The BESH Republic Of Rulvakia

Morning Rulvakians!

Loads happened since yesterday. So sorry about your friend queen. Agree with faif that all you can do is let her know you are there for support... Very sad.

Loved the mushy post blonde but I did not cry, so clearly I am not diffed. Great to hear you're doing so well. Adn dor just hang in there, you will get there eventually.

Sorry that the evil infection is back faith. Good luck with sorting it out. Pain is not good! The thought of your pg being announced in church made me smile. I really hope it will be your turn soon!

I hate those planning families, norf. Even if they are related, or maybe more so. Do people know about your ttc woes? If she does, the comment is bloody insensitive... I have been on tenderhooks for most of my SIL's pg worried she might encourage us to get a move on, in her charming way . But SB has told them about our situation now, so if she does I am fully within my rights to kick her (perhaps not in the pg belly, though).

Oh roly. Let's hope they caught it early. From a distance I'd send cards and texts offering an ear to bend in the first instance. Not easy I know :( how old is she?

In Faithland, urine dip has confirmed there's stuff growing in my urinary tract so I'm waiting to call my GP. Need to nip it in the bud early this time!

Cross post, roly. What dreadful news. Where is the cancer, if you don't mind my asking? :(

Congratulations, blondie. It sounds amazing and wonderful.

faif, if you are diffed by then you will be so happy you won't mind about not being able to say.

I have spent the evening listening to my sister talk about how she and her husband plan to "start a family." I just said "mmm" a lot. But now I feel ruffled and depressed and sure she will be diffed at the drop of a hat.

Thanks blondie. I think any win for a BESH -> PESH is always a positive thing. It's a hard fought win for anyone and we need PESH to pop back in to remind us there is light at the end of the tunnel! Sitting in church yesterday I imagined MSB and I grinning as they announced I was with child after my 12 week scan and it gave me hope! I think today I am :( because of my hormones - droid not expected and I'm so very frustrated that this pain is back! But I managed to ask MSB to help me without shouting at him for not being psychic so I'm pleased with that

queen I'm glad you had a good time. What awful news to come back to though :(

Thank you Faith, that means a lot. But do feel free to whine away. I always find it odd when people don't seem to have any inkling of how others might be feeling, on all sorts of subjects.

And to be honest, you have been through so much in the last year as well as ttc, you are more entitled than anyone. I am sorry you are still in pain. I hope things get sorted out and you can have a bit of gin stability in your life again.

That's beautiful :) I'm so happy for you.

I would like to whine about the two friends going on about their #2 babies on a FB shared message between a group of us, how much I'm dreading a mutual friend's wedding now since even if I'm diffed in July I won't be able to say but now it sounds churlish. I will instead say Ow. My pain is not going away. I will have to go to the GP again tomorrow. Boo. At least it's in the tww so I don't feel I'm missing out on an opportunity.

Oh Faith. Today we heard the heartbeat. It was the single greatest moment of my life. I cried and cried and I'm crying again now writing this. I really hope it isn't too insensitive of me to share that. I want so much for you all to have this too. Really can't describe how much I hope each day when I check this thread for a win. It's the only thing that could make me happier.

So er... to summarise, very happy (and quite hormonal).

How are you blondie?

It does get better Dor. I felt awfully guilty for wishing the days away instead of relishing every second - but now I really am enjoying it and I can't wait for you to do the same. Of course there will always be worry, but the joy will start to outweigh it. Lots of love.

That sounds wise dory. I think you've got enough on your plate! glad you're feeling a bit better and I took will be praying for no more of this!

Oh and I had to make a decision about whether I was going to do some training over the summer. I phoned up the uni and found out that it is two pieces of work, one of 4000 and one of 5000 works and I started panicking. It would also mean flying to London for a couple of days.

I just decided that what with this baby business, buying a house etc that I can't add myself to any more stress, so I had to break the news to my supervisor. Lucking she was lovely about it and I feel a bit better.

I feel alright. Just pissed off that it happened again this morning and praying like mad that it doesn't happen again tomorrow.

How are you feeling now Dor?

I'll give you a full pass to be too scared to enjoy it just yet Ambassa Dor. You have had a really scary couple of weeks and combine that with the tiredness you've had, I'm not surprised you've not enjoyed it! I think all you can do is keep focusing on the scan that showed a wriggly baybee. One of my friends said she loved the second trimester - she'd seen baybee on the scan, she had more energy and could really relax and enjoy it. I say give yourself a break. Make sure The Mister is looking after you with plenty of tea and chocolate baybee needs iron! , get plenty of rest and like kat said, hopefully when you're past 12 weeks you'll start to feel better.
In other news, drinking at the weekend has caused my pain to flare up again. I do believe I'm going to have to go tee total for the foreseeable future

Oh Dor, how horrible for you. Your reaction is totally understandable.

I can't offer any advice but I'm here to hand hold and hair stroke, and have a large halibut in my handbag should you need a slap

Permission granted for someone to come and batter some sense into me.

I am officially not enjoying being pregnant at this point. I have had another bleed this morning, pretty much the same as on Friday. It was a rusty red colour so I am assuming that everything is fine. I am just royally fucked off that it took so long to get bloody pregnant and now I cant even fucking enjoy it!

I feel like hiding and crying and sulking today. :(

Sorry booze and knackered lemon=inability to spell

Massive fnarring on both visualisations (so sad I missed out on that when I was lying with my legs acimbo last week) and the seeing Frankel privately

Well done on blitzing, fee. I tidied and did loads of laundry yesterday morning, but did lots of cooking and baking so it is a bit of a dirty kitchen again and I cannot do anything now, because I ache after a 3.5 mile run [proud emoticon!]

Quick wave before vegging. Busy day at work tomorrow, so won't be seeing me too much. Had a massive why and why and why break-down about the shitty stuff, so might need to banish myself to the Hut (although my approach was exercise and no internet and lots of booze, despite outsourcing, and it seems to have helped!)

Dammit, Gil = girl

Take the Lead is a fabulous film faithy. The tango scene between Morgan (my Gil crush Katya Virshilas with dyed hair!) and Antonio Banderas is brilliant.

I do love a good tango!

at bugs doing a Nikki Graham! Hope the holibobs is still enjoyable!
I am pooped. Stayed up late with sis and bil setting the world to rights. Stayed over and got a 6.30am wake up call in the guise of an excited two year old! Ouch! Been to church, was really good and made me feel more positive. Then my lovely Dad has helped me blitz our bungalow. I mean blitz, I've cleaned the kitchen - wiped all the cupboards inside and out, wiped all the skirtings, cleaned the bathroom - wiped all the tiles etc then Dad vacced and I mopped all the floor tiles so they are ready for carpets. Tis sparkling! Followed it up with a pub lunch to say thanks. Have had a bath and washed hair, changed bed, done the ironing. Exhausted just typing!
MSB is on his way home a bit :( his beloved Luton lost. Oh dear. I'm installed on the sofa watching Take The Lead. My mum described it as 'nice, clean, fun film'. don't tell anyone I'm rather enjoying it!