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oh green that must be so frightening! We're here all the way to hold your hand!

Elly I know how you feel! I remember my sister moaning last autumn that she wasn't pregnant yet, they had only been trying since their wedding in July! I was so angry at her and I cried when she texted me in November to say she had her BFP and I still hadn't had mine...

spilt it's difficult all these remember days... big hugs x

wtw hope K feels better soon and the doctors can help her! we're skipping church this morning as E still has a temperature... pity as it is our vicar's last service before he retires. We'll see whether we can make it for a little while to the tea party this afternoon.

when will the summer come! I've had enough of cold rainy weather and colds and snotty noses!

How is ds today green?

Elly you are NOT a failure. Be gentle with yourself xx

2 years split what a rollercoaster

Well K's tonsils have swollen up to epic proportions so have got an OOH's doctors appt at 11.10am. Poor kid DP woken up feeling feverish and shivery today too!

2 years yesterday since I got my BFP
We were so happy and excited, we never imagined what would follow. I was sick as a dog throughout July and August and survived on orange juice, nectarines and toast. But she was alive and it was amazing

Oh green your poor DS, what a shocking thing to happen. Totally understand why it's so frightening, and I completely get the "I don't trust life anymore". I hope you slept ok and that DS isn't in too much pain. I'm sure he will be just fine next week, will DH be able to be with you all in hospital when they do the op?

So sorry Elly, it's not fair. You aren't a failure, none of this is of your making, you've been dealt a shite hand. 6 months sounds so long but it's no time at all. Have you planned anything to mark the day?

green I hope DS is ok and not too scared himself. I am here to hand hold.must be really though for you.

Thanks WHATEVER... Yes he's broken it, and split one of his fingers badly and lost the nail and nail bed. It looks horrific. He was so brave. His little brother thought he was going to die though.

Totally understand green I'd be a wreck if that was K. Another hand to hold here. Poor DS has he broken it? He will be fine my friend but do totally understand xxx

I can totally understand that, hope you are having a wee gin now. How is your ds?

Holding hand would be good.......and gin.
I will pull it together by tommorow, and I was fine while in the hospital (for 5 hours), I just crumbled a bit when we got home. It's just the thought of him being put under a general anaesthetic. I know it should be ok, but I don't trust life too much anymore, I know bad stuff happens.

Oh green. I'm sorry to hear that. Your poor ds. Please remember what happened to Merryn was very rare and not at all routine. I'm sure your ds will be just fine. Try to stay strong for his sake I know it must be so hard for you to deal with. In sure Merryn will be watching over her big brother. You can have my hand to hold if you need it. X

I'm a bit in shock...
We were at the beach today and my oldest dropped a rock on his hand. We went to a&e and were there until 10pm. He had to be seen by the plastic surgery dept. he will have to go back in for an op under general next week.
I can't face another child going for an operation. They said Merryn would be ok, she never woke up again. I can't do this. I don't believe this. It's too much to soon. I don't know if I can be brave for him. I'm so scared. My children are so fragile and I can't keep them safe.

wtw hugs! x shall keep the tissues close by! enjoy the school fair!

I got an apology from the lady who was supposed to cover for me on Wednesday, she said she forgot. :( ah well those things happen!

Poor Ella and Pheb's Hope they are both feeling better soon.

Watch EE with tissues blue! I really didn't sleep well last night. It forced me to think of some things that happened in the operating theatre that I'd forgotten/buried.

Off to Katie's school fair today - glad it's not raining but it is bloomin windy!

Love to all xx

wtw we do watch Eastenders, but recorded it, we were asleep on the sofa watching the football, shall catch up with it today!

E was wide awake at 5am this morning... I was in the guest room (DH snoring again) so got her out and in with me, she still has a temperature and throatache... at 7am I went into our room an handed over to DH who took her downstairs.

Indeed!!! Up again & again due to teething poor Phebs really is out of sorts xx

angel I shall consult my husband . I know how you mean, I mind a 16 month old and he has been teething for the past 4/5 months, it really is common sense!

Blizy can u move here & be my childminder pls? Xxx we ll weigh up our options Phebs not so good but think its teething but not really unwell enough to warrant another early off, if u get my drift?
Whatever don t watch EE it's depressing enough at the best of times. Knew something was coming up ( was on Chole's count the kicks website) pls don t get upset ... Watch something funny or light now , try & put it out your mind xxx

I will send you some virtual cuddles. xx

I half knew something was going to happen but I didn't realise it would be quite so graphic. It was actually quite well done. The actress was very very good. The medical staff not so! Be interesting to see how it plays out, the baby did give out a little cry and goes to nicu. That's what got to me, I remember willing and praying to hear a cry from Erin but we never did Wish dp was here for a cuddle.

Oh whatever not good viewing material for you, I don't watch EE {thankfully}. Hope you are ok?

Hi fan, how are you feeling?

I'm having a night in on my own, dh is out at a wedding reception he asked me out but I said no , it's a friend of a friend of friend. He only went along because he went to the stag do!

Damn that is quite shocking. Was it done in a way that made you think that it might make people be more aware of stillbirth and neonatal death? Sometimes its good when soaps do this but other times it can be done so wrong. Hope you are ok wtw?

One of the characters had a placental abruption at 29 weeks and they showed the emcs and her baby being resuscitated. Was fairly realistic and bought back a lot of memories of my emcs with Erin and also the shots of the teeny baby were quite shocking.

wtw what happend, I've been watching the football. Don't really watch east enders but you do hear things, was it something to do with the baby napping story?