Just MC and ready to try again? Pregnant after MC and seeking somewhere safe to hide? Come on down to the mosh pit for some serious metalling and cake overindulgence

Afternoon everyone,

I've just had a long think about my mmc for the first time in ages, because ed sheerans released this song little bump the last sentence really struck a chord, its beautiful, and obviously about pregnancy loss. I just wanted to share it with you all.

Xxx

try not to panic jaffa. it's totally normal to not feel the baby at 15 weeks.

that appointment would scare me if it reminds you of the past experience. try to chill out if you can it's onyl a couple more days.

your hospitals sounds really bad grand and boris i am lucky mine seems pretty good so far.

boris, good luck with the hcg results. I am sorry you had such a carry on to get them.

Thinking about you mumtum. Not long to go now. Big hugs.

I am in a bit of a state. No reason, other than pure and simple metalling. I cannot feel thd baby move, which I know is normal at 15 weeks. I know. But I am flapping anyway. I have a MW appointment on Thurs, where they will check for the heartbeat. This was the start if the signs that things were wrong with the 17 wk mc. I cannot tell you how scared I am of this appointment. I hate hate hate dopplers. And I do have to go to the scan on my own next week. It could only be arranged for 2 wks later, so a bit pointless really.

Also, my ever fertile friend has announced she is expecting her 4th child (her eldest is still 4), in November. I told her about my pregnancy too. But now I keep thinking if when things go wrong, I'll have to keep being happy for her when I am grieving. I know it would necessarily happen, but it might, and it is scary.

God, you were treated dreadfully, I'm not surprised that you're not happy with the idea of continuing treatment with them.

It's so difficult because I found that they were much better with everything for me than PRUH were, so I'm finding I'm getting better treatment there. The consultant I'm under (Mr Booker) for recurrent miscarriage has been great, although I did bypass the usual system and self refer to him as it was all taking too long and I'd already had a BFP so I wanted the testing done NOW.

Where do you think you'll end up? A friend of mine had her baby via ELCS at Lewisham and said they were very good (I think they had IVF there too) but I've heard bad things about there too. I didn't really rate Tommy's when I went to the EPU there, but the staff at Kings were lovely when we found out about the last MMC.

Just realised how many hospitals I've been to in this journey... That's not all of them

Boris, that's really odd because I've just changed from PRUH to Croydon - I know it has a terrible reputation but honestly I've had much better care from there than I did from Princess Royal.

The EPU is in a bloody stupid place though, it's tucked away behind the service buildings. They get your HCG blood results back quickly, IIRC - I think I had it done first thing and then got a call from them that afternoon.

Wonderful news manda you have been such a source of support and information to all of us on here, I am so pleased you have got your happy ending!!

martha I had exactly the same at your stage, it lated for 5 days and got progressively worse, even one wipe of red and I was convinced it was all over again as that is how my chemicals started. However the difference was I had no cramps. Fingers crossed!

tiago could it have been discharge? I seem to be getting that lots and it has me rushing to the loo to check its not red!

martha - thanks for the invite to the VIP area!! Am glad your gunk is clearing too - so it mine

Sorry for briefest of posts - DS3 screaming blue murder and I have to get out go and do something to stop him!!!

marbles Just to be certain, did these come from your... kitchen?!

mumtum Holding you in my thoughts. In theory, I'm sure you can have another scan if that's what you really need - but it may well be a case of they'll cancel your current slot for the erpc, book you a scan and then rebook the erpc. It's worth asking what the protocol is, you never know they may just be able to slot you in for a two minute check before your scheduled surgery.

Hooray for brown gunk vanishing marff - certainly sounds like implantation... oh, and stop waking the blimming baby, jeeze!

Ugh. I'm having crazy pregnant lady metalling.

I changed hospitals a few weeks ago because I got pissed off at the uselessness of my original team, and was told that the existing bookings should be cancelled.

