's just dreadful, I'm so sorry. I hope this pg is as uneventful as possible for you.
We lost our little girl E six weeks ago (at 42 weeks pg); she was two days old - she'd been deprived of oxygen for about 30 minutes and so had no chance of living longer. She was amazing though and we're so SO glad we had her. Just wish she was still here. Thank you for the welcome x

Just popping on to say that I'm thinking of Mecha, hope you're ok after your hard day yesterday. Actually, thinking of all of you. So much going on and so much of it very difficult xxx

Weddings in Finland and Cuba sound so glamorous. You are obviously International Women of Mystery for whom the only option is to fly off to interesting locations to get married

Things ok here. 'Good' days/bad days. Today is ok so far. Grateful for that! Also looking forward to watching the opening ceremony fan, although I don't know any of the specifics of what's happening, haven't exactly been following the news lately... a cauldron?!

angel I'll take that as a good reccomendation.

I'm just a bit excited about the opening ceremony, just beeped my horn at 8.12am this morning and I've been organising my day so that I have nothing to do this evening, I'm going to sit and watch it. I'm excited and hoping that it is brilliant. I'm hoping all our olympic greats are going to have something to do with the lighting of the cauldron. (DH thinks I'm a bit sad, but I love all this kind of thing, I'm very patriotic!)

Fan we first went there 12 years ago on our first holiday & so returned to get married... Was total bliss xxx

angel I'm jealous have always wanted to go to Cuba.

wtw when I get in from work I will link to our wedding venue, and also the website we found it on. I would love to go back one day.

Wowee Fan that is different .. We did the whole beach wedding in Cuba just magical... There was us, my parents, brother & sister ... Seems like a lifetime ago now...., lovely pagoda , on the beach for photos etc... Nice horse & carriage ride, our own local band: so easy & pretty ... Xxx

Oh fan that sounds absolutely a-mazing! Dp was just saying the other day he'd like to stay in an ice hotel - might look at Finland for his 40th!

That sounds amazing FAN!

wtw we wanted to get married somewhere different, DH wanted to do it on a beach but I found Finland. We got married in an ice chapel, were taken there by a reindeer led sleigh. It was amazing. It was just us, the best time of my life. We stayed in a log cabin and then on the lasy night we stayed in a glass igloo. It was magical and perfect.

Glad ds's hand healing well green know exactly what you mean about being taken by surprise. I found I could cope with seeing newborns if I was expecting it and could steel myself xx

Hi mogwai I'd been wondering how you were getting on. Good to see you. 29 weeks - wow! Glad you've had some extra scans. It is important to feel well monitored xx

Finland wedding fan that sounds fab! Why did you choose there?

Awww mecha Dexter is absolutely gorgeous. Just perfect. Hope you were okay visiting your friend from nicu. And can I just say what a very impressive dog your boxer is!!

Angel click on Mech's user name and it will take you to her mn profile

Still mainlining ice lollies here Looks like i've pretty much missed summer being ill this week - rain forecast all next week, boo!!

Welcome Mogwai congrats cx
August fab news.. Huge congrats xxx
Mech don t know who u are to look at your profile?? On Mumsnet or FB???
Green glad your son's hand is better... Cx
Hi all; hope you re all ok? So tired thank god I m off tomorrow ... Too hot for work xxxx

Thanks fan I wasn't sure if anyone would remember me. It's been a few weeks since I posted, I heard through a friend that her next door neighbour "found" my posts on here and I was worried that I was too identifiable. Everyone locally knows about our situation and I like this environment to be a safe place to talk without RL people knowing how I feel etc.

Pregnancy is going well, had extra scans to try to rule out some hereditary conditions that could've caused ds's disease but we can't rule it out completely.
I've surrendered to the fact that I can't control things.
mecha I've just looked at your photos and Dexter is gorgeous. So perfect and small, I wish he was still here with you.x

mogwai hey welcome back, hows the pregnancy going?

mecha Dexter, what a special little boy he was. So cute and tiny and perfect. Love the tattoos too. I have two tattoos, one of Fi's name and the other of a Sami tribal design from Finland, my DH has the same design. We were married in Finland and wanted something to show that.

green that must have been hard to see.
Glad DS's hand is healing well.

Mecha... Your son Dexter is just beautiful! You should be very proud to be his Mummy. It made me sob reading your profile about BFP and then the update when Dexter died. I'm so sorry he's not with you like the baby you are visiting today, it's not right. I hope Its not too hard for you visiting the baby, and it brings you some hope of things to come. Drs can be so random, I would try not to worry that they have changed their tune slightly, they seem to do that a lot and it doesn't mean much sometimes.

I've just been to the hospital with DS to have the dressing changed on his hand (which is healing well), and as we were waiting to be buzzed into the children's dept a mum in wheelchair who looked like she had had a cs with a tiny baby on oxygen and various lines was wheeled through. I almost fainted. I've not seen any ill or prem babies since Merryn, and it was so unexpected too. I am so scared for the boys I have and any more I may have now, it's like I know bad things happen and there is nothing I can do. I almost screamed at my DS2 for walking on a wall today. I hope I can build up some defences again because this is not good for them, or me!

Hi ladies, I'm a returning mum but I've had to name change as someone in RL recognised my details. I guess I over shared.
I have been lurking though so I wanted to come on and say hi to you all.
wtw I'm sorry you've been ill and I'm so glad that you got out last night. Hoping for an uneventful last few weeks for you.x
august I'm so pleased for you. Congratulations!
blizy and fan I have my fingers crossed for you for next month.
Hi to all the new members, I'm sorry that you find yourself here but hopefully you'll find it as helpful as I have.
My ds died last year at the age of 5. I'm now 29 weeks pg.

Mecha, Dexter is adorable, tiny and perfect (I love his name btw). x

Massive congratulations to August from me!!

Won't be back online for the rest of the day but Mecha I just had a VERY quick look at your photos and oh that one of you cuddling him is just gorgeous, so glad that you have photos and your SANDS box. How much did he weigh (if you don't mind me asking)? Of course he is tiny but looks so perfect. I can't see from the pictures, did he have some dark hair maybe? Sending you love today, it does sound like a very tough day for you xxx

Meant to say as well, totally agree about the precious mementoes of our little ones. We have a SANDS box the hospital gave us and it has become my most precious thing. When I am really down I will sit and cuddle his blanket. Have also put up some pictures of Dexter on my profile if anyone would like to see them.