Just MC and ready to try again? Pregnant after MC and seeking somewhere safe to hide? Come on down to the mosh pit for some serious metalling and cake

Ugh. I went to the loo earlier and when I wiped there was a small clotty blob, about the size of a 5p piece. No further bleeding, but we're less hopeful. I'm so bored of feeling like this.

I gave up OPks after day 25 I think. Oh well wait & see! Thank you!

Congratulations on the scan mad and on all the movement :)
I know what you mean about jinxing things - it gets to the point of obsessive doesn't it? I expect once you've told a few people it'll feel more normal and you'll stop worrying about it so much.

Yes Kirrin, the 12wk scan was a relief, i was dated as 13+2 with mine so a bit further along again. This baby is particularly active i think , didn't stop on scan and I can feel movements alread when I'm lying down quietly. This all helps me feel more settled but I'm convinced I'll jinx myself by telling people (which i have to now), or by thinking about names. that's all nonsense of course but the its the way our brains work unfortunately.

Frustrating isn't? I used opks in an effort to predict when af would come, but I didn't ov that cycle, and af just rocked up unannounced. It seems there is no pattern to it. Fx'd it turns up soon.

Thanks Kirrin. My cycle was/is irregular untill Metformin kicked in. Stopped taking the met when I found out I was PG. Started retaking Met last week in an effort to kick start my cycle. Just feel very sick today, yesterday felt like period pain but nothing happening!

fairy mine was 29 days last time, but 42 the first time - so I guess it varies hugely?

Thanks mad I'm not quite past my point of mmc yet - Thats tuesday, but I didn't want to book the scan too soon, so I went for 9 weeks, that takes me past my 'danger point' but not so far past that I'm a gibbering wreck by the time I get there!
Glad to hear it's getting easier for you - I imagine getting past the 12 week scan must be a bit of a turning point?

Sorry I haven't been around for a while.

Need some advice - how long was your cycle after mc? Day 40 (40 days since losing the baby) & feel like its never coming back!!!

*two mmc (doh!)

Totally normal feelings kirrin, the scans will help to put your mind at rest I'm sure. Sounds as though you've come as far as you mmc already so that's another positive.

I had my DS then to mmc, now 14 weeks and all ok. Still knicker checking every now and again, but it's getting easier. Try and be positive. I haven't had any overwhelming symptoms this times, so i don't think you need to be as sick as a dog to be positive xx

Hello everyone - mind if I join you?

I'm 8 weeks pregnant following a mmc, and in my first pregnancy the baby had anacephaly so ended at 13 weeks.I do have a DD though, so not all bad.

Thing is, being pregnant after my first loss wasn't that stressful. Anacephaly is pretty rare, so while I did worry about something going wrong, it wasn't all consuming IYKWIM. And DD was fine so it all turned out well.
This time, though, I'm so stressed I'm bordering on tearful a lot of the time - is this normal? I'm guessing it's because mc isn't rare so I know it's entirely possible it could happen again.
I had a scan at 7 weeks, which was fine, and they booked me another at 10 weeks. But that seemed like such a long way away that I've booked a private one for next weekend . I feel pregnant - ms and tiredness mostly - which is reassuring, but I can't stop that feeling of doom.

Sorry, I've written a me me me essay .
I need to go back and read through the tread, but man you guys can talk!

Enjoy London.

modelling sounds very glam manda will look forward to seeing you all dressed up.

mrsn hurrary for seven weeks, and for a holiday. You never know.

tits I hope it all stops soon, metal away but don't blame yourself, there is nothing to be done, you know this.

jaffa yes I had her at home, was glad I planned it that way in the event! Would be looking to do the same with any other term babies I get, so technically booked in for home birth for this one as well. Hopefully without DD as midwife though she'd love that I'm sure. Even mini- toe was fast, he took 40 minutes to make his exit after they gave me the drug. Kind of adds to the feeling of being a ticking time bomb though, with my risks of prematurity and stuff.

ok, ok, so I'm pushed for time still... but as you want to know:

It was a fab experience... but I'm not hopeful about the results! The styling was...interesting. I know make up has to be piled on, but it wasn't my usual colours so just looked odd (to me) and my hair! Jeeze! It was all boufant and curly... totally over-styled in the american housewife kinda way. That was for two outfits, both of which were not 'me' and I'd never choose in a million years - a pair of denim shorts with a sleeveless coral tent top that has white flowers on it. A crepe-y probbaly polyester material. The second a vest style maxi dress in black and white stripes running across the body.

There were three of us, and for the final bit had to sit on a sofa together talking about pregnancy/materity clothes - I asked to have my hair up for that so they did this weird plait thing that was quite nice but perhaps too 'young' for me?