I got a call this morning from the original hospital's antenatal team asking me where I was as I had an appointment with them. I said I thought everything had been cancelled, and got an indrawn breath and an 'oh, I'm so sorry, don't worry, I'll take you off our list', . And now I'm panicking because she thought that I'd miscarried and what if it's fate?

Fuck, I'm actually like a crazy. Still, three days till I find out if it's still going ok. I wish I had a viewing panel in my pubic area. It'd make life MUCH easier.

i have booked my MW referral appointment on Friday morning

it all just feels so real

mumtum i think you should just tell them all that you have told us about your existent symptoms. i just know i would feel exactly the same.

Morning all

Thank u to all of u for the erpc and scan advise what im surmising then is it will prob be a No to a scan unless I start bleeding in which case I wouldn't then need one as I'd know it was all over > I think im finding it so hard to accept as everything was still intact no collapsing sac nothing add that I've had no pain or bleeding and I've got full symptoms again just seems impossible that I'm not. In fact if I'd had no scans I'd still firmly be believing I'm 9 weeks preg and my nt scan papers came through this morning 15 th June And I'd be getting all nervy about that.

Just so want to believe that by some miracle they may have got it wrong though I know they probably haven't ....Or they wouldn't have booked the erpc right?

Bluecrane I get what your saying about the ic cheapies and have just ordered some after my mc in dec it took 7 weeks for the Hcg to finally appear as negative I hope it's not the same this time

Marf I'm glad you are feeling more upbeat with the brown goo I'm sure it's just implantation

Midget hope u do stick around

Boris how's things with u ?

On phone again so trying to remember all as I can't scroll

mmm breakfast!

marbles 'kitchen floor' you little minx

brown gunge gone and i feel sick today with tender boobies someone asked upthread what i was taking, (sorry cant remember who ) but i am taking junior aspirin, folic acid and sainsbo's own make of pregnacare.

Morning ladies

Have a great Monday

I had a scan before it mumtum because I'd passed a little clot the day before and thought that was it, so the scanned me. I hadn't but the nurse was lovely, and did say the sac was starting to break down.

Take a good book with you on Weds in case you're waiting. I took a week & half off work afterwards which was just enough for me, you'll prob feel tired the first day or too, from anesthetic if nothing else so try and keep a day or 2 free for some sleep if you can. Hope it all goes well, will be thinking of you.

I also didn't have a scan before my erpc, but the no heartbeat was confirmed by a second sonographer at the original scan, so I guess it wasn't necessary.
I had a couple of days off work, but tbh, I felt ok the next day, apart from the bleeding.

martha glad the gunge is tailing off...could be the bean burrowing deep down ready for the long haul thanks for the baby dust...not started yet im eating M&Ms and watching the voice i will rub the magic baby dust on our kitchen floor bed in a bit though

midget are you STILL on holiday

mumtum i really dont know but you are not 'stupid' because i would feel exactly the same way, i would want to see absolute proof before going down the ERPC route, and if you are not bleeding then, well lets just say i am totally with you so demand ask for a scan.

marbles i am so pleased that you are enjoying your new job, i know things have been crap up in the air for you job wise lately so brilliant news and thrilled that you are in your happy place

Hi mumtum I had another scan before they started the EPRC, but I knew it was all over as I believe I passed it all naturally two hours before the procedure. I guess I was "lucky" in a way as my mc did not hurt and was not very bloody. The hospital did the EPRC anyway, just to make sure. My big fear was that the mc would happen naturally before I got to hospital, but it wasn't was bad as I had thought it would be. Hang in there, wednesday will be here soon. I'm 3 weeks past my mc and beginning to see more light than dark.

Mumtum just a quickie. Don't think they do rescan as they only send you when sure but I am not 100% on that. Often wondered myself.

The anaesthetic can wipe you out a bit and your tummy feels a bit blown up sometimes but I have had EROC and been back at work 2 days later. Wouldn't advise it but physically I was ok. Other times I have taken the week off. I find them pretty straight forward and just make me a but sore.

beat go, just didn't want to read and ignore. Data roaming will catch me. Night night.