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Some company, please. I'm a bit freaked out.

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ImprobableNotImpossible · 05/06/2012 14:03

Hello,

I haven't posted for a really really long time and I've name-changed (I think) because I really don't want to go at all public yet. So, if you recognise me from previous posts or (much worse) real life, please please don't out me.

So, in a nutshell, I have been unsucessfully TTC for over five years. I had one early MC ages ago and one cycle of IVF with a really poor response. Over a year ago we were told that I probably had premature ovarian failure, that there was no point in more IVF and that I would almost certainly go through menopause in the next couple of years. I was a very difficult time, obviously, but we were always realistic and coped pretty well. We grieved for a bit then picked ourselves up and got on with accepting and adjusting.

So, fast-forward to now and with several people close to us for the second time and with my periods showing no signs of stopping, we started to wonder if we'd given up to soon and I started tracking my cycles a bit again and we started a bit of low-key trying (we'd never actually stopped, of course, but we started paying attention to timing). I'm now on day 27, 13 DPO, and I tested yesterday and there was a faint, but visible line. Twice.
I've tested again today and there is a still faint, but more distinct pink line.

Ummm, so, I'm pregnant, aren't I?

We (husband and I) are a bit freaked out and have no idea what to do with ourselves. We can't tell anyone real and we can't actually believe it, but I am, aren't I?

I just really need some company until I'm more sure and less overwhelmed, but please no baby-dust or hugs or any of that stuff, I hate all that.

Thanks.

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ImprobableNotImpossible · 05/06/2012 14:50

I feel so ridiculous.
I must have read this sort of thread a dozen times and thought: "Silly woman, why didn't you just wait 'til you were definitely late?" and now here I am.

I don't even really know why I tested yesterday, I didn't expect anything, it was a whim.

The science part of my brain does understand that, for now at least, it looks like i'm pregant, but the five-years-in-expecting-lifelong-childlessness part of me just feels very weird.

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blackcatsdancing · 05/06/2012 14:44

does sound like you're pregnant. Congratulations. Stay off the alcohol, start taking folic acid asap (tomorrow if poss) and read up up early pregnancy care.

fanjodisfunction · 05/06/2012 14:36

I think thats all you can do ImprobableNotImpossible.

thankyou

ImprobableNotImpossible · 05/06/2012 14:27

Thank you for the quick replies and fanjodisfunction, I'm really sorry for your losses.

So, the message is cautious optimism, yes? Keep testing (no more than daily) and hope for the best.

I think I can cope with that...

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ImpatientOne · 05/06/2012 14:17

Sounds very positive, I hope it goes well from here!

PurplePidjinghamPalace · 05/06/2012 14:16

Congratulations! Thanks

Make an appointment with the practice nurse tomorrow, the one at the surgery I use was available short notice and absolutely fab when i turned up in complete shock and said "I think I'm pregnant" and promptly burst into tears!

:o

fanjodisfunction · 05/06/2012 14:14

Sounds like you are congratulations!

Im sure due to your history you will be testing for the next week or so, I have my fingers crossed for you and a very sticky bean. I will be here to hand hold, I had a stillbirth last year and two early miscarriages since so I know the heart ache of trying and well the amazement when one month it seams to go right.