Oh barbie this is the worst thing about having pets. We had to have one of our dogs put to sleep last year, it was heart breaking, even though you know that it?s something you have to do and that it?s the kindest thing, it doesn?t make it any easier and it?s still like losing a family member. Some people don?t get that though - I can remember when our family dog died, that had been around ever since I was tiny, she was 17 - a 'friend' said why are you so upset, it?s only a dog! When we had ours put to sleep last year, it was a week before I could even tell anyone at work and even then it was bloody hard to say it. Like the others have said, hope it will be peaceful for you all when the time comes.
4ever I refer to my two as ?babies?, for me it makes it easier although I guess that it is personal preference. I too carried one to 13 weeks, and you know only too well how much they have developed by that point. I can remember the doctor asking me if I wanted to see him (I always thought of him as a boy) and I said no. I?ll never forgive myself for that. It haunts me every day. Anyway all I?m trying to say is that it doesn?t matter what anyone else thinks, you remember how you need to, whatever makes it possible for you to get from one day to the next, after all, most people haven?t been through anything like you and have no room to comment (present company excepted of course). Also very sorry to hear about your sister ? wishing her a speedy recovery.
blue agree with the others, you always have such a lovely way with words, you seem to manage to say what I would like to but end up doing rather clumsily.
Well af arrived for me on Monday :( so only 2 more rounds of clomid to go. I am determined to do it, I really don?t want to go through more prodding and poking at the hospital. But obviously I will if it comes to that. As a separate matter, dh and I have been seriously considering fostering. We are rattling around in a house with spare bedrooms and we could easily give a child or 2 a temporary home. I know that it?s not a permanent thing and that I?d probably get too attached, but there are so many kids in our area that need help, it seems crazy not to consider it. I mean there?s a 2 month old kid who needs a home ? 2 months, that shocked me. For me it?s more about wanting to be a mum, it?s something I really can?t get over at the moment, and my desire is stronger than ever, and if it turns out that I am only ever a temporary one, well then that?s better than the alternative. For dh, although he agrees with me, he was put into care when he was young and spent a lot of time moving to and from different homes, and stayed with several foster families, so for him he says he?d like to be able to give something back. And then ultimately, if it turns out for whatever reason that we can?t have a baby together, we would go down the adoption route, and then any fostering that we?d done would stand us in good stead.
Big ramble, very sorry, was good to write it down. Intended to post more personals but now ran out of time 
sorry. Hopefully back soon.