Anyway. Will link to it when it goes live on their website

ooh Martha, enjoy London its fab is London, xxx

Brown discharge has now stopped, all back to normal, boobs very sore and tingly again this morning, this is somewhat unusual for me.

Because this has happened SO many times before, and we have ended up cancelling a holiday and putting everything on hold, i refuse to do any of that this time. I know exsactly what to do when it starts and there will be a hospital nearby to the caravan place. So i will get my drugs and G&A.

The other thing is, if this is a blighted ovum, i usually take the "abortion drugs" (jeeez i HATE that description), and i can choose when to start these, so have a great deal of control. Only once has it happened spontaneously, that was out of my own choice.
This feels very much like a blighted ovum becuase the bitch is that all symptoms are there and you have absolutely no clue that something is wrong. That is why i am able to carry on as normal.

Also, time is going quite quickly by carrying on, i have got to 7 weeks today, normally the days crawl by while this is happening.

We are away till Thursday, i will book an earlier scan for the end of next week, so that i can get the drugs at the weekend and be back at work on the Monday.
Theres a plan..

OR

early scan shows a little baked bean with a flickering hb....and i can shut up and be proved completely wrong in my doooom & gloooom

tits You have done NOTHING wrong. Continue with some low level metalling but drop the guilt element. X

Pebs, hope you have a lovely weekend.

2LittleMonkeys, are you in your wtf cycle? Sorry if tmi but I had pink cm after the bleeding stopped, and there was a lot of it. It was quite ridiculous. It went paler and paler and then we dtd. Afterwards I read somewhere that pink cm can be a sign of fertility. Of course this might just be good luck on my part, but maybe it's the same? Only ever had it once.

msC if I am Penelope pitstop, you are Speedy Gonzalez! When you get that far into your pg, fingers, toes and legs crossed, I think it could be something to talk to your mw about. Did you have home birth with DD? Did you have hone births Manda.? My mw is trying to talk me into one already. I am v much in the mindset of one nice 8 week scan does not a baby maketh, but would be interested to here your experiences.

Well, I am off to my friend's hen party today. I want to lie in bed. I have to give a speech, which I have only vaguely prepared. But I love her very much, so have to pull myself together and get on with it. Have 2 hrs driving to get my mind to it so should be fine.

I don't think you did anything wrong tits but just try to relax where you can and also try not to get in situations which may make you feel guilty (like walking up steep hills!)

mrsn hope you are ok. I have my fingers crossed for you.

manda tell us about the modelling!! Keeping all the good stuff to yourself

I am ok. Just getting on with life really. I am going out with a friend later then staying in with dh tonight. I am trying to relax and eat healthy as I felt exhausted this week when I was at work.

I want to feel normal again before I ttc.

Morning, no cramps this morning but I've convinced myself the nausea isn't as bad. I'm not sure if it's all going wrong or not. If it is I wonder what I did wrong? Stressing about hospital? Climbing a steep hill last night? Who knows. Just praying little bean stays put!

Morning all, positive midget is back, going to attempt not to metal for at least a couple of days and not make it all about me. My strength of metalling yesterday snuck up in me but you know what? So glad I got checked out immediately. Would always advise the same for anyone else. You may look like a bit of a twat but reassurance or knowledge is well worth it!

Tits on that note are you still having cramps or has anything changed? I had some wretched ones around 6/7 weeks. turned into nothing sinister. Hope this same is true for you x

Wriggle hurrah in a BFN and for some serious SWI. I am always so relieved when a mc completes.

mrsn how are you doing? Hope you mange to get some distraction faro
Your break, and at least can relax.

Martha - sorry about your friend. I know what you are saying about perspective, I also get miss C's comments about our worries being real. They are not mutually exclusive and I don't think any offence was meant or was taken. I am hoping that you have to pretty offensive on here to upset the Metallers.

Had dinner with good friends who had failed IVF for number 2 an have now given up. Should have told them, really wanted to tell them. Just couldn't bring myself to do it. Still feel happier keeping it all secret. Also know personally how other people's good news sometimes cuts like a knife and didn't have the guts to see which way it would fall. I look 5 months gone so this a fairly unrealistic day dream, belly sticking out like a water melon and it was previously flat.

Manda modelling update please, let us vicariously live through you .
TLM in my experience CM can come every colour of the rainbow. Are you otherwise ok? Hope so x

Sorry if I have missed anyone. Posting from my phone as dd and DH snore beside me.

Thanks for all your well wishes and especially the licks. I am 10 weeks. I am pregnant for today. I have hit some pretty big milestones and I am full of hope again. For today anyway. And that will do.

nooo martha you haven't sorry if I did. I was trying to fuck knows really make you feel better. Didn't work. Bloody internet never sounds right.

midget I'm delighted all went well with your scan!

tits fingers crossed the cramps are nothing. Good that you get to spend Easter with your family though!

More metalling from me today, pinkish CM - what the....?